Day 715 - Audacity in Creativity Living Rhapsody

The Song is me..
The Song is One.
The Song is Always Sung.
The Song is Won.
The Winning Song Is Always.
The Creative Audacity in Living Rhapsody.

The Playwrights is to Play with the right and the left side as part of the compass of moral discretion as the discernment to choose as Always loss Prevention. The protection is in the Play rite as the writing of passage...the laws governing the body of self doing it here.

The body of government is the creativity in audacity as Living Rhapsody.

The Yo of the flow...the recognition of re-cognition..the rewiring of lying as to fire the liars from communicating through the wires making this cellular as the status standing agreement of Our Cells here...the Seeing Ourselves all together here...as to get here...is to get her..as the understanding and realization of the mother-ship...ya the leadership boarding...No hoarding..

This is Greatness...the Nest that is Great,.

Grattiude?

Yes please....the pleasure of attitude be the One you want...the winning Won...because you know how it goes....self-regard....appreciation and acceptances be part of the daily bread in giving living allowance as the money that is our honey pot pie..as the why to the we high as we low...the as above so below and the side to side in the decide brigade as the cumming together of knowing how to masturbate...no need for debate...fuck the weed...no need....we doing the deed...Indeed...we live the daily doing deeds as our very pleasures Indeed.

Ski bop the hip hop like flowing down the mountain on the jungle gymnasium inside the cranium rock cap...rock rock to the beach house....all housing inclusive of the law of Gratitude be the Attitude...living the law Greatness is the nest of our residing as the desire in reside...check it..see it...cash money living life value.....regarding yes..as the agreement purpose point in postured positioning a stance of self-acceptance that is Great.

Grateful is Key in being full of Great...though check it as the money in the bank...with greatness comes great responsibility because it;s an actuality of living in physical reality...the maneuverability in the acquisition of substantiating a position.

Poster the Posture...for the Posture is the Post You are.
The Rhapsody of Self-Expression....
Orgasmic...
The Oar, The Gas and The Mic...
Tools Check...Making it Made...Motor Boating the landing whether or not weather permitting because I make the permits for my permissions as the standing authority in and as the recognition of moral allegory in principle posed positioning as what;s best for You is Best for Me. Yo!


Wordy wordage is part of the stretching in expanding the mobility as how you sketch it so...so you know...because sometimes it comes out as the aftermath of the shout...but check it...it was here already as the fountain flowing within...the water runs non stop...the mouth be the tap...whether you tap dance or not...the song is song in every note as the sounding of it why as the how and the when as the what the we got here.

Musician in an Orchestra with a Sea of Organs...playing each piece has it;s part...no part can direct all parts as each part has it's own individual part ...so each part can stand as the individuality creativity audacity rhapsody as the flow go you know and trust...can't rust when you bust,..because just a paused hiccup indicator symptom symbol like a stop sign to slow down...rewind try it again...check the tempo

Momentum is the mountainous movement of the moment when you go Uhm and than drop the hesitation and stick to performance presentation

Day 710 - Legging go of the Knee'd for Ego

Read this blog here that is a transcription of the video "Revenge of the Ego". Read the words, Hear the words. Take your time.

In writing the title for my blog here, the thoughts that came into my mind were "wait, hold on, I don't want to let go of the Ego do? Don't I maybe need it...or like is it possible for me to exist without it....what are other people saying about the ego....isn't there something about just kind of managing your ego....maybe I should investigate the ego more before I decide to commit to a title that supports the notion of letting go of the need for Ego."

I see my knee injury that I am facing as coming at a very pivotal time in my life. I have been utilizing this is a point of support. Support from the perspective of reflecting upon the consequential build up of my mind consciousness system acceptances and allowances.

I see this knee injury as being a wake up call of sorts from the perspective of like, "hey my body is telling me something....my mind has been telling me lots of things that I have been buying into as idea's that is like contributing to me existing here as Ego...Dare I say Super Ego....as a being who has been influenced and controlled by energy, the very energy i have given credence to...as the ego....the motivation...the motive to do or not do in so many instances...as the pull/push...why....the purpose having been the energy as the what I believed came natural to me as what I wanted...and my belief in being devout in giving myself everything I want...as like creating this compromising position of sorts...a self-sabotage...self-manipulation if you will....where the wants become congruent with the needs to such an extent that there is like a blur between what is actually what...and just become an auto-pilot drifter of sorts as following the code....the code i created within myself as the ego markings...the map of how I respond to stimuli...how I am able to function....like an addict....doing whatever it takes to feed the want that has become a believed need...and making this a purpose of sorts as kind of enveloping within myself create black hole.

