Day 449 Breaking Bad Season 5 Episode 13

I just watched Breaking Bad Season 5 Episode 13.  Some points that came up within me while watching the episode include the following:

Why did the character Walt not confirm the killing of his brother in-law when he was on the phone with his contract killers?   

The reason I ask this question is because Walt want's his business partner dead at seemingly all costs...and his brother in-law is with his business partner...and his brother in-law wants to arrest him and make his Life more miserable than it already is...and it would be no hassle whatsoever for the contract killers to kill his brother in-law.

I see the point of family loyalty connection...as like Walt was justifying that it was OK to kill his business partner because he had his Wife's approval in doing so....But he would not have his Wife's approval in killing his brother in-law which is his Wife's sister's husband.

It seems that the character wouldn't go ahead with protecting himself to Kill his brother in-law because his wife would find out and would never forgive him for such an action.

It's interesting the point of family loyalty...as like mob mentality...as like nothing is more important than family...even if family does some really awful stuff...it's like there's a morality code in play where you don't kill family because it's a respect thing and you would not want your family to kill you.

What's interesting  and ironic about family relations and morality is the justifications that doing harm to another that "apparently" is not your family is more do-able and OK from the excuse/justification/ramification that their not your flesh and blood...like not an immediate apparent connection.

What I find interesting is the word "family"

I notice that in many cases there is lack of consideration for the word "family" from the consideration and perspective of exclusivity.

Let's look at the definition of the word family in it's simplest description.

(google definition "family")

fam·i·ly  

/ˈfam(ə)lē/

Noun A group consisting of parents and children living together in a household.

Adjective Designed to be suitable for children as well as adults.

Synonyms noun.   kin - house - household - stock - clan - race - tribe adjective.   domestic - homely - home - familiar

Notice the synonym of the of the word family which is "race".  All humans are part of the human race.

Notice the word "Home".  Earth is home to all Life Here.

Consider the big picture that all is part of the same family...being and belonging to Life/Earth.


Everyone is living together Here on Earth whether we like it or not.



I see that a problem originates from looking at the word family only from a micro perspective...as like excluding the big picture macro perspective.

The consequences of not considering both the micro and the macro are self evident within Human being's interactions Here on Planet Earth.

Are the problems that exist today the consequences of bad education, generation after generation?  It appears so.

Imagine a the Earth as a place of perfect Harmony where all Life is supported and regarded as equal in value no matter what...where care was taken to make sure abuse is prevented at all costs...wow. it seems out of this world radical...

Education starts in the immediate family as like your microcosm introduction and expands into the macrocosm as like the bigger picture of our shared reality Here...like for instance you're first educational instructions are your parents/guardians and it expands to other authoritative figures as you age and you move about our shared reality....

Consider the fact that everyone is an authority figure here from the perspective of and as being the author of why it is what it is here so to speak...as each of us is the author of our Life here and all were born here from authorities/authors that were already existing here...

Check out Desteni I Process LIte, also known as DIP Lite and begin an education process that will change you Life for the betterment of all Life Here, so that You can take on a role a a Guardian and Custodian of Earth...as like a family member who really cares about the whole family.

Day 448 I Got A Lot of Work to Do

So, at the moment I have a lot of responsibilities and obligations on my plate...and I find myself here in this moment looking at all the work I have got to do...and I would like to take this opportunity to go into self forgiveness with regards to being steadfast in getting my work done...working through obligations, realizing the ridiculousness of getting emotional about all the work I got to do...and giving myself a script of support in working as what is best for Life as like enabling myself to be self directive in every moment as I realize and understand that every moment is important and equally valuable as Life Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having wasted ,moments of opportunity as self responsibility by neglecting to direct myself in the moment by physically moving myself. I realize and understand that as I move myself breath by breath and allow myself to immerse myself within the work I am required to do, breath by breath I bring my work into completion as I finish tasks/obligations by operating from the simplicity of the breath by breath as like not allowing myself to get carried away within past reflections and future projections...as like I realize and understand the gift I am giving to myself by moment to moment application of myself here as breath by physically moving myself in action in each moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making a big deal about having lots of work responsibilities on my plate right now...as like being bummed out that I don't have abundant amount of free time to just fuck around and do whatever I feel like doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fucking with my mental stability by entertaining feelings and emotions within myself with regards to work/responsibilities/obligations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for manipulating my work/responsibilities/obligations with feelings and emotions. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of of deliberately manipulating myself with feelings and emotions...by like trying to create an energy push within myself to move myself into action. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of such self deceit as to manipulate myself with feelings and emotions as like believing I need feelings and emotions to act as  motivation for me to be able to move myself physically here....and within this I see and realize the irony, that creating feelings/emotions to motivate myself into movement...is in fact just energetic reactions which is in fact an abdication of self-response abled movement as self directive physical expression of myself here within my physical body.  I realize and understand that choosing to allow emotions and feelings to stimulate movement is an indication of self-suppression...as like making a statement that I cannot move myself without an energetic buzz.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for searching for and desiring for particular energetic buzzes in order for me to do work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing myself to such an extent that I would abdicate physical self direction for a constantly depleting energetic buzz that never lasts and always just fades away.

