Day 636 Relation Dynamics

Day by Day I am really beginning to appreciate all the moments of sharing that happen throughout the day. What I am realizing and understanding is how many moments are present to fully appreciate as a result of being here in myphysical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having disregarded the simplicity of physical participation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how small adjustments makes huge improvements.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the amount of assistance and support I receive in my environment is always in fact equal to that which I in fact give to myself....actually...it's like the more I support myself, the more and more and more support and assistance that is available to me from those I share my environment with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I am receiving assistance and support when I am giving assistance and support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself within Everything Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for participating within excuses and justifications that distract me from connecting/sharing/seeing a moment of support and assistance that is presented to me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for obsessing about the differences within people,...and within this not realizing and understanding the moments of self-reflection that are being presented to me here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect the similarities that exist here within people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get lost within fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the nature of my existence here as like a holographic self-reflection.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating inequality within and as our shared reality here as a result of accepting and allowing myself to exist within and as a fearful/survival mind set....of winners and losers.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I suppressed my abilities to effectively express myself as Who I really am within and as I harbored tidbits of self-righteous/Inferior Judgments/comparisons about others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the practical living support within and as the words "solidarity" and "camaraderie".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared to stand together with and as all of humanity here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to stand in front of the group as like a part of the circle as All as One and Equal Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for arguing/fighting with myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how dependent I became upon fighting within myself as a source of my attention.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have existed in separation from all of existence as a result of my fears of expressing myself here from moment to moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurdity of my relationship dynamics existing from within and as the depths of fear/survival...where and as suppressing self-expression makes sense and is justified within and as the self-deception of believing that I am right in my action/behavior.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the ability to self-express myself here exists beyond the morality judgement of right and wrong.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having logically reasoned to make sense of my actions from and as a poverty/slave-master mind-set where my actions believable and justified.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the on going and continuous commitment of moment to moment management and application where I am existing in real time physical reality and I stand as the epitome of responsibility...as I exhibit extraordinary ability to respond in the moment within and as the awesomeness of myself-expression here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared to risk self-expressing myself within particular moments...out of fear that I will be judged/not well regarded....I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how within these particular moments I was in fact revealing to myself that I was in fact judging myself with low-regard and lack of self-worth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having disregarded myself within the realms of self-judgement...as like a justified self-induced separation from and as myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for pulling and pushing myself apart.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I pushed and pulled a part the relationships in my immediate environment as a direct reflection of and as how I was pushing and pulling myself a part, within and as attempts to escape my acceptances and allowances....without self-forgiving my opinions about myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how much I learn from and as communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of my communication as a basic reflection and example of and as my ability to self-express myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for censoring communication out of fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my communication has primarily existed within and as the starting point of fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing it is necessary to fear communicating.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my decisions when the decisions I make conflict with the general attitudes and directions of my environment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my tremendous ability to relate points to one another as like having a great ability to forge bonds/connections here by illustrating the similarities within a point that is often missed when the focal point is to look at the separation existent. I see/realize and understand how to in fact remove the separation and strengthen the building of connections here that are best for life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the answers and solutions existing here as Our Physical Self-Reflection of and as Our Image and Likeness here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for over complicating the simplicity of things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying and reasoning the need and a fascination to obsess and possess myself about and within relationships that I desire.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the mindfuck within obsessing over a particular point...as like how within and as this obsession...there is in fact a justification that is not seen/realized...as the obsession veils the justification.

When and as I see myself experiencing myself to be stuck within a point...as like a reluctance to move myself out of the point, I stop and breathe, I see/realize/understand that by beginning with a small adjustment,...that this is in fact the pivotal movement within and as self-direction/self-movement here as unconditional assistance and support.

I commit myself to the pivotal movement within and as self-direction/self-movement.

I commit myself to stop fearing to express myself in moments when and as I see I am faced with a point of suppression/fear/judgement/doubt/worry/justification.

When and as I see myself complicating things within my mind as a result of obsessing within thought, I stop and breathe..as I see/realize and understand this small adjustment is a pivotal point in changing my course of direction from self-suppression to self-expression.

I commit myself the the self-forgiveness and self-corrective application process in moment to moment application/self-expression of myself here.

I commit myself to removing all the manifested separation that exists within my mind.

Day 462 Attitude Part 2

Continuing from my previous post.




I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within and as the point of attitude in relation to things based on the starting point of judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating attitude about the picture presentation I see of myself when I look in the mirror....and within this...i see and realise the the absurd ridiculousness of judging my picture presentation and making up and or perpetuating any sort of impression about myself based upon what I see.

Like for instance, I was just in the washroom taking a piss...and  I made a point of checking out my stomach...as like how does my stomach look....like do I like the way my stomach looks today...and within this I laughed at how ridiculous my thought process is as what I am giving attention to within myself...I see and realise how ridiculously absurd it is to look at pictures...whether it be a picture of myself or another (which is essentially just another formed self-reflection) and make up feelings and or emotions within myself as like yup, this is the verdict this is my judgment here in this moment and this is now my energetic experienced energy buzz...I mean that's like wow...what a trip....wow...like hmm whats going on within me when I see this or that.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a bad attitude about my stomach.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for coping with attitude on a daily basis, by like checking my attitude in the mirror as a point of vanity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being resistant to move along breath by breath within my university studies.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a relationship towards seeing where I must be stimulated in producing a positive energy experience, or I have difficulty staying focused and awake.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist looking at things that don't give me a positive energetic experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating abuse by deliberately choosing to disregard that which I regard as unpleasant.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not wanting to deal with all the shit that is here because I am more concerned about that which gives me a particular energetic experience of bliss.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I created relationship attitude towards things from the perspective of generating an experience within myself as an impression....and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how forming impressions towards things is a clear indicator of accepted and allowed separation within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the challenge of walking process from the perspective of stopping all forms of energetic addiction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for pitying myself within accepted and allowed attitudes towards things here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying separation as accepted and allowed judgment by resisting to let go of attitudes and impressions about things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the emotional attitude that exists within me when I am agitated by anyone's attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking anyone's attitude personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking my attitude seriously in any particular moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be controlled by attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I just have to create like this positive attitude where I can be on a high no matter what.\

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that if I am not on a high than I am on a low.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing conflicting attitudes withing myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having changing attitudes as like an emotional roller coaster of high and low altitudes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the point of an everyday constant and consistent attitude as equality and oneness as what's best for life, as a point of gratitude...as I see and realise the gratitude as the epitome of a great attitude,  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being inconsistent with the living of of gratitude as a great attitude.  I realise and understand the point of gratitude as a great attitude.

When and as I see myself accepting anything less than gratitude as a great attitude, I stop and breathe, I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of accepting anything less than gratitude as a great attitude. I realise and understand the point of constant and consistent support I give and enable myself to receive within and as the employment of gratitude as the great attitude.

I commit myself to gratitude as a great attitude.