The irony of course is being careless and negligent within heir of superiority as the super ego stronghold....which is like a beingness lock down into suppression where the ability to see and breathe is often negated as like an unfortunate result of being so engulfed within a state of one's own personality possession. I see this as the consequence of bad Accounting...meaning, the neglect of my words/actions/deeds....where the pile-up/build-up became a pressure point crystalization that was just too much....a tipping point. a breaking point if you will....an explosion of sorts was the experience of my knee in a moment of physical activity where it seemed like I should be able to bend and contort my body into such a position without consequence.  And reflecting on past instances...I see that I was in fact able to make such pivoting maneuvers without pain and injury....but in looking back, I did not have the accumulation buildup that I had when I went into this particular fall....it's like the pressure buildup was just too much....there was no escaping it.

This consequential fall is quite interesting in and of itself and I am grateful to be here reflecting on the points as I see here this is all part of me Learning, expanding my realization of what in fact Self-responsibility is. Seeing here how my neglect of responsibility manifested and revealed itself in my physical body as me participating in an activity without the ability to immediately bounce back up and recover...it's like I had the idea/belief that I should be able to..and that nothing will happen to me....yet I see I didn't even consider why I wasn't able to...as like initially my Ego was too much to even see what I have been doing to myself in and as my thought/word and deed without and even realizing the severity of how creation in fact works as the working of words as the put together manuals and instructions for how things are to be formed as the information used to build the structures. No, I didn't think it of any paramount importance for me to be so disciplined that I accounted for Everything within myself...each and every single thing.

So, Oopsie, I have had a slip up a mighty great fall...due to some seriously neglected...disregarded and regarded accounting...as my self valuation...self-evaluation....and the irony here...is in and as how I have been living my-self-created-evaluation...and so the results are specific to me here...as my relationship reflection of me here as/with/within Everything here...and fuck....it is clear that the moment to moment application of practical living self-responsibility has been less than effective..and therefore I am facing the consequences of believing Life to be the Kneed for Ego...as like the only way to function here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the kneed for Ego I created within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that if everyone here is an ego, than might as well be a super ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trap myself within ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I've fucked myself so hard within ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having continuously fucked myself within and as ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting lost within my own ego.  I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the trick of ego in being for getting and the forgetting that ensues within the starting point of being all for getting...as like not seeing and realizing the togetherness of words as complimentary players here...but just abusing words as instruments of consumption.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing words as a result of accepting and allowing myself to often regard words as meaningless...and to therefore never really care about myself or take myself as the living words seriously.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for seriously fucking within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for seriously fucking Everyone, Everything up.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to face myself and take responsibility for fucking everything up.....like....always believing to such an extent...that I do not require to be totally accountable as being the One here who is responsible for Everything being fucked up.

I forgive myself for fearing my own judgement within placing myself in a position of standing accountable for Everything here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself as being too big an Ego to actually stand as a self-responsibility completely, embodying self-ownership for the total fuckup that exists here as everything.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get fearful in talking about Everything as a point of Existing and Life regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking of myself as Everything...and that being like too much.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as too little from the perspective of my potential ability to live self-responsibility here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to substantiate myself for real with my acceptances and allowances.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting stuck in personality character constructions that are less than Who I really am.


To Be Continued

13/03/2015 ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- >>> 01/01/21

THE JOURNEY CONTINUES,

Picking up where I last left off here:

"TOO LITTLE" and "TOO MUCH" is EGO.

Equality and Oneness Together as One WORKS WELL to  Prevent the possibility of self-compromising.

PROCESS is for the PROS TO SAY ------- > PRO SAYS #worldclassplayer

To Be Continued

Day 709 - The Greatness of Gratitude

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for polarizing the usage of Gratitude where I would believe that I can only be grateful for moment in which I have a positive reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how limiting my participation within Life is when one is within a state of reaction to events and situations whether they are positive or negative.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining gratitude with a positive energetic charge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how to in fact practically live Gratitude Always.

