Day 517 Cool Creation

continuing from previous blog

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself for taking a stand of self-responsibility within and as cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to take accountability for my expressions here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that cool cannot be created within particular situations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing cool to be a conditional term.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be conditionally cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deciding to remain within conditions of cool as like self imposed restraints as a result of the mental frame worked judgments that act as like bars/veils that keep me from seeing/realizing the extent of cool that is possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for submitting myself to acts of frustration for lack of cool here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to think and believe that I am all cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding cool as a point within self-expression as a looking at things and forming an agreement within oneself as to how to participate in a particular moment as like having the harmony of mind and body physicality here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing coolness as a point of self trust.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be an example of cool potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that I am responsible for granting myself access to myself as cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that by suppressing coolness within myself I am accepting and allowing a coolness suppression throughout existence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the suppression of coolness throughout existence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having extensively feared being uncool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be uncool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deciding to be uncool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deciding it is easier to be uncool than it is to be cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to spite myself within disregarding my coolness potential in self expression as the self-realization that coolness in self-expression is a point of self-agreement within and as physical participation as the point of living equality and oneness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing the starting point equation to all creation here as oneness and equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deciding I don't have time to be cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that what is cool is not really cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having decided to try to act cool from within a starting point of doing things that don't seem cool but are regarded as cool...like copying/mimicking pop culture as what I see in movies and television that is portrayed as cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to program cool based about judgement from television and movies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as the creative force of cool as like the author and authority of it as I write it so as how I paint/say/speak it so as an expressor professor.

To be Continued

Day 513 Branding/Marketing Style Part 4 Self Corrections

When and as I see myself judging styles, I stop and breathe, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from particular styles, I face myself within and as the point of style, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react to a particular style, I look and find the earliest memory within myself that triggered the reaction within me to a particular style, I realize and understand the separation within judgement. I realize and understand my self-responsibility to correct all accept and allowed separation within myself.

I commit myself to playing with and as the word "style".

I commit myself to liking various styles.

I commit myself to develop style within and as physical self expression here as Oneness and Equality.

When and as I see myself compromising myself within particular thoughts/judgements about style, I stop and breathe, i realize the self imposed limitation within accepting and allowing myself to judge myself and place guilt upon myself for particular style self-expressions. I realize the ridiculousness in taking any particular style personally. I realize any reaction I have towards any particular style signifies a point of self-corrective process I am required to walk through as a point of harmonizing myself one and equal with and as style.

I commit myself to oneness and equality within and as "style"

I commit myself to stop self imposed limitation/depression within style.

I commit myself to keep feelings and emotions out of style.

I commit myself to living style as a point of physical alignment within and as the starting point of oneness and equality within and as individual self-expression.

I commit myself to manifesting the style which is best for all Life.

I commit myself to the realization and understanding that there are so many ways to express oneself as an individual within and as style from a starting point of oneness and equality.

I commit myself to caring about oneness and equality as the starting point of style.

I commit myself to enjoying the clothes I wear.

I commit myself to utilize style as a point of physical assistance and support.

I commit myself to have fun with and as the point of style.

I commit myself to stop fearing style.

I commit myself to stop worrying about style.

I commit myself to being relaxed and comfortable within and as the point of style.

When and as I see myself projecting blame in relationship to style, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand how lame it is to blame, I investigate the point of reaction within and as projecting blame, I face the point of blame within myself and walk a process to forgive myself and correct the manifested separation within myself.

I commit myself to stop blaming people and or particular styles...and or particular environments.

I commit myself equalizing myself with all parts of the world/environment.

When and as I see myself having resistance to dress a particular way, I face the point of resistance through self-forgiveness and self-correction as I realize and understand that resistance is a decision of accepted and allowed separation...and therefore when I see and realize a point of resistance, I take accountability for correcting the resistance/conflict within myself. I play with the point that had been revealed as resistance by going into that point and therefore making the resistance invalid.

I commit myself to invalidating resistance.

I commit myself to utilize style and professional dress code etiquette as points of assistance and support for walking process as what's best for all Life.

I commit myself to stop defining people because of the clothes they are wearing.

I commit myself to stop judging people for the clothes they are wearing.

I commit myself to stop judging clothes.

When and as I see myself making a judgement about someone wearing particular clothes in a particular way, I stop and breathe, I look at the separation I manifesting and perpetuating within myself, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from myself within particular judgments about wearing particular clothes, I realize and understand the ridiculously absurdity of having reactions towards clothing.

