Day 724 - Complimentary Opposites

In having studied a little bit the teaching's of Wim Hof, One of the phrases he would say is, "The Cold is Your Warm friend".  And I found that to be a very fascinating statement.  I've been playing with the temperature of water within having my showers. It's been most enjoyable! Today I was finding that I couldn't get the hot water hot enough from my perspective...it's like I still experienced a slight chill within myself...and what is interesting about this..is that I have been playing with the point of getting into a cold shower...and sometimes I feel what I believe is "too cold" before I get in the shower...and so my rational is that I'll start warm/hot and then move to cold. Anyways, today I am just not satisfied with the warm of the shower, even though I got the temperature turned up all the way. Though for perspective on the temperature of heat...I think there is a safety function on the shower where it will not heat up too hot to the point where the water could actually burn you. Anyways...I'm about ready to get out of the shower...and I'm thinking that I can't do the cold water today, because I am just not warm/hot enough. I then decide to play with the temp as I go to turn the shower off...like deliberately turn the temperature dial very slowly as to kind of stop the turning of the dial on the cold temperature setting. This moment is very refreshing for me. I have a laugh as an aha moment as I am reminded of the words, "The cold is Your Warm Friend". I'm really enjoying myself and the expression of the water as it feels so nice on my body. It's like my body was craving the cold water all along by I wouldn't believe it because of how I was experiencing myself within my body...believing that the cold would be detrimental to my health.  fascinating turn of events here as I further reflect on this point as I am thoroughly enjoying this cold water flowing on me....I am stretching my body as I am present with the touches of water on my body. I am reminded of the words of another friend who recently told me about how she is always cold...and doesn't like the cold....and she said who would of thought that the cold has been the answer all along...like that I use the cold to warm up. Now I have slightly paraphrased her words but that was the message. I had been telling her about my playing with the cold and also I told her to check out Wim Hof.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt methods of support because they do not make sense and are arguably illogical from the knowledge and information I have accepted and allowed to exist within myself....as like what I remember to be the truth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-expansion process from and as the perspective of realizing and understanding that to grow, One has to be open to new possibilities and ways to grow that One doesn't currently already know.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have limited my growth in many moments as a result of my judgement/belief about what is possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stunt my growth from the perspective of creating judgements as a form of suppression on and as my potential here as the all ways possible to perceive/see the possibilities of expansion within a point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how subtle the experience I am having within myself can drastically influence my best functioning abilities and ability to learn and grow as the expression of and as my natural learning ability here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the questioning involved within and as the investigation of an experience one is having...as like really checking/examining the movement within self...and within this....the willingness to further examine the point and not to allow oneself to be further engulfed within the point from the perspective of choosing to react rather than respond...because of the desire to chase after the desired feeling experience energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my natural learning potential from the perspective of coping within and as the survival mentality of feeling/emotion chasing and justification. Where, what I mean by this...is that there is an engulfment within and as like fire management...where the fire as frictional energy within oneself is never stopped...but is just rather monitored and accepted and thus instead of directing responses....reactions are participated within as judged to be rational actions...when all the while a self-perpetuation is happening as a coping within and as the survival experience of being regulated by the experience of and as oneself....where the behavior is totally related to the experience of oneself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting methods of practical living support because this contradicts my survival coping mechanisms of existence as how I have come to be comfortable with what I believe to be good for me and right as like the only way here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of limitation as a result of getting stuck within and as a "one way" of thinking about things...and really the staunch and righteousness of this approach that is really debilitating to the sustainable development and maintenance of oneself here.

I commit myself to the support here.

I realize and understand the "Support Here" is Always All Ways, I realize and understand the starting point of creation as Equality and Oneness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being apprehensive towards unexpected possibilities that I have not fathomed as possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making excuses and justifications from a perspective of ego about the process journey to life here, as Always All Ways,...from and as the perspective of allowing backchat within mind to fester...that, Process would be too easy...if One accepts and allows oneself to garner assistance and support from everything as Always All Ways. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for rationalizing and justifying the making sense of things that don't really make sense to me...so that I can believe to understand things in a way that makes sense,..without actually further asKing Questions and thoroughly investigating the point for and as Myself Here.

I realize the tremendous support here as King Questions..as the self-empowerment of our Self Substantiation is within and as our very own Authorization as the Questions we give ourselves access to and as....for we are the very Journey/Question/Answer/Solution and the perspective and support as the dimensions of consideration are Always All Ways here as Our Very Own Self-Reflection.  The irony is Self-Profound.

I commit myself to the Self-Profound Irony Here.

I commit myself to expressing myself as King Questions...from and as the perspective that I take Self-responsibility for myself here and the process Journey to Life as the birthing/blossoming/growing/development/Creation Process Here.

I commit myself to Self-Authorization.

I realize and understand the endless possibilities here as I allow myself to look and see what is here and within looking and seeing...Allow myself to ASK Questions.

I realize the Gift within and as the Self-Acceptance as Allowing myself to Investigate Self Here as What One has accepted and allowed. I realize the effectiveness of this process is a matter of fact...as moment to moment management.

I commit myself to the micro managing of my moments.