I forgive myself for thinking that Gratitude is a selective thing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating gratitude with the giving of thanks and that I only need to give thanks sometimes...like when someone gives me something and they are expecting to hear thanks as like the social etiquette reciprocation appropriate response.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for learning about "thanks" from my parents from the perspective of being told to say "thank you" to people when the give me something...by kind of coercing me into it in the moment as a child.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I developed an apprehensiveness towards Gratitude and Giving/Living Thanks...'Thank You' as a result of experiencing a sort of coercion about the application of "thank you" and giving/living thanks...as like the implication that I am not it and that I have to become it.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I developed a sort of rebellious attitude and resistance toward the practical living of "gratitude as the greatest attitude"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I copied my parents.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the gratitude in Always for my parents.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the gratitude for Everything in Always.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the Gratitude of myself in Always Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of selective usage and application of gratitude as a great attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for half assing gratitude within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding gratitude.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the embodiment of myself as Gratitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for faking to live words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the significance of ALWAYS all ways Assistance and Support as What is Best for All Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for Judging ALWAYS.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of judging ALWAYS.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to question how to in fact Live words as the embodiment of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the profound marvel that is here as the effective usage of words as the Potential existent within and as words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the potential I see within words is in fact a reflection of the Potential that exists within Me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the difference between minimizing the application of Gratitude and maximizing the application of Gratitude as the Greatest attitude....and within this, I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the profoundly absurd and ridiculousness of deliberately choosing to minimize the expression of Gratitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for going to great lengths in order to spite myself, as like justifying the suppression of greatness within myself...that I deliberately hid through blame and self-denial.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make sense of non sense because of a particular energetic push or pull experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my relationship development with words has been like a push or pull experience as like wanting to gravitate towards the word or away from the word...as like in both cases creating a sort of dissonance in myself regard towards the practical living of Words where the Words are either mostly positive/negative/neutral.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Gratitude of Slowing down within myself to Stop the Energetic experience.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the Gratitude of Grounding the experiences of Energetic reaction within real time moment to moment application, as the practical living realization and self-correction of self-forgiveness/love/gratitude here as who I am.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding gratitude within myself as a physical loving action...as like to see for real and care with careful consideration for all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how great Gratitude is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from Gratitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how Great Life is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the greatness of every moment here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying myself as less than the greatness of the moment Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing myself as One and Equal as the Greatness which is Life Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing less than Gratitude and Greatness for Life.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the consequences of accepting and allowing less than Gratitude and Greatness for all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting lost within self-righteousness as the result of not understanding or realizing Gratitude,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my words to exist as less than Gratitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Gratitude for WORDS.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding Words.

I commit myself to the Greatness of Words.

I commit myself to Greatness.

I commit myself to Gratitude as the Greatest living Attitude.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the application of self-forgiveness is in fact an action of Gratitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to gift and give gratitude to myself here....and that this is in fact a practical living self-responsibility....because I need to live gratitude for myself in order to be able to give/share Gratitude with All Life Here.

I commit myself to living the Gift of Gratitude.

I am Grateful for Gifting myself Gratitude, the Greatest Attitude.

I commit myself to Gratitude, the Greatest Attitude.


To Be Continued

Day 707 - Fun Knee Forgiveness on Inner Jury

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to weigh myself down within holding onto memories/thoughts/feelings/emotions of the past that recycle within my mind that act as like a perpetuating strain and stress on my physical body and negatively influence my ability to walk.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how recycling through the same thoughts/feelings/emotions of and as the past perpetuates a strain on my ability to walk and move effectively here....and I forgive myself for not realizing how my knee injury accident correlates to a buildup of acceptances and allowances within myself that have not been properly dealt with.  I see realize and understand that allowing polarized energies to exist within my mind/body does not support the well being of my body/mind. I commit myself to releasing the energetic nature as conflict/polarity from the relationships that exist within my mind and body. I realize the absurd ridiculousness of holding charges against myself as specific positive or negative energetic resonances the support separation and dissonance from the starting point of Oneness and Equality

