Day 510 Branding and Marketing Part 2 Commitments

I commit myself to stop demonizing the words branding and marketing.

I commit myself to stop reacting to the words branding and marketing.

I commit myself to stop charging the words 'branding' and 'marketing' with energy.

I commit myself to understanding 'branding' and 'marketing.'

I commit myself to utilize 'branding' and 'marketing' as points of assistance and support as what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to playing with and as the words 'branding' and 'marketing'.

I commit myself to creating branding and marketing that is best for all Life here.

I commit myself to become the branding and marketing I wish to see in the world as that which is best for all Life.

I commit myself to stand one and equal with the words branding and marketing.

I commit myself to purifying the world system by purifying my relationship with words.

I commit myself to branding and marketing the acceptances and allowances that are best for all Life.

I commit myself to branding and marketing that which is best for all Life.

I commit myself to branding and marketing self-expression

I commit myself to realizing and understanding the internal and external reality of words.

I commit myself to realize and understand the within and the without of branding and marketing.

I commit myself to stop self dishonesty within marketing and branding.

I commit myself to self-honesty within and as marketing and branding.

I commit myself to stop fearing bad marketing and bad branding.

I commit myself to stop judging marketing and branding.

I commit myself to branding and marketing from and as the starting point of a Win/Win Scenario

I commit myself to stop branding and marketing from within and as the starting point of win/lose.

I commit myself to stop fearing for survival within branding and marketing.

I commit myself to supporting and assisting Life within branding and marketing.

I commit myself to stopping/resolving marketing and branding conflicts.

I commit myself to stop branding and marketing ego separation

I commit myself to branding and marketing Oneness and Equality individual self-expression assistance and support.

I commit myself to stop fearing to lose my physical body.

I commit myself to appreciating, utilizing, regarding, expressing, caring, nurturing and playing with my physical body.

I commit myself to regarding my physical body.

I commit myself to becoming aware of my physical body.

I commit myself embodying my physical body.

I commit myself to brand and market Life.

I commit myself to stop branding and marketing the abuse of Life.

I commit myself to branding and marketing myself here as a Destonian.

I commit myself to making lots of money as a branding and marketing master.

I commit myself to stop being influenced by money, sex and fear within and as marketing and branding.






Branding I see as a particular view/image about something, as like a representation/presentation...signifying a particular product which may have a particular symbol used to illustrate/express the image/product.

Marketing I see as a tactic used to create awareness about a particular brand. I relate the words campaign and advertising to the word marketing. Marketing is all about exposing/creating attention for a particular brand/symbol/logo/saying/motto/expression/persona/image/idea/thought.

Dictionary definitions:

Branding: The marketing practice of creating a name, symbol or design that identifies and differentiates a product from other products
http://www.entrepreneur.com/encyclopedia/branding

Marketing: The activities of a company associated with buying and selling a product or service. It includes advertising, selling and delivering products to people. People who work in marketing departments of companies try to get the attention of target audiences by using slogans, packaging design, celebrity endorsements and general media exposure. The four 'Ps' of marketing are product, place, price and promotion.

Many people believe that marketing is just about advertising or sales. However, marketing is everything a company does to acquire customers and maintain a relationship with them. Even the small tasks like writing thank-you letters, playing golf with a prospective client, returning calls promptly and meeting with a past client for coffee can be thought of as marketing. The ultimate goal of marketing is to match a company's products and services to the people who need and want them, thereby ensure profitability 
http://www.investopedia.com/terms/m/marketing.asp

Playing with the definitions:

branding: Be are end....brain dead, ....brand.....brain ding...like a connection of like attraction...branding...be our ending...branding....b rand....be money...because rand is south African currency...be our money.....b-r-a-n-d-i-n-g

branding: a point of individuality and characterization of a particular definition....as like how you define with a name, image, logo, persona,...ownership of a particular things according to a name created for the particular things...specialized identification classification...specific image association.

marketing: market king...mark It....market winning....market-I-In...mark-it-'ing'....the point of creating a point...making a market...creating a demand for the market....making a mark and selling the mark, ....product, place, price, promotion........sharing.......news......show and tell, information sharing regards to a point of physicality that has been given a value.....point of relationship from one things to another thing.  maintenance of relationships....labor relations and services...forging particular connections...relationship definitions....expression, identification connectivity, the point of bond ability...influence...market maker...maker-market

At this point I am going to continue to play with the words 'Branding' and 'Marketing'.