I commit myself to not take offense or defense towards people wearing particular clothing.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing friction within myself towards particular styles I see.

I commit myself to self-movement as physical self-expression.

I commit myself styling self-movement as physical self-expression.

I commit myself to not judging myself for liking particular things.

I commit myself to understanding and realizing why I like particular things.

I commit myself to liking things.

I commit myself to learning to like that which I don't like.

I commit myself to stopping hate from existing within myself.

I commit myself to stop self-loathing within myself.

I commit myself to stop hating myself.

I commit myself to liking myself here.

I commit myself to letting go of feelings and emotions about myself.

I commit myself to stop judging myself with feelings and emotions.

I commit myself to stopping conflict from existing within the word style.

I commit myself to realizing and understanding how my relationship with words reflects my style from moment to moment as I am the self directive author of my styling.

I commit myself to purifying my style as equality and oneness.

I commit myself to correcting my inner acceptance and allowances that are not best for all Life.

I commit myself to sharing my process of self-forgiveness, self-correction, and self-realization.

I commit myself to styling individual change that is best for all Life.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing self imposed restraints and limitations within and as styled self expression.

Day 512 Branding and Marketing part 4 Style

This is part 4 of Branding and Marketing blog series. For context from the beginning click Here.

"At some point I kind of reacted to the point of liking to style myself in particular ways...and kind of revolted as like like dissing my own styles by being like whatever, who gives a shit about style, and created a who gives a shit style...or maybe more appropriately labeled I don't give a shit.  I was reacting to the ideas I had incorporated within myself as a result of my environment about dress etiquette...like you know dressing professionally...and I just reacted so much so to this...as like thinking how lame it is that there's kind of a uniform standard dress code of how you are supposed to be dressed for particular functions/events...and within that...the various labels that co-exist with wearing these types of clothes or those types of clothes.  I mean I kind of got wrapped up in my own judgement but not realizing and seeing it."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging the styles that I like.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting in judgement to how I have styled myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I created the "who gives a shit style" within reacting and kind of revolting as like dissing my own styles by being like whatever, who gives a shit about style.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I manifested the I don't give a shit style.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not giving a shit.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I got wrapped up within my own judgement with regards to clothes and style.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I changed my style from that which I liked to being about a lack of caring to like me as my own style...as like creating a dis-attachment within myself to the clothes I was wearing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for blaming my environment for my attitudes about clothing styles.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become frustrated within seeing myself as a product of my environment.

I forgive  myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging my environment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wearing clothes from and as the starting point of emotion as like making a statement of rebellion as like I don't give a fuck about my environment or what the accepted and allowed norms are with regards to dress code etiquette.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resistance towards dressing professionally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to dress professionally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging and defining people based upon the clothes they are wearing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react to the types of clothes people wear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting mad with myself for liking to style myself with particular clothes in particular ways.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating friction towards style.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as style as like a reflection of that which I accept and allow within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to believe that I don't care about style when in fact I was hiding the fact that I really did care about how my style yet I didn't want to acknowledge myself...and thus in a way I was hiding from myself as like being stuck within my internal realms of judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lose myself within self-judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being extreme in seeing things about myself where will I will go from one extreme to the other extreme....and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I believed I was changing by existing as the opposite point...but not realising and understand that the movement wasn't real as it was from within a starting point of reaction/judgement/fear.  I realize movement from within and as the starting point of fear is not in fact real movement/expression....it's an outflow consequence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for spiting myself within judging myself for liking particular things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for moving into judgement about liking particular things without finding out why it is that I like particular things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing and judging that liking particular things is bad/wrong.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that the things I like are points of weakness of character and the for me to be strong I must stop liking everything I like.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for hating myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for spiting myself within hating the things I liked.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that everything I like is some sort of energetic addiction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I am able to practically live physical self expression within and as the things that I like to do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking there are things I like and there are thing I don't like, and there are things I hate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself creating a hierarchy of likes and dislikes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing hate to exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the point of rebellion existing within myself as coming from within and as the starting point of accepted and allowed self-loathing/hate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within and as a starting point of hate and self-loathing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have a love/hate relationship with myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse myself by having mixed feelings/emotions about myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding Oneness and Equality as the epitome of style....as like the starting point of creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from and as the word style.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create conflict within the word style.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my expression reflects my relationship with words as like what's going on within myself...as the nature of  my inner acceptances and allowances exposed externally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having tried to hide the nature of my inner reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that nothing is ever really hidden and everything is revealed.