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the fun within the injury I can have as like how to make light of the situation and make the best of the situation as what is best support and assistance for myself here.  I realize the absurd ridiculousness of being hard and heavy on myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for questioning the attitude of gratitude in relationship to having injured my knee. I mean this is not the situation that I would have knowingly chose for myself to experience but now that I am within it...I am grateful the opportunity and the chance of self-reflection. Living gratitude has been a process of sorts as I see I have sometimes had the tendency to want to justify an attitude of something less than gratitude...as like a form of disdain and suffering and self-victimization because it seems like that is what I should project in comparing my current situation to past situations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how as a result of holding onto judgement about particular events in the past that I have justified particular attitudes based on an emotion and or feeling reaction as a result of perpetuating points of comparison within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have in the past talked myself out of gratitude as the great living attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to live gratitude as the greatest attitude unconditionally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have unconsciously superimposed my daily attitude from a starting point of energetic reaction. And within this I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I can in fact stop the any and all energetic attitudes and actually create the living of gratitude of my attitude here.

I see realize and understand gratitude to be the greatest attitude because gratitude comes from giving and an appreciation for giving....and living gratitude unconditionally means to give to oneself unconditionally as the best giving support and assistance one can in fact give.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding Always in which gratitude as a great attitude is in fact the giving of self-support and assistance here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to have fun in every moment of my knee injury.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying believing that I must be serious and reserve because I have injured my knee.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really knowing how I should express myself within having an injury.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience myself as discombobulated at moments when asked how I am doing within and as my day to day experience of myself within the process of recovering from a knee injury. I see have been confused from the perspective of believing that I shouldnt project myself as being to good or like in such good spirits because of the circumstances that I am dealing with...and because of this make believe fear I see I have created as like believing that if I enjoy my recovery process too much than maybe I will get injured again.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to enjoy the healing process within and as my knee injury.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that if I will be self sabotaging myself in some way if I make a good time out of a what I believe to be shouldn't be such a good time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying a less than my potential greatness experience for myself within and as a result of accepting and allowing myself to live less than "gratitude as the greatest attitude in every moment".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the funny within and as the play time available to me within walking the injury recovery process.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to make the best of my time in every moment,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard my best efforts in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the playful ease of living gratitude as the greatest attitude in every moment as a the way to support and assist the best for oneself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not even considering all the opportunity and potential existent for me in walking the knee healing process.


When and as I see myself faced within a person asking me how I am doing today.....I see realize and understand that it is ridiculous absurd to fear giving an answer that is too great/awesome as like that would then result in potentially accepting future experiences that are less than great and awesome. I realize and understand the irony of trying to rationalize decisions through fear...as like they work out completely in the opposite manner and that which you don't want happens...and it's like a ridiculously absurd experience because it's logically sound to oneself in being illogical....yet one doesnt realize the mindfuck because one is engulfed within it....which is like a vortex of consumption until one is able to take a breath and step out of one's own very self defined entrapment and sentencing. It's funny and ridiculously absurd the trains of thought we ride without even regarding ourselves as the conductor of such a construction.

I commit myself to gratitude as the greatest living attitude.

I commit myself to giving myself the gift of gratitude as my living attitude here.

I see, realize and understand how gratitude is a great attitude enabling effective relationship development and creation..because in living gratitude one can in fact see greatness within oneself and others here.,,,which is key in creation process as one is able to see the value and worth...and the best ways possible.

I commit myself to greatness.

I commit myself to let go of worrying about consequences for being to good or behaving better than is expected of me based on the situations and or conditions I am within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my very own gratitude within seeing and realizing the energetic mind consciousness construction within and as my thoughts/feelings/emotions.

To Be Continued

Day 706 - Fun Knee

It's Funny how things work out. Like when you see and realize a connection you hadn't previously considered, or like You realize something you had been avoiding/accepting that was totally ridiculous and absurd.  Like, specifically when you get into the dynamics of the relationships...this is where the fun and the haha funny moments are as like the enjoyment of the fun that can be shared together through learning which really is in fact a caring and sharing because the caring is sharing and the sharing is caring.

Why does Fun and Knee sound like funny?

Is there some sort of connection here? What's the correlation?


Well, if you look at what is really fun or funny....the funny is fun...but the fun isn't necessarily funny...unless it's added to it so to speak...as like fun can exist with the funny...but funny doesn't really exist without the fun. because have a look, if you are closed off from having any fun...it is tough to really learn anything effectively in a way that is like aha...I get it, I got it....I see....that's funny.