To Be Continued

Day 509 Branding and Marketing Part 2

Continuing from my previous post entitled Branding and Marketing.


"Looking within myself with regards to the words branding and marketing I see how I have accepted and allowed some negative energy connotations with regards to these words as how they work in the the world system. Within this, I didn't regard or understand how I was taking a stance within these words and how my stance/position within these words has created a friction within myself about specifically branding and marketing myself." 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating negative energy connotations about the words "branding" and "marketing".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a positive/negative relationship to the words "branding" and "marking".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my relationship with words contributes to the functionality of the world system.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been branding and marketing my acceptances and allowances.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing "branding" and "marketing" to be separate from me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the words "branding" and "marketing" exists within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to realize and understand the internal/external relationship of words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to see how the words exist within myself and focusing on how the words exist outside of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that it is easier to look outside of myself than it is to look inside myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for forming the habitat of seeing outside of myself all the time and only sometimes looking within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having friction within myself about how to market and brand myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing bad branding and bad marketing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring good branding and good marketing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to stand as good branding and and good marketing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to divide myself within various brands of goodness and badness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have energetic reactions to branding and or marketing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making judgement as forms of energetic opinions about marketing and branding.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking about branding and marketing in terms of like an ego competition, as like who wins the competition of of judgement as being more valuable.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard all life here within and as ego based competitions of judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to win ego based competitions of judgment...like being the winning brand that can be successfully marketed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be the losing brand that cannot be successfully marketed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being concerned about branding and marketing from and as the perspective of fear for survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself for placing importance within branding and marketing as a point of fear for survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking it is valid to neglect the fear for survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have conflicting fears of survival within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing for the survival of my ego....and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising the physical fear for survival of my physical body here within fearing for the survival of my ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to lose my ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to lose my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to really care for my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for branding and marketing fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for branding and marketing irrational fear as emotions and feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding that the role of fear within branding and marketing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for connecting fear to sex within branding and marketing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I have conditioned branding and marketing to exist within myself as being primarily about sex and fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for connecting money, making money to branding and marketing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for correlating money, sex, and fear to be primarily related within myself with regards to the words branding and marketing.



To be continued

Day 508 I Wasn't Expecting That

Brief detour from my previous blog which will have a continuation.

Today I want to write about dealing with the unexpected that comes up that requires immediate attention.

So, I had a situation that came up today where an error resulted on an investment I made which was due to a 3rd party human error. The particular situation that needed to be sorted out required looking at many considerations in order to reach the best practical solution. There were some solutions presented immediately that were quick deal solutions that were not best...but a point of immediate remediation.

So within having to take time to assess the various considerations, I was getting a little bit stressed because I wasn't expecting to spend my time in this particular manner. I had initially budgeted my time differently...meaning...I had planned to spend my time focusing on other important priorities.

I knew it was ridiculous for me to get stressed and worked up about having to sort out this new situation...and fretting about falling behind on my planned schedule.

It's interesting that the initial point that came up was about money....and the other points or priority were about responsibilities/obligations/labor that needed to be done....which also reflected money.

So, I see here that I am still a little tightly wound with regards to money.

I understand that the design of the current money system reflects the design of the mind consciousness system as money as like energy and everything being about energy...and I mean within the current system it's very much survival based from a perspective of fear for your life because were in a system where it's win or lose....like if you're not careful you can be a bankrupted loser....and I mean if you're a winner,...you're perpetuating someone else being a bankrupted loser...so the design of the win/loss relationship is most unfortunate.

A Living Income Guaranteed is an immediate solution that can be facilitated on a global scale as a practical living solution to prevent the perpetuation of the win/lose....lose/win scenario's of our current monetary system.  A win/win system is obviously what is Best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get stressed within having to deal consequences that were unexpected.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying being stressed/frustrated/on edge because of the fear of losing money unexpectedly.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to lose money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be in a bad financial situation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing getting a brutally raw deal, as like an unlucky break.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for becoming agitated that my attention required to be shifted away from my initial plans.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having some stress within adapting in the moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how restrained my expression has been within having resistance towards adapting/responding in the moment to new circumstances that are not part of the old programmed plan.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for comparing the pre-programmed plan to the new planning that is required to be created as what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to being inconvenienced in not being able to still to my pre planned schedule of how I would spend my time within particular priorities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to the point of requiring to adjust my immediate priorities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which priority adjustments are required in order to facilitate a world that is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing within a pre-programmed bubble of expectation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to exist outside of a pre programmed self contained bubble of predictability.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being annoyed that I became stressed within facing new unexpected circumstances that required my immediate focused self-direction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself for not being as perfect as I would have liked to be in directing new unexpected circumstances today.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get worked up within myself with regards to the various time restraints imposed upon myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to strain myself with time restraints.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for feeling rushed within time as a result of having so many points that require my attention and self-direction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging and comparing various points in time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself within various points of judgement in time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding that I am in the process of constantly facing new points of consequence as acceptances and allowances that I require to direct within and as the points of self-responsibility, self-trust, self-forgiveness, self-honesty, self-commitment and self-corrective solutions.  I realize and understand


