Day 541 Christmas Elite

In my last post a few points came to surface where I see that I have had the attitude of a super elitist. I made point of things like"I don't want to be vacationing when everyone else is vacationing"...thinking about over crowding within doing activities like skiing or snowboarding for example. Looking further into the point I questioned the point...and see the fun in sharing holidays with lots of other people...well basically sharing time in general with lots of others is cool...it doesn't have to be holidays/vacation...just sharing time together is cool. The point comes up like attention, attention this is the situation here on earth,,,All Life Time is shared here together. I mean WOW. We are all sharing this lifetime here on earth together.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the significance of sharing a Life Time with All Life Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the fact that all Life Time is shared.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to share my Life Time in Service of what is Best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the interconnectedness of Life Time here on Earth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be selfish with my time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking and believing that my time is separate from your time and that this is no real interconnectedness within all our Life Time here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being reluctant to share my Life Time here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for treating my Life Time as like mine and deliberately focusing on my self-interests with my time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my Life Time responsibilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for harboring a super elitist attitude of believing I deserve more free time than others and that I should just be grateful and happy that I have more free time than others within our shared reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging how people spend their Life Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being angry at how I have spent my Life Time thus far.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging my Life Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being ashamed of my Life Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for hiding from the shame in my Life Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not wanting to face the Shame within my Life Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that if I do not face every point of shame within my Life Time then I cannot in fact change for real in this Life Time.

I commit myself to face the shame in my Life Time.
I commit myself to change for Real in this Life Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that time is mine within and as my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to work overtime to make the changes required for what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing time within focusing and desiring participation within self-interested pursuits.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to keep attention upon self interested pursuits of happiness and at the same time hope and wish that the labor required to manifest heaven on earth can just be magically done/completed like some sort of instant gratification.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how when I blame the super elite for not doing enough I am really blaming myself for not doing enough to make myself in and as the world a better place.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to do less than enough to make myself and the world that which is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as less than what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking of myself as better than the best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be in conflict/friction with what is best for all Life Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within deflecting responsibility and accountability for what is best for all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for half assing Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for beating myself up within facing the brutality I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for brutally abusing Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to think that I played no role in contributing to the brutal abuse here on Earth.

When and as I see myself disregarding the preciousness of time, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand that every moment of time counts within the accumulation of moments of time to see what is accepted and allowed within time. I realize the practicality in living the principle of what is best for all Life. I realize my self-responsibility in committing this Life Time to what is Best for All Life Time.

When and as I see myself blaming the super elite, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand this is the point of superiority I have accepted and allowed to exist within my ego frame of mind. I commit myself to stop suppressing my ability to see with real eyes what is here as Life.  I commit myself to dedicating my Life Time to what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to Life.

When and as I see myself resisting to work overtime for what is best for all Life, I stop and breathe, I commit myself to working overtime as what is best for all Life. I commit myself to working in service of what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to servicing Life assistance and support.

I commit myself to stop distracting myself from servicing Life assistance and support.

I commit myself to accepting and allowing myself to exist as what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to doing what is best for all Life.

When and as I see myself focusing my attention upon self interested activities, I stop and breathe, I make sure I am not distracting myself from any point of practical living assistance and support. I commit myself to aligning myself in and as the interests of what is best for all Life. I commit myself to stop separating myself from the best interests of all Life Here.

Day 529 Blasting the Music So Loud

So I'm in the library and I had been looking at the point of frustration and irritation where I realized and understood frustration and irritation to be a decision. Within looking at this, I realize and understand that there are many things that I have accepted and allowed within myself that have brought up reactions as frustration and irritation...as that it is necessary for me to face all the accepted and allowed points of irritation and frustration within myself in order to stop the decision to participate in frustration and irritation.

What's funny about this is that how long a point of frustration or irritation bothers me is totally my decision because when and as a point of reaction comes up within me, I can immediately take self-responsibility for the point and therefor not allow myself to be consumed within the point of reaction.

Interestingly enough, just after I saw this point of decision making with regards to frustration and irritation, this girl started blasting her music so loud through her headphones that is was loud for me to hear. I reacted initially to her behaviour as like what the fuck...were in the library this is suppose to be a quiet space. I looked at the point a little more and saw the point about how I used to blast my music so loud that others around me could here it and that I didn't really care because I was just kind of buzzing on the sounds of the music I was listening to...like allowing myself to get amerced within the music and totally disregarding my surroundings, like just kind of getting hooked on a feeling.

