Day 601 Compassion

See the Compass within Compassion.





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I resisted seeing for real within and as compassion for my fellow beings here.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I negated my ability to navigate myself within and as compassion for others in my reality.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I created reasoned confusion as a self-defense coping mechanism as a result of the fear of living and giving myself the gift of and as real compassion within and as myself intimacy here.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the self-responsibility that comes within and as the understanding of the word compassion.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating unfortunate consequences for myself as a result of requiring to learn hard lessons from and as the perspective of being resistant to understanding something that was here for me to see.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity of seeing what is here within and as the practical living application of Compassion.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating myself responsibility as the practical living application of the word Compassion.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the significance of imploring myself to investigate/introspect myself within moments of dissonance towards another being here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how conflict cannot exist within myself towards other beings when and as I commit myself to the practical living application of Compassion.


I commit myself to the practical living application of Compassion.


I realize and understand the significance of and as the practical living application of Compassion.


When and as I see myself struggling with another individual in my reality, I stop and breathe, I see/understand/realize that my compass as compassion is misaligned and I am negating a point of self-reflection/self-honesty and in turn am in fact being self-dishonest within myself. I immediately take self-responsibility for my unfortunate acceptance and allowance of self-dishonesty by remedying the situation by giving myself the dignity and integrity to live self-honestly and walk the necessary self-corrections of problem/self-dishonesty/consequence into and as solution/self-honesty/compassion common sense simplicity here within and as the self-realization of what is best.


I commit myself to the dignity and integrity required to live self-honestly and walk the necessary self-corrections for my unfortunate acceptances and allowances of problems/self-dishonesty/consequences.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding when a reaction comes up within myself, that I am able to understand and really know the reaction occurred within myself as I trust my compass of and as Compassion to see the truth within myself without any bias/filter.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for self-manipulating the truth of my acceptances and allowances as a result of compromising the integrity and dignity of and as my practical living the word Compassion.


I commit myself to living the word Compassion without any bias/filter.


I commit myself to practically living the word Compassion as What is best for all Life.


I commit myself to the self-realization and understanding that Real Compassion is the practical living application of Compassion as What is always best for all Life.


When and as I see myself looking to compromise the practical living application of Compassion, I stop and breathe, I see/realize/understand that formulating reasoned forms of justifications/excuses is a result of accepting and allowing a contaminated vocabulary to exist within myself. Within this, I see/realize/understand how I investigate my words to see where/how/why there is a disharmony within and as my word relationships and associations. I commit myself to harmonizing/self-correcting my vocabulary as the building blocks of Life.


I commit myself to the practical living application of Words as the building block of Life/Creation Here.


I commit myself to see the compass within and as Compassion Here.


I commit myself to exercising the practical living application of the compass within and Compassion.

Day 581 Self-Intimacy within the Question

Continuing from my previous blogs:

"Is it not each individual's self-responsibility to direct our individual self-stimulation....self-satisfaction...and amusement?"


I see here how in the phrasing of this question I was existing within the single mindedness of me as ego. Me as a self-interested singularity if you will...me as primarily separate from everything else here. Me within theacceptance and allowance that each being here exists within this starting point of self-confined self-interest as a singularity separate from everything else here. Obviously this mental framework is ridiculously absurd because there is self-evident interconnectedness with everything here.

There was some resistance within myself to exploring the self-intimacy of the question here.

Within examining this particular question, I looked at the point of self-stimulation as the means to generating self-satisfaction and amusement. Within looking at this I did not really want to regard the point that stimulation is an abdication of self-responsibility from and as the perspective of being a distraction and a point of creating the illusion of choice. Also within this point, I see how the justification has existed within myself to see a self-manipulated logical reason as to why the meaning of my existence should revolve around this singular point of and as self-stimulation. It is shameful to see that my preoccupation has been self-satisfaction and amusement.

I was looking at the point of self-satisfaction within our shared reality as a coping mechanism as a way in which one can justify that enough effort/work has been done...that there is a point of complacency as a point of acceptance within self that aligns within the mentality/belief that I deserve a reward now because I am done and satisfied with my performance/achievement/accomplishment and thus I am self-satisfied because I have made myself believe within my mind that I reached the required level of complacency in order to be compliant as a self-righteous superior ego frame of mind...and thus I can rest and relax because that is the reward of self-satisfaction that I am kind of like on vacation because I don't require to push myself to do more because I am self-satisfied...

So here I see self-satisfaction linked to a point of giving up...from a certain perspective...because it's like agreeing that I will not keep open the self-investigation any longer because I am satisfied with the result I have already receive...and I found what I was looking for and therefor if I find anything else...it will most likely be in direct conflict with my expectations and ego frame of mind as what I am looking for within and as amusement/stimulation.

So, obviously I do not particularly like to see and regard self-satisfaction as a grand illusion as the justified reason for an experience of greatness within myself. I mean I am kind of ashamed to see how I worked so hard to convince myself of my own justified self-satisfaction while abuse perpetuates itself everywhere as a reflection of the inherent system which I am a part. So I mean to see and realize that self-satisfaction is totally bullshit when considering that to be totally satisfied about anything when even a single point of suffering exists here is a cop out and total disregard for the well being of life...as like this is to say ya I am satisfied with disregard for the well being of all Life here...because hey check out what I've done...I've self-glorified my individual personification within and as the reward center of my mind and therefore I have validated and excused any doubt that indulging within various relationships from a starting point of self-stimulation and amusement is questionable activity.

I see here how the makeup of me here is in fact rooted within and as systems of self-stimulation. I see here how self-stimulation is like a point of amusement. Like there is an excitement component movement to it.

To be Continued