I commit myself to self-perfection within and as micro managing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing nor regarding the significance as the point of Self-Profoundness within as a Micro Management.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the complimentary nature of polarities here from the perspective of opposites attract as like the even and the odd fit together to make the whole picture as whole puzzle pieces....perspectives.....points of consideration fit together as the compass that is always all ways here.

I commit myself to the Profound support I have allowed myself access to.

I realize that the support and assistance all ways always here is Profound.

I am grateful for the Profound Support and Assistance Here always All ways.

I commit myself to practically living self-profound assistance and support as the dedication and commitment to self-perfection of myself here.

I am grateful to be here.

The process journey to Life is Awesome. Grateful indeed.

I commit myself to gratitude as indeed/word/thought a self-profound way to Live/Grow/Play/Work here as what is in fact best for Everything.

Day 561 'Investigate'

 So I started to look at the word plays that exist within the word 'investigate'. I didn't have any real expectations about how many words I would find. As I started to investigate the word investigate, I was surprised that I continuously was seeing more and more word plays. I've played with words before and and many times there has not been so many words continuously being visible to me. Somewhat ironic that there is so many words to investigate that exist within playing with the letter makeup of 'investigate'. This really does exemplify the point of doing a thorough investigation. I mean like it's an ongoing thing in a way that is continuously monitored/surveillanced until there is certainty on the point...and even then when everything is believed to be known about the investigation...it's possible that new evidence can surface...like it was there the whole time...but it went undetected as it was not seen or realized...which poses the question, if we only know what we know...and we realize we only know what we know...what if we didn't know that we ever knew anything...and in a way if nobody knows anything than..well that's a serious like what the fuck situation...because 'know' is to realize and understand what it means to be a wonk...which is someone who is studious and hard working and takes an excessive interest in the minor details of political policy. What I am showing here is that to investigate a person is accumulating the knowledge that is here to know...and the knowledge is always here...it's within the accumulation and how we can effectively put the accumulation of fact into application that are best for all Life. Like the fact of the matters here on planet earth for example reflect that there is a serious lack of wonk going on because each person here reflects the representation of our political process as how we have politicized our self suppression as all life here...due to our lack of investigation....which has resulted from our inability to really look and question what is existing here and ask questions within looking at what is here. It is really quite simple when you consider that all that is required for our world to be effectively ordered/organized in ways that are best for everyone here would be to actually look and see everything here...and make the best placement assessments as how we can best support everything here. This can obviously be done through asking lots of questions about things.

it's interesting how the little things make all the difference. Like for instance I re-read my previous blog post before writing this one...and I re-read the blog immediately after I had wrote out a whole bunch of word plays for the word 'investigate'. What I am illustrating here is that upon re-reading my previous blog, I made a few minor spelling and grammar adjustment and the way the blog reads is now opening up more dimensions to see. What's interesting about this is that the adjustments were relatively minor as there was a couple of word adjustments...and some punctuation changes. Though everything that is quite minor is really also quite major from the perspective of oneness and equality and the fact that each part is a contributing part to the whole...and within this, the understanding exists here that every role played here is one and equal in being a role played here.Polarity can be quite the mind fuck when trying to get to clarity on something...as like deciphering sides...though it's kind of funny to look at deciphering sides...because if you rub away both sides...what are you left with?...Nothing...what's in the middle/inside of 2 sides...well when the sides are gone there is nothing left in the inside because the siding is gone and now all is in the outside...as like the inside and the outside become harmonized...as like the walls of division become removed and we are able to see and realize our own opposition...and when there is no more barriers/gates blocking out our opposition...all of a sudden there is no more polarity war of conflict friction as like all the rubbing has been rubbed out...as like no more need to mental masturbate...

Investigate what is here and see clear.

Much to investigate here...


This blog on my process of the word "investigate continues"

I Implore You to Investigate!


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Day 445 Seeing What's Here

I had an interesting dream last night where I was at a friend's place and I discovered a hidden room...like this whole area within the house that I had never seen before.  I was marveling about the area and was really quite pleased with discovering the area...and the cupboard closets were filled with goodies, like everything I could want...the words lucky charms come to mine as I think I recall there being lucky charms cereal and that was a really big deal to me...it's funny as I look at the word cereal, I sound out, "see real". What's also interesting about this dream is that after moments of marveling, I asked myself how I could have missed knowing about this space...and so I further examined the area re-tracing my steps to the back entrance and then I had an aha moment as it was like oh ya, well that's obvious that the stairs at the back of the kitchen also lead upstairs...I saw and realised how I had forgotten about this space in the house as a result of having neglected going up those stairs in the back of the house...how I had just avoided them...

This dream reveals to me the point of investigating that which I avoid doing/going where I resist going....and within this, the point that everything is here and how much access I have to see what is here is entirely up to me...as like whether or not I am willing myself to investigate the totality of here...as like all of myself...and the point of not just settling with less than a full investigation of reality here so that I can see for real...as like this is the self-investigative process...and the process is difficult from the perspective that one has to be constantly pushing ones own comfort zone as like the cure/prevention mechanism that insures there is no compromising settlements within one's process...as like giving up is not an option and there is no plea bargains so to speak...as only the best work/investigation/commitment is acceptable.


To be Continued....