Funny in and of itself is an expansive point of Fun...as like the ever expanding point of fun. Funny, really is an integral part of the learning process here. Self-enjoyment is a cool description I see here as describing a relationship which is fun and funny because enjoyment....specifically self-enjoyment is a shared point...and if you look at the make up of our cells here...I mean ourselves here....you see and hear that there is so many cells/selves here....like there is so many parts that make up the whole.

All joking a side because funny is in the ability to decide as like to see for real what is in fact what. Funny is beyond the make believe. Funny is the Know thy Self curriculum. What is funny about funny and all funny a side is that You Decide...if You Can See the Funny which is a decision...which is funny in and of itself...because it's a logical reasoning that perhaps is illogical in deciding the decision you've sided with.

How I got to the Fun Knee here as my creative writing play work here is as a result of giving extra close attention to my Knee as I am in the process of Healing a Knee Injury. It's interesting in how giving extra close attention to a specific part, the potential to create new connections and possibilities exists.

In looking at myself acceptances and allowances here, I have been facing the questions of Fun and Funny in regards to my Knee. Specifically I reflect here in the self-movement of myself within and as points of Fun and Funny as the Creative Play Work Here. See, I see and realize myself as the Orchestrator of Who and How I am within and as my participations here. Gratitude is the attitude that I am working and playing with. Sometimes this has been difficult...as I have many times tripped myself up on my own self-righteousness...which is like a hiccup in effective breathing/seeing here as what is what for what it is.

What is opening up here for me is the abdication of the Funny and Fun within myself where I have allowed and accepted myself to move along without regard for the fun and funny within and as the work I do here. This strain I have done onto myself I see reflecting my knee injury as my current inability to walk effectively, as my body has revealed to me here...'stop...you cant walk like you've been walking....you are facing the consequences of accepting and allowing accumulated restraint/strain that has now manifested itself in the form of an Injury...as the inner jury no longer will continue as the strain and restraint.'

Interesting it is to see the funny in the serious and the fun in the serious as the serious fun. I find it interesting that there often comes to be a dissonance or a disconnect from the fun when there is seriousness. This sentiment of "seriousness" I see as the 'Adult' mind...as like the losing the fun of childhood and perhaps trying to get back to it...or maybe having lost it all together and not even realizing what has been lost because one is so enveloped in the "serious".  Like for instance I do not recall as a child having the same extent of mind activity...thought action as I have today....and I am not certain that all the thought action is a good thing...as I have noticed that often the though action can be of a serious nature...as like the 'police man in the head' kind of thing where there is always some sort of systematic judgement and stereo type casting taking place...and it's like really a money calculator when you see things for what they are simplistically....because the way money works is also within and as the emotion and feeling of the body whether it is positive feeling or negative emotion...both are perpetuating the dependency and the continuation of one another...and so the mind of though/feeling/emotion becomes like an individualized calculator of accounting the individualized and specialized self interest and regard for the very self created frequencies of one's particular value.

It's interesting to see how my creative writing play here has taken a turn into looking at the mind and money in regards to the adult...


To Be Continued

Day 705 - Knee Injury and the Inner Jury

This is an introductory post into what will be a series of writing's about myself in relationship to a most recent knee injury I have suffered.

A few points I would like to make note of here that will be focus topic areas of investigation:



Looking at the word Injury...and Inner Jury....and the Inner Journey required as self-reflection upon the build up of acceptances and allowances.


The vocabulary of the knee. There is much vocabulary about the knee that is somewhat foreign to me from the perspective of not being well versed in the specific words/parts of the Knee and Knee area.


Looking more closely at the functioning of the knee as a whole and as the make up of all the individual parts.


The Knee and Structural Resonance Alignment. What does the knee signify in relationship to the Mind...specifically the consequence of an accumulation of energy as Mind Consciousness Systems.


Healing my Knee with Self-forgiveness and Self-responsibility.

Note: I have looked at the structural resonance documents on more than one occasion and my self-forgiveness will be supported directly by the support and assistance I have received within reading the documents. See the link here for specific document in regards to the knee.