When and as I see that a new point has come up that requires my immediate attention, I stop and breathe, I look at the point, I realize and understand that reacting in any way to looking at the new point is ridiculous, I realize and understand that reacting to old plans as how I had planned to spend my time is ridiculous, I realize the impracticality of accepting and allowing myself to be stressed within my participation here.  I realize that in every particpation it is always about the starting point within particpation. I realize and understand Oneness and Equality as the starting point of creation as that which is best for all Life.  I realize and understand that any other starting point is a point of separation and therefore is less than real creation as oneness and equality.

When and as I see myself getting stressed about money and or time, I stop and breathe, I realize the absurd ridiculousness of inducing stress/strain upon my body within allowing myself to be stressed/strained about time and or money.

I commit myself to purify my relationship to money.

I commit myself to purify my relationship to time.

I commit myself to living Oneness and Equality as the starting point of Creation.

I commit myself to preventing strain and stress from occurring.

I commit myself to taking self-responsibility for the creation of a World that is Best for All Life.

Day 507 Branding and Marketing

The point came up about branding and marketing myself.  There's been some discomfort within myself with regards to the point of branding and marketing myself.

Looking within myself with regards to the words branding and marketing I see how I have accepted and allowed some negative energy connotations with regards to these words as how they work in the the world system Within this I didn't regard or understand how I was taking a stance within these words and how my stance/position within these words has created a friction within myself about specifically branding and marketing myself.

For instance, When I was quite young I regarded name brands as quite cool, as like there being a certain prestige the goes along with supporting a name brand. Then as I got older it was more about refining my brands, like only supporting the best quality brands in quality and craftsmanship...and having the high end products within the brand line.  Also though I kind of developed a rebellious attitude towards 'name brands' as like being a point of evil and being a conformist, and as a result of perpetuating the injustices that exist because you know, big name brands are all about profit...and within this I started thinking more and more about the injustices within labor exploitation, and also about logo's, thinking that it is not cool to be labelled with logo's...like I basically went the opposite way that I had before...where I was kind of taking the attitude I don't give a shit about labels and brand names...like being like I'll where whatever.

The same thing kind of with marketing...in that the way I would wear my clothes was very deliberate, like wanting to look a particular way and project a particular image. That image primarily through high-school was the preppy jock.  Then I shifted away from the preppy look and into the lounging look...like it became more about cool and comfortable...with a bit of rebellion in there as like wearing sweat pants and slippers or jeans and slippers...and skate shoes...wearing the skate shoes just because they were big and comfy...not really that great for running around or anything...but good for lounging in...and lots of hooded sweatshirts.

There's always been some resistance within me to prescribing to a particular dress code.  Though it's funny because I never had a school uniform but I remember thinking it would be alright to have a school uniform...and I just knew the way I rocked/wore my uniform would be cool/enjoyable.

I like the different styles of clothes that exist. I enjoy picking at my clothes. I've enjoyed doing this since I was young.  At some point I kind of reacted to the point of liking to style myself in particular ways...and kind of revolted as like like dissing my own styles by being like whatever, who gives a shit about style, and created a who gives a shit style...or maybe more appropriately labeled I don't give a shit.  I was reacting to the ideas I had incorporated within myself as a result of my environment about dress etiquette...like you know dressing professionally...and I just reacted so much so to this...as like thinking how lame it is that there's kind of a uniform standard dress code of how you are supposed to be dressed for particular functions/events...and within that...the various labels that co-exist with wearing these types of clothes or those types of clothes.  I mean I kind of got wrapped up in my own judgement but not realizing and seeing it.

It's interesting that I reacted so much to dress codes that in created this stigma about dress codes and within that it's like I created this stigmatization within myself.  Like just kind of taking on points of conflict...not considering how I was developing/expanding/creating internal conflict within myself...only perceiving the conflict to exist externally as like a point of separation from myself.

