Day 532 Patience Required in Investigating Opportunities

Recently I've come across some cool opportunities and I was initially a little bit antsy within investigating the opportunities where I had a form of backchat as the thinking, 'what am I doing here'...then I reacted with disarray which brewed with anxiety which created an uneasiness within myself that I had made a mistake based upon the emotion I was experiencing within myself.

Within this above experience as I worked through the energies with self-forgiveness I continued to investigate the point and see how I was creating a "problem" for myself as a result of how I was experiencing myself within a moment.

It's interesting how experiencing anxiety in a moment can cause such confusion and opens up the possibility for misdirection and mistakes to happen.

What I realize and understand is that it is so ridiculous for the starting point of my physical movements to be based in some sort of energies as emotion and feelings. Like, this can be quite detrimental to making the best informed decisions. My initial reactions within the experience of anxiety was to get myself to a better state as a result of physically changing my plans and moving myself into another area/environment. What's funny and interesting about this...is that for a few moments I missed the point of slowing myself down here and facing the energetic experience within myself and releasing the energetic buildup within myself...it's like I believed I had to just get somewhere else away from here...lol...

The point of patience is key because the tendency and belief I had was to rush myself into a different direction of physical engagement as like a form of coping mechanism within the initial emotional energies that came up within myself as disarray and anxiety.

I'd like to take a few moments here and purify the words disarray and anxiety.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining disarray and and anxiety as negative energies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to escape the experiences of emotional disarray and anxiety without practically facing the origins as to why the experiences of disarray and anxiety came up within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how silly it is for me to look to make drastic changes within my physical reality from within and as a starting point of anxiety and disarray.

When and as I see myself experiencing disarray within myself, I stop and breathe, I look at what I am fearing, I realize and understand the practical support and assistance I can garner from myself within being patient to investigate the energy that comes up within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I connected disarray and anxiety to the uncertainty of the future...as like fear of the unknown...as like not knowing for certain how things will turn out. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to worry within accessing the energies of disarray and anxiety. I realize and understand the patience required to access my self-trust within myself as the patience to move myself in ways that are best for Life.  I realize the mindfuck of accepting and allowing myself to cycle within a reaction...as I realize and understand how reactions build upon themselves and take me out of physical reality as like existing within reactions is a mind job.  I realize I am in the process of stopping all reactions as they come up and investigating the reaction and enabling myself to receive the gift of each and every reaction.

When and as I see myself experiencing anxiety, I stop and breathe, I look and realize their is a gift/opportunity available for me as I am patient to investigate the question of how/when/why did this point of anxiety come up. What was happening immediately before I went into this particular experience? I realize and understand the patience required to investigate opportunities.

I commit myself to the patience required in investigating opportunities.

I commit myself to gifting myself opportunities within being patient and investigation reactions/emotions/feelings/thoughts that come up within myself.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to exist within anxiety and disarray.


My initial definition towards the word 'disarray' was 'the experience of like what the fuck is going on...because I don't know what the fuck is going on'

My initial definition of anxiety: Worry within self-judgement...the experience of nervousness and uneasiness within oneself."

Dictionary definitions:

Disarray:

noun) a state of disorganization or untidiness

synonyms: disorder, confusion, chaos, untidiness, disorganization, dishevelment, mess muddle, clutter, jumble, tangle, shambles....

verb) throw (someone or something) into a state of disorganization or untidiness
verb) strip (someone) of clothing

Anxiety:

noun) A feeling or worry, nervousness or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome.

synonyms: worry, fear, concern, apprehensiveness, uneasiness, unease, fearfulness, disquiet, disquietude, inquietude, perturbation, angst, agitation, misgiving, nervousness, nerves, tension, tenseness...


Playing with the words Disarray and Anxiety:

Disarray: This array...dissing the ray, diss-a-ray...the rays are being dissed....dicer-eh..., d-i-s-a-r-r-a-y,

The opposite of an array. Disarray is the disharmony to being in and as an array...the opposite of an ordered arrangement, in particular...is not an impressive display or range of a particular type of thing.