To Be Continued

Day 511 Branding and Marketing Part 3

In the initial blog I wrote entitled, "Branding and Marketing", I said,

"When I was quite young I regarded name brands as quite cool, as like there being a certain prestige the goes along with supporting a name brand. Then as I got older it was more about refining my brands, like only supporting the best quality brands in quality and craftsmanship...and having the high end products within the brand line.  Also though I kind of developed a rebellious attitude towards 'name brands' as like being a point of evil and being a conformist, and as a result of perpetuating the injustices that exist because you know, big name brands are all about profit...and within this I started thinking more and more about the injustices within labor exploitation, and also about logo's, thinking that it is not cool to be labelled with logo's...like I basically went the opposite way that I had before...where I was kind of taking the attitude I don't give a shit about labels and brand names...like being like I'll wear whatever."  

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself for taking on the attitude of only supporting the the brands in the best quality and craftsmanship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging inferior brands.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging people who were wearing inferior brands.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to brand myself with an heir of superiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to be regarded as superior.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding myself as inferior.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking on the attitude of rebellion towards name brands.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being angry at high end name brands.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for projecting blame towards profitable name brands as like being more evil than less profitable name brands because they were making more money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being frustrated with the integrity of company brands within the world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be jealous of highly successful brand names companies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding onto spite towards successful name brands.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for projecting spite onto others who were wearing successful name brands.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to successful name brands.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict within myself between successful and unsuccessful name brands.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself frustrated emotionally with the inhumane labor practices of name brand companies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for projecting anger and blame outside of myself at the world for the fact slave labor sweatshops is the reality of of big business.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to define and identify myself with particular brands.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for feeling guilty and remorseful for having identified myself with particular name brands that have been known to provide workers with unfavorable working conditions and very low wages.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for attaching prestige to particular logos

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging logos

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring particular logos.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not wanting to face the reality of what the logos represented but just wanted to focus on the prestige that has been marketed around and about particular logos.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having identified myself as name brand loyalty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having identified myself as anti name brand loyalty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe and think it is cool to wear popular name brands.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing and thinking it is uncool to wear known brands and logos.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to wear less know brands and logos and within this believing that it is more hip and cool to wear brands and logos that are less known about.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking myself to be original and creative by seeking out clothes that are made by companies that I had never heard about before.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to wear clothing that no one else has.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for talking shit brands and logo's.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a marketing and branding war within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating positive feelings of righteous superiority within wearing popular expensive name brands.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to be regarded as royalty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging clothing and equipment based upon the brand name as opposed to the actual structural integrity of the product.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the entire economic system perpetuates abuse and disregard for human labor.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for attaching positive energies towards acquiring popular name brand products.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel good within buying popular name brand products.

I commit myself to assisting and supporting favorable working conditions for laborers within companies.

I commit myself to assisting and supporting the elimination of exploitation of human labor.

I commit myself to assisting and supporting the eradication of slave labor.

I commit myself to exposing the necessity for implementing a 'Living Income Guaranteed' as a practical living solution for the eradication of poverty.

I commit myself to further educating myself about effective company branding and marketing.

I commit myself to let go of all jealousy towards the owners of highly successful companies.

I commit myself to stop desiring to be wealthy.

I commit myself to accepting myself as wealthy.

I commit myself to growing my wealth and utilizing my wealth to influence changes that are best for all Life.

I commit myself to giving money in support of the Equal Life Foundation.

Day 510 Branding and Marketing Part 2 Commitments

I commit myself to stop demonizing the words branding and marketing.

I commit myself to stop reacting to the words branding and marketing.

I commit myself to stop charging the words 'branding' and 'marketing' with energy.

I commit myself to understanding 'branding' and 'marketing.'

I commit myself to utilize 'branding' and 'marketing' as points of assistance and support as what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to playing with and as the words 'branding' and 'marketing'.

I commit myself to creating branding and marketing that is best for all Life here.

I commit myself to become the branding and marketing I wish to see in the world as that which is best for all Life.

I commit myself to stand one and equal with the words branding and marketing.

I commit myself to purifying the world system by purifying my relationship with words.

I commit myself to branding and marketing the acceptances and allowances that are best for all Life.

I commit myself to branding and marketing that which is best for all Life.

I commit myself to branding and marketing self-expression

I commit myself to realizing and understanding the internal and external reality of words.

I commit myself to realize and understand the within and the without of branding and marketing.

I commit myself to stop self dishonesty within marketing and branding.

I commit myself to self-honesty within and as marketing and branding.