With the word Stigmatization coming up I reflect back to elementary school and I recall not getting invited to this girl's birthday party that was a boy/girl party in like grade 5 or 6 where pretty much every body in the grade at the school was invited but I wasn't invited because I had been exploring body parts with this particular girl a little while earlier...and the girl's mother found out and told my parents....and this was like made to be this big deal and secret bad thing that wasn't to be talked about...and like I was regarded as a bad apple/influence by the girl's mother...and thus I was outcasted from going to this boy girl party where there would be things happening like spin the bottle and getting locked in the closet.   Anyways, I was kinda sad/disappointed about not being aloud to go to party...but I at that age accepted that I was the bad apple...and believed to understand why I couldn't go because the girls mom feared me as being a bad influence.

I see how I spawned the attitude from there that I am too cool, like too cool to be allowed to socialize with all my peers all the time because I'm such a strong influence...and a strong influence is an influence to be feared.

The point came up today where I was saying that the world isn't very cool. Like there needs to be more coolness. I was saying how politicians and celebrities aren't cool at all, the education system isn't cool, war isn't cool, poverty/abuse/suffering isn't cool, pop culture isn't cool, societal norms aren't cool, commercials aren't cool....I went on to say I got to take self-responsibility for cool....because seriously things are not cool...like there's so much stuff that isn't cool. I was talking to family members about this point...and I kind of jokingly said I'm going to appoint myself the ambassador of cool...and then I started getting reactions from people saying that I got to be appointed by other people in order to be the ambassador...that I can't just declare myself it....that there is not validity to my claim if others are not validating my claim. I said, I  take self-responsibility as the presentation and embodiment of cool. I see it as a point of individual self-responsibility and self-trust. A self-agreement as commitment to the expression of what is best for all Life.

The point of discussion veered towards seriousness as like seriousness being separated from cool...like the opposite of seriously cool...like seriousness became a point of uncool....where if you want to be taken seriously, you can't be cool....

The point came up that cool is subjective...

I said cool is beyond subjectivity....cool is a point of objectivity.

The point came up in discussion that if you want to be well regarded and protect yourself from being slandered, You must limit your exposure/sharing/expression...because even though it may be cool....others may not regard it as a cool and try to use it against you.....a reference was made to the tv series game of thrones...and how Ned Stark was a pretty cool dude from the perspective of being a man of nobility and being morally right with honor in his actions....and how he's was killed as a result of his stance/position....like the pawns on the chess board were moved around and it resulted in him being taken out.

The point being, you have to play the game...know how to play the game....know thy enemy know thy self...kind of thing...like you got to operate within the system to change the system.

I am reminded of the point: By understanding the impossible it becomes possible.

Like knowing what is not cool opens up the opportunity for what is cool to be born and expressed.



So, I opened up a lot of points for more further specific self-investigative exploration....so stay tuned

Day 506 Fishing For Reactions No More

This is a continuation from my previous blog post Fishing for Reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how subtle a reaction can be within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how out of touch with physical reality I am when I do not take self-responsibility for even the most subtle reaction within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be influenced and manipulated by choosing to participate within subtle reactions by letting them linger within myself as a result of thinking that I don't require to do anything because it was just a subtle reaction and no it is seemingly gone.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for avoiding to investigate the origins of a subtle reaction that comes up within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that my creative ability to express myself is hindered as a result of not practically releasing all reactions from within myself as various forms of conflicting energies as manifested separation.

Self-corrective Statements:

When and as I see myself experiencing a subtle reaction within myself, I stop and breathe, I realise there is a gift and opportunity within recognizing this subtle reaction within myself because this is an indication of a point of accepted and allowed suppression/separation within as myself as not realising and understanding myself in physical reality as Oneness and Equality. I direct myself to find the earliest memory connection to the reaction and I see how I created a pattern of manifested accepted and allowed separation that became a trigger point for me having reactions throughout my life, and
therefore I go into self forgiveness on the point.

I commit myself to investigating all subtle reactions within myself.

I commit myself to purifying the law of my being as Oneness and Equality.

When and as I see myself resisting to investigate the origins of a point of reaction that comes up within myself, I stop and breathe, I investigate the point because I realize and understand the practical physical support and assistance I give myself in purifying the law of my being within investigating the origins of reactions as I realize and understand that this is the practical solution in and as how I take self-responsibility for myself here.