When and as I see myself not directing myself with breath in the moment, I stop and breathe and I direct myself  to let go of energetic possession of feelings/emotions...and I give myself the gift of physical self expression free from the restraints of energetic possessiveness as feeling and emotions.

When and as I see myself avoiding to stay on task as to get all my work done, I stop and breathe and I direct myself to do what is the best thing that I can do for myself from and as the starting point principle of what is best for all Life is best for me, because I am a part of all Life.

When and as I see myself thinking I'll just take a bit longer break than I was planning to take because I am so comfortable and relaxed and I am really enjoying this break from work responsibilities, I stop and breathe and direct myself in getting back on task/to work as I realize my break from work is over and I got lots of work to do and that fucking around by taking extended breaks to avoid getting my work done is not cool and is in fact abusive to myself here.  I realize and understand that accepting and allowing even one point of abuse within myself...is like an act of justifying the suppression/abuse of all Life here...and that this type of behaviour is not acceptable....shall not be tolerated...and shall be stopped and corrected in the moment as I see and realize the points here as I learn to breathe effective as a physical expression of self direction in moment to moment management as what is best for Life.

I commit myself to using my current situation as a stepping stone of support...as like a present and opportunity for me to strengthen and enhance my discipline, my diligence, my steadfast focus, my breathing as my standing for Life Equality and Oneness as what is best for all Life is best for me.

I commit myself to self-forgiveness

I commit myself to becoming better.

I commit myself to hard work.

I commit myself to self-determination.

I commit myself to getting all my work responsibilities taken care of.

Day 447 Principles over Preferences

prin·ci·ple  

Noun A fundamental truth or proposition that serves as the foundation for a system of belief or behavior or for a chain of reasoning. A rule or belief governing one's personal behavior.

Synonyms tenet - rule - basis - law (source: google definition "principle") pref·er·ence   Noun A greater liking for one alternative over another or others. A thing preferred. Synonyms priority - precedence - choice - predilection So, I've come to understand the process of self honesty and self realization as a matter of principles over preferences.  This is the challenge so to speak, because this is where resistance comes into play, as everything that has been programmed within my mind as preferences contradicts the living of principles as that which is best for all Life as the ultimate truth/self-realization and is therefore a journey to Life through the process of self-forgiveness and self corrective application...as like the giving away of preferences over principles...for the reverse alternative...as principles over preferences. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a tendency to be reluctant to incorporating my understanding of principles over preferences from the perspective of manipulating my attention towards new preferences in place of previous preferences that I let go of from the starting point of principles over preferences...as like...letting something go...only to cling to something else as like a preoccupation/fascination/obsession as like a way to not fully let go and release myself from mind programming.  I realise and understand that this is the process Journey to Life...as like one point at a time so to speak...as like, as I face one point and I solve the problem/issue/conflict, I am presented with a new problem/opportunity/step within and as my process journey/self realization.  When and as I see myself clinging to a new point of preference to hold onto, I stop and breathe and I realise and understand that this is my physical confirmation of the next point that I am required to take on within and as the process of self/realization as the incorporation of living my words as principles over preferences.  I see and realize that this process is extensive and that there is no time to dwell within loss so to speak...as like I am not really giving up anything...as what I am actually doing within myself is equalizing myself as Life here...and removing any and all bondage to a hierarchy value system where all Life is not valued equally.  I realize and understand the there are so many problems existent within the world because of the attitude of preferences over principles as opposed to principles over preferences....because in choosing preferences over principles, you get to focus attention on self interested indulgences that are not aligned in the interests of the betterment of all Life here...as like operating from the starting point of existing as a being here for the greatest good. The opposite is in fact true...as it's like choosing to accept the 'status quo'... as like an act of accepted and allowed dis-empowerment, as a choosing to just try and make the best of a bad situation....without realizing and understanding yourself as an integral part in stopping all bad situations and creating best case scenarios/situations as a being of real principled living that cannot be compromised and controlled by preferences...and therefore becoming the insurance that change that is best for all Life is inevitable.unstoppable because principles as what is best for all Life over ride self-interested preferences.

Day 446 Directing What's Here

Continuing from my previous post, "Day 445 Seeing What's Here"


For some context from the previous post:

"I saw and realised how I had forgotten about this space in the house as a result of having neglected going up those stairs in the back of the house...how I had just avoided them..."


