Day 724 - Complimentary Opposites

In having studied a little bit the teaching's of Wim Hof, One of the phrases he would say is, "The Cold is Your Warm friend".  And I found that to be a very fascinating statement.  I've been playing with the temperature of water within having my showers. It's been most enjoyable! Today I was finding that I couldn't get the hot water hot enough from my perspective...it's like I still experienced a slight chill within myself...and what is interesting about this..is that I have been playing with the point of getting into a cold shower...and sometimes I feel what I believe is "too cold" before I get in the shower...and so my rational is that I'll start warm/hot and then move to cold. Anyways, today I am just not satisfied with the warm of the shower, even though I got the temperature turned up all the way. Though for perspective on the temperature of heat...I think there is a safety function on the shower where it will not heat up too hot to the point where the water could actually burn you. Anyways...I'm about ready to get out of the shower...and I'm thinking that I can't do the cold water today, because I am just not warm/hot enough. I then decide to play with the temp as I go to turn the shower off...like deliberately turn the temperature dial very slowly as to kind of stop the turning of the dial on the cold temperature setting. This moment is very refreshing for me. I have a laugh as an aha moment as I am reminded of the words, "The cold is Your Warm Friend". I'm really enjoying myself and the expression of the water as it feels so nice on my body. It's like my body was craving the cold water all along by I wouldn't believe it because of how I was experiencing myself within my body...believing that the cold would be detrimental to my health.  fascinating turn of events here as I further reflect on this point as I am thoroughly enjoying this cold water flowing on me....I am stretching my body as I am present with the touches of water on my body. I am reminded of the words of another friend who recently told me about how she is always cold...and doesn't like the cold....and she said who would of thought that the cold has been the answer all along...like that I use the cold to warm up. Now I have slightly paraphrased her words but that was the message. I had been telling her about my playing with the cold and also I told her to check out Wim Hof.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt methods of support because they do not make sense and are arguably illogical from the knowledge and information I have accepted and allowed to exist within myself....as like what I remember to be the truth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-expansion process from and as the perspective of realizing and understanding that to grow, One has to be open to new possibilities and ways to grow that One doesn't currently already know.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have limited my growth in many moments as a result of my judgement/belief about what is possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stunt my growth from the perspective of creating judgements as a form of suppression on and as my potential here as the all ways possible to perceive/see the possibilities of expansion within a point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how subtle the experience I am having within myself can drastically influence my best functioning abilities and ability to learn and grow as the expression of and as my natural learning ability here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the questioning involved within and as the investigation of an experience one is having...as like really checking/examining the movement within self...and within this....the willingness to further examine the point and not to allow oneself to be further engulfed within the point from the perspective of choosing to react rather than respond...because of the desire to chase after the desired feeling experience energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my natural learning potential from the perspective of coping within and as the survival mentality of feeling/emotion chasing and justification. Where, what I mean by this...is that there is an engulfment within and as like fire management...where the fire as frictional energy within oneself is never stopped...but is just rather monitored and accepted and thus instead of directing responses....reactions are participated within as judged to be rational actions...when all the while a self-perpetuation is happening as a coping within and as the survival experience of being regulated by the experience of and as oneself....where the behavior is totally related to the experience of oneself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting methods of practical living support because this contradicts my survival coping mechanisms of existence as how I have come to be comfortable with what I believe to be good for me and right as like the only way here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of limitation as a result of getting stuck within and as a "one way" of thinking about things...and really the staunch and righteousness of this approach that is really debilitating to the sustainable development and maintenance of oneself here.

I commit myself to the support here.

I realize and understand the "Support Here" is Always All Ways, I realize and understand the starting point of creation as Equality and Oneness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being apprehensive towards unexpected possibilities that I have not fathomed as possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making excuses and justifications from a perspective of ego about the process journey to life here, as Always All Ways,...from and as the perspective of allowing backchat within mind to fester...that, Process would be too easy...if One accepts and allows oneself to garner assistance and support from everything as Always All Ways. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for rationalizing and justifying the making sense of things that don't really make sense to me...so that I can believe to understand things in a way that makes sense,..without actually further asKing Questions and thoroughly investigating the point for and as Myself Here.

I realize the tremendous support here as King Questions..as the self-empowerment of our Self Substantiation is within and as our very own Authorization as the Questions we give ourselves access to and as....for we are the very Journey/Question/Answer/Solution and the perspective and support as the dimensions of consideration are Always All Ways here as Our Very Own Self-Reflection.  The irony is Self-Profound.