Initially I wanted to just create conflict with the girl. I paused for a moment here and checked myself,...like why was I getting so bothered by hearing the music. I mean how can stop accepting and allowing myself to be bothered by the music? Am I bothered by hearing the music because of what I have accepted and allowed within  myself?

Obviously the point is one of self reflection as I realize and understand that everything is always a point of self-reflection.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being inconsiderate of others around me in blasting my music so loud.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding my eardrums in blasting my music so loud.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for listening to my music so loud to get an energetic high feeling experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding any consequence of blasting my music so loud because I was more concerned with having the energetic experience that comes with blasting my music so loud.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for blaming another for myself experiencing frustration and irritation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how this girl in the library assisted and supported me to see a point within myself that I was holding onto within and as a form of self-judgement...because I was accepting and allowing myself for condemning myself within this self judgment by being irritated and frustrated.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that it is rude for someone to blast there music loud.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be offended by someone blasting their music real loud.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to have confrontation with the girl who is blasting her music so loud.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to have confrontation with the girl is blasting her music so loud.


So, I'm writing this blog in the library here in real time...and as I saw the point of resisting to ask the girl to turn her music down....I saw this point of resistance as what I got to move through and so I said to the girl, "excuse me, can you turn your music down it's really loud and my ears are really sensitive".....she then apologized to me and told me that she didn't even realize that her music was that loud. She was happy to oblige my request.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the point of speaking up in moments where there is a point of conflict as the solution to remedy the conflict.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared to remedy conflict within my world by speaking up in moments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that communicating can be a point of awareness expansion as like in this particular instance I assumed that the girl was aware of how loud she was blasting her music...when in reality, she was not aware of how loud she was blasting her music...I also became aware that she had not been aware of this...and I became aware of the importance of speaking up and facing a point where there is potential conflict/confrontation because my speaking/sharing in and and as communication can act as a point of support for myself and others.

I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of fearing to speak up in a moment.

When and as I see myself faced with a point of reaction, I see and realize the practicality of immediately investigating the reaction within myself as I realize and understand myself as the starting point origin of the reaction manifesting and that the external point acted as the trigger/teacher....assisting and supporting me to see and realize a point of self suppression. I am grateful to immediately investigate moments of reactions as I realize and understand that their is an unlimited potential that can be gained from the process of self-investigation into the nature of our acceptances and allowances.

I commit myself to being steadfast within and as my immediate investigation into moments of reaction.

I realize and understand the self support in moving through points of resistance.

I realize and understand that moving through a moment of resistance is like changing my decision making process where I realise and understand the resistance is an accepted and allowed mistake and therefore I am in real time correcting the mistake and therefor preventing the mistake from happening again by standing up for myself and walking the living practical self correction as the remedied solution in the moment as what is best for myself as all Life.

I commit myself to making decisions that are best for all Life.

I commit myself to learning and expanding my awareness within and as communication.

I commit myself to expanding my awareness of myself through communication.

I commit myself to sharing my awareness with others as a point of self-support.

Day 450 Family

This is a continuation from my previous post where I opened up the point of "family" and brought forth a big picture perspective and consideration about the word "family" being all that is Here as everything Here is Part of and as the Earth/Life Family.



What I would like to share now, is some self-forgiveness in regards to "Family":



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding as a result of not considering all Life within the equation of being part of the word family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting and disregarding the well-being of family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging and comparing and belittling my family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding onto grudges against family members.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from parts of my family/Life?Earth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created a hierarchy of family importance as like believing and perceiving some family members to be more valuable and important and within this consideration, consequently neglecting and disregarding many family members.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the point of understanding that my relationships with immediate family members in my environment reflects that which I accept and allow within myself...and therefore my immediate family member relationships are like keys for me to see me in and as self reflection as what I have accepted on a small scale...and therefore reflect the larger picture of what and why the world as a whole is the way it is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deliberately being nasty to family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be in conflict with family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take family interactions and communications personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted having patience with family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having polarized the word family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having deliberately tried to alienate myself from family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be victimized by family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared family judgment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity of existing here with everyone as part of my family.


I commit myself to regarding Everything/Everyone as part of the Earth Family