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how the tendency exists within my mind to deliberately avoid points of introspection and further introspection...as like to just forgot about that which is relevant in giving me the whole picture sotry here as clarity to see what is here as the whole picture.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for following my mind as like choosing to exist within alternate realities from what is here within and as a limited perception of what it really means to be here in the physical body...as like, I realise and understand how my mind programming was designed in a particular way to keep me cycling within self imposed realms of limitation as like not ever getting the whole picture story within my mind.


When and as I see myself thinking I have the whole picture story based upon some information that comes up in my mind, I stop and breathe and I realise and understand the programmed nature of my mind as less than able to give me the whole picture story and that what comes up in my mind is just bits and fragments of the picture story here....and I realise and understand the point of being patient within myself in sorting out all dimensions of my mind as like I am in the process of taking a part and understanding a puzzle I put together which is like a metaphorical representation of my mind consciousness programming.


I realise and understand that a tendency exists within my mind to avoid further introspection...as like my mind programming is set up as a form of  preoccupation entertainment/energy/focus that is like a form of self induced diversion from directing myself in every moment as what's best for Life.

I realise and understand the point of being patient within myself as I look at the points that come up within my mind without reacting and taking things personally so to speak...as like allowing myself to become submerged within feeling/emotions energies...and that by allowing myself the patience to practically examine what is going on in my mind...I am able to stand as the remedy here, providing and testing out solutions that are best...to make sure I create the best solutions possible for  problems/conflicts that exist within me....so that I am therefore in moment to moment management, as willing to face conflict and at the same time directing solutions/remedies..so that I am not waiting to bring about solutions to conflict...and in that way I become an active participant here who is interested in solutions that are best for Life...as I realise and understand the point of myself as the problem and solution.

to be continued

Day 445 Seeing What's Here

I had an interesting dream last night where I was at a friend's place and I discovered a hidden room...like this whole area within the house that I had never seen before.  I was marveling about the area and was really quite pleased with discovering the area...and the cupboard closets were filled with goodies, like everything I could want...the words lucky charms come to mine as I think I recall there being lucky charms cereal and that was a really big deal to me...it's funny as I look at the word cereal, I sound out, "see real". What's also interesting about this dream is that after moments of marveling, I asked myself how I could have missed knowing about this space...and so I further examined the area re-tracing my steps to the back entrance and then I had an aha moment as it was like oh ya, well that's obvious that the stairs at the back of the kitchen also lead upstairs...I saw and realised how I had forgotten about this space in the house as a result of having neglected going up those stairs in the back of the house...how I had just avoided them...

This dream reveals to me the point of investigating that which I avoid doing/going where I resist going....and within this, the point that everything is here and how much access I have to see what is here is entirely up to me...as like whether or not I am willing myself to investigate the totality of here...as like all of myself...and the point of not just settling with less than a full investigation of reality here so that I can see for real...as like this is the self-investigative process...and the process is difficult from the perspective that one has to be constantly pushing ones own comfort zone as like the cure/prevention mechanism that insures there is no compromising settlements within one's process...as like giving up is not an option and there is no plea bargains so to speak...as only the best work/investigation/commitment is acceptable.


To be Continued....

Day 444 White Collar

I've been watching this show called, "White Collar" which is about a con expert who specializes in fraud and theft.

As a result of watching the show, the point has come to mind that there is so much effort that goes into committing forms of fraud/theft....and the point that if as much effort when into planning cons as planning the necessary steps for a new world system that would be best for all Life here, than we would in fact have a perfect system in place.

It's interesting to consider that everyone here is a part of the ultimate con which is our world systems in place...as like the daily living as the rules and regulations about how commerce functions...as like it is OK for a system to exist which deliberately results in extreme exploitation of Life.

If we look at our individual participation within the ultimate con it's about self interested accommodations at the expense of everyone else...as like fuck it as like as I get my reward/prize/loot than whatever else happens...that's just part of the con game...and everyone is responsible for making sure they got what they need...and if they don't...then well there's just not that smart and deserve to get conned because it's a survival of the fittest mentality...where if you are not ruthlessly deceptive than you are the victim or ruthless exploitation which is like justified as this is just how things work...it's part of Life...it's how Life functions...

Someone said to me the other day in reference to humans survival instincts as like survival of the fittest and harming other life as a means of self subsistence...to just look at the animal kingdom and see that they do the same type of things as humans....

I asked this person if they considered that it was self evident that humans are the dominant species on the planet on account of our deceptive ruthlessness as like looking at the effects of humanity on planet earth...and within this to consider that the animal and insect kingdoms are a reflection of the human kingdom from the perspective that the human kingdom is like the parent to the animal and insect kingdoms as like a point of care and support...and within this to see that we are doing a really brutal job of providing stable living conditions for all animals and insects here....I mean, as humans...were not working together within the functioning of our designed global systems......