I commit myself to the Self-Profound Irony Here.

I commit myself to expressing myself as King Questions...from and as the perspective that I take Self-responsibility for myself here and the process Journey to Life as the birthing/blossoming/growing/development/Creation Process Here.

I commit myself to Self-Authorization.

I realize and understand the endless possibilities here as I allow myself to look and see what is here and within looking and seeing...Allow myself to ASK Questions.

I realize the Gift within and as the Self-Acceptance as Allowing myself to Investigate Self Here as What One has accepted and allowed. I realize the effectiveness of this process is a matter of fact...as moment to moment management.

I commit myself to the micro managing of my moments.

I commit myself to self-perfection within and as micro managing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing nor regarding the significance as the point of Self-Profoundness within as a Micro Management.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the complimentary nature of polarities here from the perspective of opposites attract as like the even and the odd fit together to make the whole picture as whole puzzle pieces....perspectives.....points of consideration fit together as the compass that is always all ways here.

I commit myself to the Profound support I have allowed myself access to.

I realize that the support and assistance all ways always here is Profound.

I am grateful for the Profound Support and Assistance Here always All ways.

I commit myself to practically living self-profound assistance and support as the dedication and commitment to self-perfection of myself here.

I am grateful to be here.

The process journey to Life is Awesome. Grateful indeed.

I commit myself to gratitude as indeed/word/thought a self-profound way to Live/Grow/Play/Work here as what is in fact best for Everything.

Day 536 Private Property and Licenses-The King of the Castle

Many times I've had selfish greedy thoughts about wanting to be in control of resources so that I can be the one who collects the profit at the expense of others having to pay me because I am the owner of property. Like for instance...I've always been really annoyed with the concept of royalty...like why the fuck it's accepted and allowed. How about I be declared the royal ruler of earth and everyone pays me because I am the owner of everything....or almost everything...and how about I stand in the position as the ruling authority to say how things should be so that I can have the perfect life where all my desires are satisfied...basically what I'm saying is that if someone should get a free ride and not have to work and do slave labor....why should I?

I see and realize how my particular thinking doesn't really solve the fuckedness of the situations that exist within the world...it;s more like me being spiteful and jealous of other spiteful people who happen to be standing in higher/greater positions of spitefulness and greed...and are benefiting from the power position at the expense of others suffering.

I realize it is fucked to just want myself to not be fucked and allow others to exist within a fucked up situation....and I realize and understand it's extremely fucked up to only regard myself and not consider everything else.

I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of close mindedness as the delusion of self interest and grandeur while not regarding the consequences of such close minded focused projections and desires.

I was thinking recently...why don't I create the need for more licensing requirements to do things...where I create the business where people are required to come to me and take a whatever course to become certified to do whatever and get a whatever it is specific license. Like I mean the whole licensing thing is getting ridiculous...and I know it;s all about money...and my thinking is how I can profit and make easy money so I can have an easy life....but what about the consequences...the spitefulness within creating and perpetuating bullshit so that I can have an easy time and privileges here...like I had thought...what if you needed a license to grow vegetables..and so everyone who grew vegetables had to pay me a licensing fee....or what about if you want to throw a ball around in public....what about a licensing fee to be able to throw a ball around....or what about a licensing fee to speak in public....or what about a license to take public transit in addition to paying a fee to take the bus or any other method of public transit....like what about requiring a license to be able to be a passenger in a plane...as a method of terrorism prevention....so you are pre-screened and therefore because you bought your license you don't have to go through all that bullshit airport security because you got your license you can just swipe your card....or what about just make people have a license to travel in addition to airport security....basically what I'm getting at is that due to the inherent fuckedness of how our money system functions in the world...increasingly there is more and more bullshit created through law and legislation that perpetuates and exacerbates the inherent fuckedness of our world/earth...so that new generations can be insured to grow up within an ever evolving levels of fuckedness...because people are needing to survive within this inherent fuckedness and the nature of the game we have created is to spit on each other in hopes that by spitting on someone else we wont get spit on and that we will be able to prosper from having created and accepted and allowed disregard for our fellow beings here.

I don't think these thoughts I've had are cool at all....there all quite nasty really...reflecting the inherent nastiness of  myself within and as a reflection of humanity.