When and as I see myself being bothered by a subtle reaction that I just kind of ignored and dismissed as not important, I stop and breathe, I direct my attention on the point I back chatted within my mind about excusing and trying to forget/hide from. I see and realize the practical assistance and support in using my mind as a tool to birth myself as Life from the physical by purifying the law of my being.

When and as I see myself fishing for laughter as like a point of desire, I stop and breathe, I realise and understand the ridiculous absurdity of fishing for laughter from and as a point of desire as I see and realise this to stem from a point of self-validation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for looking for self validation within laughter.

I commit myself to sharing laughter from and as a starting point of self expression.

I commit myself to sharing funny as a self expression from within myself as the starting point of funny.

When and as I see myself laughing from within and as a starting point of reaction, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand that laughing from and as a starting point of reaction is not cool and that I require investigate why I reacted with laughter to the particular point because there is a self-realization for me to unravel within investigating the laughter reaction. I investigate and grant myself access the the self-realization that exists within the reaction.

When and as I see myself talking shit about others, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand that I do not like talking shit.

When and as I see myself making a joke at another's expense, I stop and breathe, and I realize and understand that making jokes at other people's expense as like a put down isn't really cool and is not how I would like to be treated.

When and as I see myself laughing at someone else who is talking shit about another person, I stop and breathe, I realise this is not cool, and I do not wish to support bullshitting gossip by encouraging the shit talking about each other.

I commit myself to stop gossiping forms of communication.

I commit myself express myself within communication as a sharing of what it is accept and allow.

I commit myself to sharing myself within communication.

I commit myself to sharing what I realize and understand to be funny.

I commit myself to sharing what I realize and understand.

I commit myself to sharing.

I commit myself to sharing point of ridiculousness within the realization and understanding of myself as the starting point of ridiculousness.

I commit myself to stop judging people.

I commit myself to realizing and understanding You is Me in another Life.

I commit myself to stop making judgement out to be this constant competition within my mind as a a form of accepted and allowed separation.

I commit myself to stop polarizing humanity within forms of superiority and inferiority.

I commit myself to equalizing myself within and as all of Humanity here.

I commit myself to expressing myself within stand up comedy.

I commit myself to working on the craft of stand up comedy

I commit myself to working on purifying the law of my being.

I commit myself to self-perfection.

I commit myself to playing with the point of stand up comedy.

I commit myself to sharing process of self realization through stand up comedy.

I commit myself to stop judging reactions.

I commit myself to directing reactions from within and as as starting point of assistance and support as what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to not take it personally that I trigger people to have reactions.

I commit myself to taking self-responsibility in moments where I act as trigger for someone having a reaction.

I commit myself to share my process of working through reactions.

I commit myself to share realization and understanding about the ridiculousness of reactions.

I commit myself to stop feeding off of reactions.

I commit myself to stop fueling reactions within myself.

I commit myself to taking self-responsibility for all reactions within myself.

I commit myself to playing with process of self-forgiveness, self-realization and self-correction.

Day 505 Fishing For Reactions

I was at the comedy club tonight checking out a show. It was a real nice venue where the stage was real close to the audience, in a not too big of a room that had about 200 people. I liked the set up in that people were packed into the place.

A few judgments came up in me this evening as points of self-reflection:

Laughter used as a point of reaction as like reacting to the comic just saying something shocking/surprising/distasteful/vulgar/inconsiderate.

Comic fishing for the laughter as a point of reaction to just saying something shocking/surprising/distasteful/vulgar/inconsiderate.

Comic talking shit about another person.


I realize and understand that these are all tactics used within the arena of stand up comedy. I understand the judgement has come up within me because these are all things I have done. I've done all of these things a lot.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fishing for laughter as a point of reaction to just saying something that is regarded as shocking/surprising/distasteful/vulgar/inconsiderate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for laughing from within and as the starting point of reacting to hearing something shocking/surprising/distasteful/vulgar/inconsiderate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fishing for laughter from others by talking shit about another person.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for laughing as a reaction to someone talking shit about someone else.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress my potential to share real funny within desiring to receive reactionary laughter that can be regarded as funny.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for make believing funny out of making fun of others as like forms of put-downs.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating the starting point of ridiculousness away from myself as within making fun of somebody else.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging the audience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as the audience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself as a comedian.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to take it personally when I see a comedian doing a bit that I don't think is very good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for placing expectations upon stand-up comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for mind fucking with myself about comedy/stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging the various tactics used within the craft of stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place myself in competition with other stand up comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regard myself as superior and inferior to other stand up comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing stand up comedy to be just a big ego dick swinging competition.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to comics getting emotional.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting emotional doing stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to talk shit about stand up comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to talk shit about myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get jealous and envious of stand up comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to put in the time working on my stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making excuses and justifications as to why I have been neglecting the point of stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be disappointed with myself for slacking off on the point of stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have mind fucked myself with regards to stand up comedy within and as the result of accepting and allowing myself to indulge within backchat as self imposed limitation in and as the form of excuses/justification/avoidance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself for fishing for reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fishing for reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining fishing for reactions as something bad and negative.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for feeling guilty for having triggered so many reactions in so many people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I must try to avoid triggering reactions in people at all times.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing for taking reactions personally within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be ashamed of all my reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be embarrassed of all my reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be disgusted by my reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting high off of reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for feeling powerful within generating/triggering reactions within myself/others.