I will begin here at the end and work with the beginning in taking care of all points of consideration that require attention. Beginning with a general opening of self-forgiveness as the initial support and assistance recognition to allow the aid in and as my self-corrective process.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the "inner jury" within and as an Injury.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the consequences of unnecessary physical body suffering as a result of accumulated memories within myself from the starting point of feelings and or emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the impact of holding onto the memories of the past within my body with the particular charges of emotion and or feeling.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for nor realizing and understanding how in fact memories can in fact crystallize in the body as an accumulation of accepted and allowed energetic possession that kind of like leaches off of the physical body.

I  forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the value of my knee for granted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the totality of my physical body for granted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting to a point of regard as a result of unfortunate consequence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being responsible for injuring me knee.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for hurting myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being insincere with the practical living daily regard for my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding all the parts of my knee and how all the parts of my knee relate to all the rest of the parts of my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being inconsiderate and believing myself to have too many physical body parts to be able to in fact regard and consider all my parts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having thought about regarding all my body parts from the perspective of getting to know all the names of the physical body parts...but to within this regard,  have a reaction of doubt and of the thought/thinking that it is not possible for me to get familiar with the vocabulary of all my body parts...or that it's not practical....even if I would like to know all the vocabulary of which I am made of.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that it is just too difficult for me to be aware of all my body parts.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing making the effort to get to know all my body parts because there is so many body parts I have taken for granted within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the physical body for granted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that my physical body is just to complicated to really know and understand absolutely.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making excuses as to why it is not likely that I can know and understand myself completely here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be impaired by vocabulary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the patients required to integrate and develop vocabulary that I am not familiar with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not really know and understand myself/physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having the idea and attitude that it's just kind of impossible to really know and understand everything about the human physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying and distracting myself with excuses as to why I do not need to work as much as I am able to on a daily basis in getting to know my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting daily regard, appreciation, gratitude and consideration for my physical body.l

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to specifically know and understand the totality of my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the self-intimacy required in actually getting to know my whole physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict with my body as a result of how I am participating within my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mistreat my body as a result of not taking self-responsibility for my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not taking self-responsibility for my body with the support and assistance of my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mistreat my mind as a result of not taking self-responsibility for my body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard myself with a mind and body that require regard and consideration equal and one as what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding what regard and consideration for Everything as Oneness and Equality in fact means.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the physicality of words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to self-correct my misuse of words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the physical self-direction as living actions within as the words as sound here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having conflict within belief about what is possible within and as the Living Words Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for polarizing potential with disbelief, as like making sense out of non sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the irrationality within arguing/disagreeing with myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the impact of having even just one point out of physical alignment as Oneness and Equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how consequences are perpetuated as the fear of more consequences existing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating hardship for myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being negligently unaware and dare I say oblivious to the stress and strain I have done onto my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for struggling with the living of specific regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding things within being lazy as like not wanting to live the patience required to investigate the detailed specifics of a point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for glossing over specific points.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a prefference for generalizing information as opposed to being specialized in detail as like really specific with information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that it is better to be more specific with information than it is to be less specific with information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare and contrast the point of generalizing information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the patience required to see the detailed specifics of all things here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for glossing over the detailed specifics with regards to the specialized vocabulary about the knee parts in and around the knee as that which contributes to the knee existing here as the knee.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being lazy with language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that I do not require to be a specialized authority of words as the authority of knowing myself here because there exists so many different kind of doctors that specialize in different sections/parts/areas of expertise...and since most people are not master specialists of themselves as like know it alls....why should I be one?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing self-responsibility for myself here as the physical authority of myself here. I forgive myself for justifying a lack of accountability for self-actualization of myself here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making sense of not taking self-responsibility for the authority of knowing myself here because there exists so many different kinds of specialists here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I am not required to be an authority here because there already exists so many different types of authority figures here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created an idea of myself as being anti-authority....and I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of such a notion as like creating a fight with myself internally that is perceived externally within other types of authority here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing the practical possibilities of self-actualization as self-authorization here. Meaning, that self-responsibility is a knowing how to physically direction one self here as all as equals.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the complications that are created within and as the acceptance and allowance of inequality..,,and that accountability and consideration is much easier to process from the starting point of equality and oneness together here as what is best for all Life.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to write myself free everyday.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the consequences of passing up even just one opportunity to write.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the motivation within and as self-forgiveness from and as the perspective of fostering and facilitating the development of new growth...as like creating something that wasnt here before....as like a new opportunity is born.