Human civilization is quite a nasty thing.

The truth is, as long as we have a money system that does not regard and value Life with the utmost importance as the highest value....we are existing within a money system that is less than great that devalues Life.

What;s interesting when you ask yourself, what is Life? What qualifies as Life? Who and What is Life? You see and realize that all actual substance is Life. This self-introspection requires one to dare to be self-honest in investigating how we have disregarded the quality of our substance here...and have compromised and disregarded our substance because that is what we were born to do...substance abusers produced by substance abusers...I mean look how substance abuse is a real problem...the fact that we don't even generally typically  regard ourselves as substance abusers if we are not doing copious amounts of illicit drugs is absurd. Because have a look; our body, our earth is our substance here...and have a look at what is being accepted and allowed to happen to our body, our earth. Abuse. Unprecedented levels of abuse. For what? For Why? Because we don't even know why....because we justify why as our just if why...as our fictional justice system because our relationship with words is of questionable structural integrity...because resistance is futile...because were so narrow minded within our self-interested pursuits and desires to be happy within the most extreme dire straits....that the coping defense and protection mechanisms of our minds/ego programming is constantly evolving and upgrading in complexity and cleverness cunning ways to out wit and outsmart ourselves as to trick ourselves into not realizing and understand how fucked we are...that hey might as well just get fucked up and believe it to be a good time fucking up our body our earth because of peer pressure...like because it;s popular to be fucked up...and fuck why not right? like, fuck it. right?...we only live once so might as well say fuck it right? it;s all about the here after anyways right....how the fuck and what the fuck kind of here after is there going to be for anyone who diminishes their substance body of earth...how can anyone claim to be at peace in the hereafter when they contributed to the fuckedness that exists to this very day....would there not exist a here after until what is here has been established and accounted for as like the very very very basic mathematics of 1+1=2?

So the links posted below are few links I looked at prior to writing this blog...the first one economists Journey to Life How will companies be Nationalized is a cool read within and as a solution to implement and foster practical living change within and as the proposed Living Income Guaranteed.

If You are not familiar with Living Income Guaranteed, Google it.

http://economistjourneytolife.blogspot.ca/2013/12/day-255-how-will-companies-be.html

The Next couple of links here are examples reflecting upon my thoughts and desire for profit off of resources at the expense of others...looking at the company Nestle specifically and how the company supports the privatization of water and thinks that water being an inalienable human right is extreme and irrational and that... well... because, water is import/vital component of Life substance/subsistence that it should be bought and sold like most other components of Life at the expense of much suffering and abuse

http://www.trueactivist.com/nestle-ceo-water-is-not-a-human-right-should-be-privatized/

http://www.nestle-waters.com/healthy-hydration/water-body

NOTE: ALL LIFE IS VALUABLE, AND WE ARE ALL A PART OF TEAM LIFE....TIME TO START REALIZING AND UNDERSTANDING WHO YOUR TEAMMATES ARE AND TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR THE ABUSE YOU'VE INFLICTED ONTO YOUR FELLOW MATES.