To be Continued

Day 504 "You're a Mouth Breather"

So, I was at the dentist yesterday and the point came up with the dentist where she said to me, "You're a mouth breather"....I then apologized to her, saying oh sorry, ....and she was like why are you apologizing...and I figured I must of been really breathing in her face with my mouth. She then went on to explain how my gums were a little bit inflamed, which she said often result from being a mouth breather...specifically happening as a result of sleeping and breathing though your mouth...and the consequence of this being that your mouth/gums get kinda dried out....like they don't stay as moist as if the mouth was closed and the breathing was done through the nose. She also said that people who breath through the mouth often feel that there not getting enough air if they are breathing through the mouth...like there nasal passage air way isn't
 big enough. I said to her, So i should work on breathing through my nose...and she was kinda of like well no you cant really just do that...I was like I might as well just make the switch...and she was kind of hesitant/resistant in thinking that that this is not possible for me to do. I asked her If I should just go and get hypnotized so that I am breathe through my nose the majority of the time as opposed to my mouth.  She suggested I practice deep breathing within yoga or something like that.

It's interesting that when I give attention to my breathing, I generally direct my breath inward through my nose.

I've been playing with the point of breathing for about a day with regards to keeping my mouth completely closed a lot more. It's been a cool point of support for me. I'm going to continue playing with this point, I am experiencing like I have greater mouth awareness and breathing awareness just by making the effort to keep my mouth closed.

Some self-forgiveness with regards to this point:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself fro thinking that it is not possible for me to change the nature of the way I breathe.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing once a mouth breather always a mouth breather.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for considering the possibility that it would be just too difficult for me to do the majority of my breathing through my nose.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for considering to not challenge myself within the point of keeping my mouth closed more and breathing through my nose.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for worrying about my gums.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself for having just kept my mouth open so much.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being upset that I have conditioned myself to keep my mouth open most of the time as like believing that I need to breathe through my mouth and that my breathing through my nose is just not sufficient enough.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to the point of breathing here as like what the fuck,,why wasn't I informed about the consequences of breathing predominantly through my mouth when I was very little.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking and looking to project blame upon my parents as like the way I breathe being their fault because they did not educate me in breathing through my nose.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting within blame as like a way of deflecting self-responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that the way I breathe is just the way I am and that there's nothing I can really do about the way I breathe.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the opportunity for self expression within and as the way I direct my breathing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being so unaware of the extent of how I breathe.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing health side effects as a result of ineffective breathing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing msyelf for thinking that I don't have to really give attention to the way I breathe, that my body just does it naturally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to be here within and as awareness of my every breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that it is just too difficult fofr me to be totally aware of my breathing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having separated my awareness from my breathing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking breathing for granted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my ability to become the director of my breathing here in every moment.

I commit myself to studying the point of breathing with my mouth closed.

I commit myself to test out the point of breathing through my nose.

I commit myself to breath awareness.

I commit myself to directing my breathing.

I commit myself to learning to be here as breath awareness in every moment.

I commit myself to express myself through breathing.

I commit myself to birth self expression through and as the direction of my breathing.

I commit myself to realizing and understanding that breathing is the starting point for everything that I do within my physical body here.

I commit myself to playing with my breathing.

I commit myself to becoming a master breather.

I commit myself to becoming a professional breather. lol.

I commit myself to making a point of keeping my mouth closed more often.

I commit myself to investigating myself through breathing.

When and as I see that I just have my mouth open and I didn't direct myself to open my mouth, I close my mouth and breathe through my nose.

When and as I think to myself that I'm not interested in making a commitment to investigate keeping my mouth closed when I am not speaking and breathe through my nose, I stop and breathe through my nose and I close my mouth.