Anxiety: sound like an angst society...anxiety reflects society in angst....angst + society = anxiety...angry society...an-x- I - e- t-y...an 'x' like a mark/point i create with an example as the ie: in how I am tied to and as the example/explanation of and as the mark of an I as ego (e) energy which I am tied and bound to. An-X-I-It-Why....like not realizing and understanding Why there is a point of uncertainty.....knowing there is a point of uncertainty and being concerned/worried/fearful/uneasy about the point of uncertainty....

Looking at the word anxiety, the point/questions come up:

Is everyone constantly fluctuating within a state of anxiety when the future is uncertain?

Is self-direction with self-trust the remedy to alleviating all anxiety?

Is anxiety a lack of self-trust?

Is anxiety a lack of self-responsibility/self-accountability?

Is anxiety a point of self-victimization?

Is anxiety a point of being angry with yourself for accepting and allowing self-suppression within and as self-victimization?

Day 508 I Wasn't Expecting That

Brief detour from my previous blog which will have a continuation.

Today I want to write about dealing with the unexpected that comes up that requires immediate attention.

So, I had a situation that came up today where an error resulted on an investment I made which was due to a 3rd party human error. The particular situation that needed to be sorted out required looking at many considerations in order to reach the best practical solution. There were some solutions presented immediately that were quick deal solutions that were not best...but a point of immediate remediation.

So within having to take time to assess the various considerations, I was getting a little bit stressed because I wasn't expecting to spend my time in this particular manner. I had initially budgeted my time differently...meaning...I had planned to spend my time focusing on other important priorities.

I knew it was ridiculous for me to get stressed and worked up about having to sort out this new situation...and fretting about falling behind on my planned schedule.

It's interesting that the initial point that came up was about money....and the other points or priority were about responsibilities/obligations/labor that needed to be done....which also reflected money.

So, I see here that I am still a little tightly wound with regards to money.

I understand that the design of the current money system reflects the design of the mind consciousness system as money as like energy and everything being about energy...and I mean within the current system it's very much survival based from a perspective of fear for your life because were in a system where it's win or lose....like if you're not careful you can be a bankrupted loser....and I mean if you're a winner,...you're perpetuating someone else being a bankrupted loser...so the design of the win/loss relationship is most unfortunate.

A Living Income Guaranteed is an immediate solution that can be facilitated on a global scale as a practical living solution to prevent the perpetuation of the win/lose....lose/win scenario's of our current monetary system.  A win/win system is obviously what is Best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get stressed within having to deal consequences that were unexpected.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying being stressed/frustrated/on edge because of the fear of losing money unexpectedly.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to lose money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be in a bad financial situation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing getting a brutally raw deal, as like an unlucky break.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for becoming agitated that my attention required to be shifted away from my initial plans.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having some stress within adapting in the moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how restrained my expression has been within having resistance towards adapting/responding in the moment to new circumstances that are not part of the old programmed plan.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for comparing the pre-programmed plan to the new planning that is required to be created as what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to being inconvenienced in not being able to still to my pre planned schedule of how I would spend my time within particular priorities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to the point of requiring to adjust my immediate priorities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which priority adjustments are required in order to facilitate a world that is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing within a pre-programmed bubble of expectation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to exist outside of a pre programmed self contained bubble of predictability.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being annoyed that I became stressed within facing new unexpected circumstances that required my immediate focused self-direction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself for not being as perfect as I would have liked to be in directing new unexpected circumstances today.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get worked up within myself with regards to the various time restraints imposed upon myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to strain myself with time restraints.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for feeling rushed within time as a result of having so many points that require my attention and self-direction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging and comparing various points in time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself within various points of judgement in time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding that I am in the process of constantly facing new points of consequence as acceptances and allowances that I require to direct within and as the points of self-responsibility, self-trust, self-forgiveness, self-honesty, self-commitment and self-corrective solutions.  I realize and understand


When and as I see that a new point has come up that requires my immediate attention, I stop and breathe, I look at the point, I realize and understand that reacting in any way to looking at the new point is ridiculous, I realize and understand that reacting to old plans as how I had planned to spend my time is ridiculous, I realize the impracticality of accepting and allowing myself to be stressed within my participation here.  I realize that in every particpation it is always about the starting point within particpation. I realize and understand Oneness and Equality as the starting point of creation as that which is best for all Life.  I realize and understand that any other starting point is a point of separation and therefore is less than real creation as oneness and equality.