Day 519 Reason Treason Self-Governance

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reasoning treasonous acts within myself as acceptances and allowances that create conflict within and as a myself standing here as the point of self-directed self-governor of and as what is best for all Life....Realizing and understanding that what is best for all Life starts with and as what I accept and allow within myself. I realize and understand that perpetuating reasons within myself to justify self-imposed discomfort within and as the belief that blame is a necessary reason for placing myself to be governed in accordance to allowing myself to get worked up within myself by reasoning the validity of blame as like being somebody else's fault for the way I am governing the law of my being here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have made decisions within myself that are directly contradictory to my ability to creatively express and enjoy myself from moment to moment.  I realize the ridiculous absurdity of holding onto treasonous attitudes within myself as like a form of abdicating myself as the best self-governance as like what I would like to see within and as all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for validating compromise within and as myself as the epitome of self-governance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the full time commitment to myself here as self-governance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to spite myself in moments of abdication of self-responsibility of myself here within going into a a point of emotion that I accepted and allowed to be valid as a form of reason to commit treason against myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have dis-empowered myself by choosing to validate reasoning within myself as an accepted mental frame work that does not support me in operating at my fullest potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for validating reasoned treason within myself as a form of coping mechanism for the anger and frustration that surfaces from within myself that has remained buried for some time due to the nature of myself having accepted and allowed self-suppression throughout my history here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding my time here as the standing body of self-governance within choosing to entertain distraction as reasoned justifiable emotional reactions as like being worthy of my attention and time. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of spiting myself within time by giving my attention to proliferating abuse within myself as emotional reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to escape self-responsibility for the treasonous reasons I have accepted and allowed to exist within myself as how I have spited myself from and as the opportunity to stand as the self-embodiment of and as all as One and Equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the reasoned treason within desiring to be angry as a point of emotional reaction that is fueled and charged within myself as a result of choosing/deciding to participate within and as an initial energetic triggered reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been conditions throughout time to accept and allow myself to validate and justify treasonous acceptances and allowances within myself that deliberately spite my ability to stand as what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have accepted and allowed myself to be my own worst enemy and within this refused to take accountability for my particpations by choosing to believe that blame is the game as to protect me in the fight against myself and therefore keep myself hidden suppressed from seeing what I am really doing to myself in every moment here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have made others out to be my enemy as like that which I am mad at and disappointed with because I have been afraid of seeing that which pisses me off within others is that which I refuse to take full self-responsibility for within myself and therefore by me being pissed off at another for even 1 second reflects the disregard I have accepted and allowed within myself and therefore I see and realize how I have justified the disregard for unconditional compassion within myself. I see and realize and understand the awesomeness of utilizing myself here in and as how my mind exists as the compass/tool/point of reference and way for me to be self-investigating and reclaiming self-responsibility and accountability for All of myself here as what is best for Life as the living realization and understanding of myself as Equality and Oneness birthed in and as physicality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing myself as All Life here within being greedy about sharing my time here, as like taking my time personally as like not wanting to be flexible in my capacity to respond within a moments notice because that contradicts myself from living in the planned expectations I created for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to commit treason against the law of my being here as self-governance within and as valuing my time as being more valuable than any other beings Life time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to de-value Life Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting angry with having to share more of my time than I was initially willing to share to assist and support fellow beings in a moment where I am able to assist and support another in a way that I would like to be assisted and supported.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been treasonous against self-governance as what is best for all Life within de-valuing my time and the principle of giving as I would like to receive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place expectations and reasoned judgement on what I am willing to give and share within a moment, as like taking offense when an opportunity arises for me to stand as a point of support for another in a situation that resulted unexpectedly that I would not ever expect myself to be in.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating reasoned expectations within myself that create and dictate non-action within myself as like creating the platform for myself to be deliberately stiff, rigid, and stubborn when in fact the capability and capacity exists within me to be flexible and creative in directing the problem into and as a solution which is best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be an enemy of what is best for all Life by allowing myself to be stiff and rigid and limited in and as my ability to respond within a moments notice to share as a point of caring for and as living life as what is best for all Life always all ways within and as the starting point principle of creation as Oneness and Equality,...realizing and understanding separation to be the greatest self-imposed deception/treason against myself as the starting point authority of self-governance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have committed treason against Life within spiting the equality and oneness within time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for manipulating and self-sabotaging my relationship with time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist in a relationship to time as a point of debt I am always falling behind within while always trying to get ahead in time as like trying to catch this carrot on a stick that is dangling in front of myself that is always just out of reach.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for committing treason against myself as All Life within judging myself in time as like creating a comparison to myself according to time...as like making the time to be a point of debt servitude and then to generate a particular reaction towards the debt as time....as like how I am feeling/experiencing myself within and as reaction to the debt/time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating self-governance within myself by becoming frustrated with time and within this going into as a a form of rebellion towards time and then deliberately spiting the nature of my relationship with time by going into a 'fuck it' experience as like being so fed up with always being behind in the race against time to say I no more care to compete here in time and that I'm not even going to regard time as a point of practical self measuring tool because the extent to which I have allowed myself to kick my own ass with regards to time is shameful.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to commit treason against myself as Life here within and as I refused to direct the labored points of repair/self-correction...and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating more damage and thus more repairs/self-correction required by accepting and allowing myself to choose to ignore/delay the labored responsibility of self-remediation as self-directing the purification of my acceptances and allowances in every moment I am here....realizing that I am here as a laborer to facilitate care and regard for myself as Life, piecing myself back together, realizing and understanding the self-direction within taking responsibility to create myself here as the masterpiece which is the labored results of my efforts from and as the principled self-commitment of what is best for all Life is all ways the best.