These insights have forced me to challenge my own participation's here and to see how my starting point has always been about my own personal amusement and just really about sustaining a good life for myself without really regarding all Life around me...which is totally absurd...and so,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting all Life within the decisions I make.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for expecting someone else to be accountable for figuring things out and working towards a better world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting a world that's best for all Life...but thinking that I can continue to exist as a representation of disregard for all Life by just focusing on self interested pursuits for my own personal amusement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that if I just care a little bit about all Life here...and do a little bit to support all Life here...than I am OK to continue to leverage the ultimate con that is in place for my benefit at the expense of those who weren't as ruthless and deceptive as I was.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding myself as a con man as a result of myself leveraging a good life within a system that is totally corrupted...and neglecting to really contribute ways that are best to alleviate the corruption in the current system so that a new world order can be created that assists ans supports all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not wanting to see my behaviour and participation's as ruthlessly deceptive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to always operate from the starting point of what's best for all Life...because that goes against me pulling a fraudulent act where I am able to benefit self interested pursuits that is totally legitimized as acceptable and regarded as OK within existing in this world as part of the ultimate con game being played/pulled.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit my intelligence and abilities/capabilities to contributing to the creation of a world that is best for all Life because I am able to exist within the current con game with effortless ease...as like a person who is able to get by within the ultimate con and satisfy self interested indulgences/desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not wanting to see and understand my starting point for existing here as being rooted in self interested indulgences/desires as like points of preoccupation to distract me from existing a person of the highest integrity and dignity, as like a person who will do whatever it takes to create the necessary planning for the implementation of a new world order which supports the living well being of all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding what a waste of time it is to be here and to not regard what is best for all Life at all times...and to be actively participating in looking at the problems that exist here by creating solutions as the necessary problem solving as the necessary actions required to put a stop to the ultimate con game.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to juggle ego self interest and have compassion for all Life...as like playing both sides of the fence...I realise and understand the middle road as the greatest deception...and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking a middle road approach within being a part of the ultimate con existing here as the ruthless exploitation of life for self interested benefit as like the pursuit of individual happiness at the expense of keeping other individuals hostage from the pursuit of happiness...and I realise and understand that to make a life for myself where I am able to just indulge in self interested pursuits and not give a shit really about the world around me, like not really do anything to be actively remedying the problems that exist, is in fact an indication of a mental disorder as like a total disassociation as Life which is in fact to exist here as like a waste of space an resources.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting my resourcefulness in assisting and supporting the facilitation of a new world order which honors and values Life with integrity and dignity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for expecting others to be accountable for Life before I should have to be accountable for Life...and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for waiting to dedicate my every breath to becoming Life as what's best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being resistance to changing in all ways that is best for life...out of fear that I will get screwed in the ultimate con game existing here as a result of giving up participation within and as contributing player in the human deception.

I commit myself to stopping the human deception which is the disregard for all Life.

I commit myself to aligning myself in ways that I can be resourceful in assisting and supporting the facilitation of a new world order which is best for all Life here.

I commit myself to stop limiting myself from being resourceful and creative in bringing forth solutions that are best in solving the problems that exist here.

I commit myself to giving myself integrity, dignity and honor as the words necessary to becoming the living accountability and responsibility as what's best for all  Life.

I commit myself to actively solving problems as like making problem solving a life vocation as the self-realisation that problems require solutions that are best for all Life here...and that I am capable and able of solving problems with the basic mathematical simplicity of 1+1=2 as common sense understanding and reasoning.

Day 443 The Law is a Riddle

I just watched a cool discussion called, "The Law is a Riddle"


A fascinating point within the discussion was the connection between law, education and economy. Meaning, you cannot have good economic system without a good education system and good legal system....and a you cannot have good legal system without a good economic system and good education system....and you cannot have good education system without a good legal system and economic system.

Well, what the Fuck?

At the moment, we have a bad economic system, a bad legal system and a bad education system...

By understanding how bad the economic system, legal system and education system are, we give ourselves the opportunity to develop the best systems.

The economic system was designed to be complicated so that the majority of people don't question the system and take it for what it is because it seems to be too difficult to comprehend.

The same approach exists within the legal system...as like to be regarded an expert in law...you do extensive university studies...and even within doing this...you become an expert in a particular area of law...meaning that even though you have done many, many years of study...you are only an expert in law in one particular area....examples include...family law versus environmental law...

This is pretty ridiculous, especially when you consider the law scenario...where nobody is actually a real expert in law...and I mean you have a society based on law and order and nobody really knows or understands the full extent of the law...I mean like what the fuck...this is a bad joke...

Public education system is also a bad joke...

Public education system reflects the fact that we have a bad legal system and a bad economic system.

Much work needs to be done...beginning with education...

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