When and as I see myself getting stressed about money and or time, I stop and breathe, I realize the absurd ridiculousness of inducing stress/strain upon my body within allowing myself to be stressed/strained about time and or money.

I commit myself to purify my relationship to money.

I commit myself to purify my relationship to time.

I commit myself to living Oneness and Equality as the starting point of Creation.

I commit myself to preventing strain and stress from occurring.

I commit myself to taking self-responsibility for the creation of a World that is Best for All Life.

Day 483 Runner Runner

I just watched the movie Runner Runner which stars Ben Affleck and Justin Timberlake. Without spoiling the plot, the movie is all about money, making money, the risks involved, the consequences of gambling. The movie begins with a point being made about how our total reality is built upon gambling. All money being made is a result of gambling/taking risk. Within the movie, the levels of risk escalate with the level of rewards for such risks. The point is brought up within the movie of being willing to do things that you don't particularly like or want to do...but are willing to do so with gratitude and an indebted servitude because of the desire for more money. The point is illustrated how a person must be leveraged in order to get them to agree to do something they don't want to do. The tactic for leveraging people within the movie was to find the weak/soft point within the individual's personality and or life and create a platform so that the soft/weak point can be exploited/manipulated which can then be leveraged as the necessary means to getting what you want. The emphasis was made that Everyone has a weak/soft point and that no one is immune from being exploited/manipulated and leveraged...and that greed and desire are the blinders that prevent one from being able to see the tactics of exploitation, manipulation, and leveraging.

Greed and desire causes the collapse of business relations. Illustrated in the movie is how both parties are eager to enter a business relationship where there is mutual benefit....then throughout time, there becomes more and more conflict within the business relations...as each party is greedy and wants a better deal....which in turn creates a loss of mutual benefit, because manipulation and exploitation enter the equation as the means to leveraging the relationship so that individual greedy desires can be fulfilled. What is not seen and realized is the long term consequences of such actions. This is ironic, because as a result of lack of foresight, both business parties, eventually suffer and are worse off than they ever would have been if they had agreed to honoring a relationship of mutual benefit...as like, only making fair deals.

Everyone is like an individual business. Have a look at how the human body exists of many many individual relationships working together as a point of mutual benefit. The human body is made up of gazillions of parts/pieces. There is an interconnectedness involved, and the relationships exist from within the starting point of agreement as all being the beneficiaries of mutual benefit within the relationship agreement. All parts working together to create a healthy function body. I mean, what happens when all parts are not aligned within an effective relationship agreement...where a particular part has been compromised in its ability to contribute/function? Unfortunate consequence do to a physical structural misalignment.

Obviously, it is best to establish prevention methods to insure that unfortunate consequence do not happen to physical structural alignments.

So, I was saying everyone is like a business in fact do to the makeup of relationships and inter-dependency within and upon relationships. So, Life is like a business. All here is a part of the business, Life. Obviously, there needs to be prevention measures taken to insure the best quality of the Life Business Here. I mean for any individual Life business to be suffering an unfortunate consequence is not cool. Obviously it is best for all Individual Life Business's if a policy of prevention is implanted to insure the protection and highest quality standards of living for each individual Life Business.

Accepting anything less, is a gamble with unfortunate consequences that are guaranteed.

Join the Desteni I Process and start taking individual responsibility for Your Life Business as You are Your own business. It is only through realising and understanding your individual responsibilities that we can take on greater responsibilities.