I commit myself to stop fearing bad marketing and bad branding.

I commit myself to stop judging marketing and branding.

I commit myself to branding and marketing from and as the starting point of a Win/Win Scenario

I commit myself to stop branding and marketing from within and as the starting point of win/lose.

I commit myself to stop fearing for survival within branding and marketing.

I commit myself to supporting and assisting Life within branding and marketing.

I commit myself to stopping/resolving marketing and branding conflicts.

I commit myself to stop branding and marketing ego separation

I commit myself to branding and marketing Oneness and Equality individual self-expression assistance and support.

I commit myself to stop fearing to lose my physical body.

I commit myself to appreciating, utilizing, regarding, expressing, caring, nurturing and playing with my physical body.

I commit myself to regarding my physical body.

I commit myself to becoming aware of my physical body.

I commit myself embodying my physical body.

I commit myself to brand and market Life.

I commit myself to stop branding and marketing the abuse of Life.

I commit myself to branding and marketing myself here as a Destonian.

I commit myself to making lots of money as a branding and marketing master.

I commit myself to stop being influenced by money, sex and fear within and as marketing and branding.






Branding I see as a particular view/image about something, as like a representation/presentation...signifying a particular product which may have a particular symbol used to illustrate/express the image/product.

Marketing I see as a tactic used to create awareness about a particular brand. I relate the words campaign and advertising to the word marketing. Marketing is all about exposing/creating attention for a particular brand/symbol/logo/saying/motto/expression/persona/image/idea/thought.

Dictionary definitions:

Branding: The marketing practice of creating a name, symbol or design that identifies and differentiates a product from other products
http://www.entrepreneur.com/encyclopedia/branding

Marketing: The activities of a company associated with buying and selling a product or service. It includes advertising, selling and delivering products to people. People who work in marketing departments of companies try to get the attention of target audiences by using slogans, packaging design, celebrity endorsements and general media exposure. The four 'Ps' of marketing are product, place, price and promotion.

Many people believe that marketing is just about advertising or sales. However, marketing is everything a company does to acquire customers and maintain a relationship with them. Even the small tasks like writing thank-you letters, playing golf with a prospective client, returning calls promptly and meeting with a past client for coffee can be thought of as marketing. The ultimate goal of marketing is to match a company's products and services to the people who need and want them, thereby ensure profitability 
http://www.investopedia.com/terms/m/marketing.asp

Playing with the definitions:

branding: Be are end....brain dead, ....brand.....brain ding...like a connection of like attraction...branding...be our ending...branding....b rand....be money...because rand is south African currency...be our money.....b-r-a-n-d-i-n-g

branding: a point of individuality and characterization of a particular definition....as like how you define with a name, image, logo, persona,...ownership of a particular things according to a name created for the particular things...specialized identification classification...specific image association.

marketing: market king...mark It....market winning....market-I-In...mark-it-'ing'....the point of creating a point...making a market...creating a demand for the market....making a mark and selling the mark, ....product, place, price, promotion........sharing.......news......show and tell, information sharing regards to a point of physicality that has been given a value.....point of relationship from one things to another thing.  maintenance of relationships....labor relations and services...forging particular connections...relationship definitions....expression, identification connectivity, the point of bond ability...influence...market maker...maker-market

At this point I am going to continue to play with the words 'Branding' and 'Marketing'.


To Be Continued

Day 507 Branding and Marketing

The point came up about branding and marketing myself.  There's been some discomfort within myself with regards to the point of branding and marketing myself.

Looking within myself with regards to the words branding and marketing I see how I have accepted and allowed some negative energy connotations with regards to these words as how they work in the the world system Within this I didn't regard or understand how I was taking a stance within these words and how my stance/position within these words has created a friction within myself about specifically branding and marketing myself.

For instance, When I was quite young I regarded name brands as quite cool, as like there being a certain prestige the goes along with supporting a name brand. Then as I got older it was more about refining my brands, like only supporting the best quality brands in quality and craftsmanship...and having the high end products within the brand line.  Also though I kind of developed a rebellious attitude towards 'name brands' as like being a point of evil and being a conformist, and as a result of perpetuating the injustices that exist because you know, big name brands are all about profit...and within this I started thinking more and more about the injustices within labor exploitation, and also about logo's, thinking that it is not cool to be labelled with logo's...like I basically went the opposite way that I had before...where I was kind of taking the attitude I don't give a shit about labels and brand names...like being like I'll where whatever.