Day 704 - Perfection

I noticed that I had created a polarity play within myself in regards to effectively living "perfection" without a bias and conflict.

Within reflecting upon my upbringing, I noticed I developed to a certain extent, the fear of making mistakes....or being wrong....and not wanting to be exposed as someone who doesn't know something or isn't very good at something. And on the flip side of this, existed the desire to be the best...perfection....being right....not making mistakes.

And if you look at the nature of this relationship interplay in regards to perfection...Fear is the root cause of such dissonance within myself, In seeing such fear within myself as like fear being on both sides of myself...it's kind of a paralyzing situation where there becomes a real stuckness. An example of this is like saying I'll go to the gym once I'm fit.....or, I'll start yoga once I'm flexible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining perfection within and as a positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating fear within and as an extension of perfection.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as less than perfection.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create an experience of stuckness for myself in relationship to the point of perfection.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing failure and desiring success.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as less than success and perfection within and as being the best within and as points of participation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating self-sabotage in relationship to my perception of perfection...and within this the fear of failure/mistakes and the desire for greatness/success.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for impairing my mobility...as like paralyzing my mobility in particular points of participation as a result of allowing myself to fear consequence and at the same time desiring to perform well within participations/performances.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I would create a stuckness for myself as like a non movement within points as a result of and as the acceptance and allowance of fear within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be limited in movement as a result of and as the experience of fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my mobility and responsibility to actually in fact live perfection from and as a point of allowing myself to participate and perform tasks...and within this actually develop and hone my skills within particular areas of focus that are points of new development.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have impeded learning growth and development within myself as a result of accepting and allowing myself to be stuck within fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to be stuck within fear.

When and as I see myself stuck within and as my ability to effectively move within a point, I stop and breathe, I face the fear that I am accepting and allowing....I dare myself to move beyond the stuckness experience and actually participate....I see/realize and understand that I can in fact let go of the stuckness experience by making the decision to move myself within a moment and actually participate here within a particular area of focus where I have resistance towards...and that by doing so, I actually in fact remove the resistance and develop myself within the point...where in fact I open up the potential to live self-perfection....because by allowing myself to participate in movement here, I am able to fine tune my abilities by learning from my participations here.

I commit myself to participating here. I commit myself to movement here. I realize and understand life to exist within movement and growth. I commit myself to movement and growth.
I commit myself to develop and self-perfect myself within movement here.

Looking at the word Perfect.....

Perfect Ion....

Perfect I On....

Perfection sounds kind of like perception....and perfect reminds me of performance....and perception is in regards to seeing...and performance is in regards to the movement/participation within and as a point...and therefore by actually allowing myself to be the perfection within and as the moment of myself here...I am allowing myself to see as the self-realization of myself here...which is in fact my self-honesty.....which I in fact live and in fact am able to exercise as my expression within and as the self-trust to actually move/apply myself here within and as specific point of participation/expression here.

I realize the commitment in fact within and as the word perfection...as it's a total immersion within and as a point of participation ....and so it's like perfection is always here within and as everything...as like everything is perfectly in fact exactly what it is as each and everything thing is behaving/operating the way that it in fact is....because it is perfectly that.

Perfect can be in regards to good or bad. As like that is a perfect example of what to do....or that is a perfect example of what not do . Either way, you see both example of perfect here...as being perfect in regards to what exactly they were.

I understand that in point of self-development that one can in fact learn to expand points of perfection....and I see this as the process of self-perfection as the natural learning process....where one's best is able to become better...as an improvement where you become better than your best....

In looking up the dictionary definition of perfection...I see it is in relationship to the quality of being free from flaw...as like flawless....and what is interesting to regard about this is the interdependence upon flaws...to in become flawless...because flawless is to have less flaws than what you previously did...or to be without flaws...and to get to a point of being without flaws is the process of and as self-perfection...where one enables oneself to move freely within participation and therefore one in fact can remedy a flaw/mistake by enacting a self-correction which is really the epitome of living practically self-perfection...because this is where self-realization is lived physically...as it's taking the seeing of a point and moving and transforming the ability as like the effective usage and understanding of one's very own response abilities....and here is how it all comes together within and as self-responsibility.