The same thing kind of with marketing...in that the way I would wear my clothes was very deliberate, like wanting to look a particular way and project a particular image. That image primarily through high-school was the preppy jock.  Then I shifted away from the preppy look and into the lounging look...like it became more about cool and comfortable...with a bit of rebellion in there as like wearing sweat pants and slippers or jeans and slippers...and skate shoes...wearing the skate shoes just because they were big and comfy...not really that great for running around or anything...but good for lounging in...and lots of hooded sweatshirts.

There's always been some resistance within me to prescribing to a particular dress code.  Though it's funny because I never had a school uniform but I remember thinking it would be alright to have a school uniform...and I just knew the way I rocked/wore my uniform would be cool/enjoyable.

I like the different styles of clothes that exist. I enjoy picking at my clothes. I've enjoyed doing this since I was young.  At some point I kind of reacted to the point of liking to style myself in particular ways...and kind of revolted as like like dissing my own styles by being like whatever, who gives a shit about style, and created a who gives a shit style...or maybe more appropriately labeled I don't give a shit.  I was reacting to the ideas I had incorporated within myself as a result of my environment about dress etiquette...like you know dressing professionally...and I just reacted so much so to this...as like thinking how lame it is that there's kind of a uniform standard dress code of how you are supposed to be dressed for particular functions/events...and within that...the various labels that co-exist with wearing these types of clothes or those types of clothes.  I mean I kind of got wrapped up in my own judgement but not realizing and seeing it.

It's interesting that I reacted so much to dress codes that in created this stigma about dress codes and within that it's like I created this stigmatization within myself.  Like just kind of taking on points of conflict...not considering how I was developing/expanding/creating internal conflict within myself...only perceiving the conflict to exist externally as like a point of separation from myself.

With the word Stigmatization coming up I reflect back to elementary school and I recall not getting invited to this girl's birthday party that was a boy/girl party in like grade 5 or 6 where pretty much every body in the grade at the school was invited but I wasn't invited because I had been exploring body parts with this particular girl a little while earlier...and the girl's mother found out and told my parents....and this was like made to be this big deal and secret bad thing that wasn't to be talked about...and like I was regarded as a bad apple/influence by the girl's mother...and thus I was outcasted from going to this boy girl party where there would be things happening like spin the bottle and getting locked in the closet.   Anyways, I was kinda sad/disappointed about not being aloud to go to party...but I at that age accepted that I was the bad apple...and believed to understand why I couldn't go because the girls mom feared me as being a bad influence.

I see how I spawned the attitude from there that I am too cool, like too cool to be allowed to socialize with all my peers all the time because I'm such a strong influence...and a strong influence is an influence to be feared.

The point came up today where I was saying that the world isn't very cool. Like there needs to be more coolness. I was saying how politicians and celebrities aren't cool at all, the education system isn't cool, war isn't cool, poverty/abuse/suffering isn't cool, pop culture isn't cool, societal norms aren't cool, commercials aren't cool....I went on to say I got to take self-responsibility for cool....because seriously things are not cool...like there's so much stuff that isn't cool. I was talking to family members about this point...and I kind of jokingly said I'm going to appoint myself the ambassador of cool...and then I started getting reactions from people saying that I got to be appointed by other people in order to be the ambassador...that I can't just declare myself it....that there is not validity to my claim if others are not validating my claim. I said, I  take self-responsibility as the presentation and embodiment of cool. I see it as a point of individual self-responsibility and self-trust. A self-agreement as commitment to the expression of what is best for all Life.

The point of discussion veered towards seriousness as like seriousness being separated from cool...like the opposite of seriously cool...like seriousness became a point of uncool....where if you want to be taken seriously, you can't be cool....

The point came up that cool is subjective...

I said cool is beyond subjectivity....cool is a point of objectivity.

The point came up in discussion that if you want to be well regarded and protect yourself from being slandered, You must limit your exposure/sharing/expression...because even though it may be cool....others may not regard it as a cool and try to use it against you.....a reference was made to the tv series game of thrones...and how Ned Stark was a pretty cool dude from the perspective of being a man of nobility and being morally right with honor in his actions....and how he's was killed as a result of his stance/position....like the pawns on the chess board were moved around and it resulted in him being taken out.

The point being, you have to play the game...know how to play the game....know thy enemy know thy self...kind of thing...like you got to operate within the system to change the system.

I am reminded of the point: By understanding the impossible it becomes possible.

Like knowing what is not cool opens up the opportunity for what is cool to be born and expressed.



So, I opened up a lot of points for more further specific self-investigative exploration....so stay tuned