Day 722 - Cooler Than Cool Is Cold as Ice

It's interesting to see from a perspective of temperature how closely related Cool and Cold are. Is there an exact point/temperature reading that defined the bounds of Cool and Cold?  What's interesting is that Cool and Cold Compliment One Another! I see this as a movement play...the transition in direction as the change so gradual it's barely noticeable untill it's like dead obvious.

In my previous blog I mentioned the point of Cold Water therapy. I implore you to play with the point!

A point of support in making a great experience for you is to test the point gradually. Meaning it may not be the most practical to play with the extreme cold temperature as your body is not maybe so accustomed to it. perhaps work within the spectrum of Warm and Cool....and kind of play with it....in degrees of warmth and then push it into degrees of Cool....and depending on how this goes, maybe push the temperature back up to warm...and maybe even hot. Now throw it all the way down low...like real low...or not that low at all.  The point here is to play with the temperature gauge yourself in getting yourself acquainted with the water flow and feel as the temperatures you are.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining the word Cool as a positive thing...specifically with the positive feeling energy of Superiority....while at the same time being somewhat conflicted within the point where to hear that it is Cool outside can invoke a sort of Inferiority type energy experience of emotion as being less than as good a temperature as it could be if it was warm outside.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having conflicted definitions within myself as the word Cool...where I have one context meaning a positive energetic reaction and another context meaning an negative energetic reaction.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create polarized reactions to COOL.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how holding onto polarized energy within myself with specific regards to COOL is rather restricting and a strangle hold of sorts in actually being able to live the word Cool without potential nuclear disaster at any given moment based up the unstable relationship elements within and as my world here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the chemistry of myself here as a concoctions of words...and where the meanings are out of wack with various types of conflicting contexts as like a contradictory friction within myself that has the potential to be a disaster waiting to happen as like my very own self defined doomsday.  I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the irony of and as my word and world relationships here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making believing a preference towards self-destruction as opposed to self-perfection and self-empowerment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for using the differences within and as words as a detriment to myself development here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the art of communication from and as the starting point of sounding the song so it can be sung as like the flow you make as like a cake that it baked....yes it can rhyme....regardless of the time....it doesn't matter...Things are fine so long as you speak from the heart as the epitome self-realization as the all together Earth here, as the anagram play is clear...and there's little to no fear in sharing dimensions from the sea of seeing things here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get mixed up in the polarity play of comparison, while not realizing that everything is complimentary. I realize and understand that some compliments are not so complimenting and maybe even out of line as questionable all together...nonetheless...compliments are complimentary....just like complimentary angles are always the Right angles. I see realize and understand that when we learn to compliment each other in our endeavors this is in fact the weather that will produce a prosperous harvest for things are taking root in the plants that were planned for as the seeds of seeing things through to fruition as the sweet delight of the guts of the matter created here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the subtle degree in variance from shifting from cool to cold as the attitude I am presenting.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the transition in attitude from a starting point of stubborn disregard for the patience required to stop myself from perpetuating the strain of my own self-appoint strain as like the creation of internal agony as a result of sword used improper as the meaning of words smeared within myself as less than complimentary in creating that which is most Awesome.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting caught up in being right that I forgot the whole point of what in fact is Complimentary....because in my quest to be Right...I created the apparent wrong as a win/lose scenario where the game is on,,,,keeping score within myself...whether i beat myself or lose to myself...either way it's a loss...because so long as there is a divide within one there is a split up a breakup...and when the whole point of standing together as one here...alone is undone.,..well, we have a humpty dumpty what a great fall.  I realize the absurd ridiculousness of getting my tongue tied as the word definitions I accept and allow that conflict with the common sense best applications Life is all ways What's Best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being mad about patience..as like regarding others as patients and being upset that I started the doctors practice of building bridges of support through and as the practice of Patience. I realize and understand the real meaning of patience isn't some long con energetic deception ploy of a play where it's a fight all the way,...rooted in clever deceit. No, I realize and understand the practical everyday sharing of Patience is what Keeps Opportunity and Potential Live and Well as the Farmer tending to his field...Everyday garnering the field of dreams, the scientific art of knowing how to be careful for what You wish for!


To be Continued

Day 557 Violent Reflection

In dreams I've had recently just before I woke up I could see that I was instigating/perpetuating violence. Like there was this anger in me that acted as like the reasoned excuse and justification for violence as a necessary measure of retribution. Like the belief existing in me that it's all about pay back...and pay back is a nasty bitch. The specific details of the dreams both times are a bit fuzzy...but what stands out is that after I woke up I was faced with looking and seeing how there is anger and violence being accepted and allowed within myself. This is not cool. I mean a little bit I was kind of like what the fuck. Obviously within regarding myself in everythinghere that means I am within the violence and abuse that exists here. This is the uncool stuff to regard and face within self-honesty...because no one wants to regard and consider themselves responsible for the most brutal nasty atrocious acts imaginable. Interesting to look and see that collectively within our minds we are guilty of the play out that exists here as our global reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my for believing violence to be a justifiable means of retribution and restitution.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for supporting violence as a fear protection mechanism as like kill or be killed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for logically reasoning the justification and perpetuation of violence as a necessary action.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing violence to be a practical living solution as a way to solve problems.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing murdering people to be an acceptable way of solving problems.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having had violent thoughts of retribution.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having participated in violent disputes with family members.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for validating and justifying violence as a logical reactionary response to being angry.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having suppressed the shame of holding onto any anger towards another being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for punishing myself and others with anger.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting mercy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having regarded and believed mercy to be a sign of weakness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous within regarding violence as an answer and solution.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having backchatted within movies and shows about wanting the villain to be killed by the good guy hero.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to support energetically charged polarity based characters as the spectrum of emotions and feelings. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have perpetuated character conflict within myself as a result of choosing to fight and be angry.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding what it means to exist within a wholesome anger as that which does not consume oneself within and as energetic possession.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having wanted to bring up the point of violence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I must take self-responsibility for every point of battle/conflict/war that exists within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having desired to derive power through engaging and inciting conflict that perpetuates and encourages myself existing within anger reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the violence I have caused to my physical body as a result of accepting and allowing myself to harbor energetic angered judgement towards myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the totality of what it means to look at and investigate myself here in all ways that are best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for spiting myself within abusing myself within anger.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to stimulate myself with anger.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being addicted to anger triggers.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for bullying myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within and as self-victimization.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have inflicted physical violence upon myself within not realizing and understanding the effects of reactions as energetic acceptancesand allowances.

When and as I see myself being triggered with anger,I stop and breathe, I face the point of anger within investigating the trigger and I realize and understand the opportunity here for me to learn from my mistake and self-correct my programming as a practical living solution to insure the prevention of perpetuating the energetic charge of anger within myself in the future.

When and as I see myself validating/justifying/desiring the play out of violence, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the ridiculously absurd abuse in justifying the perpetuation of violence.

When and as I see myself desiring retribution, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the shame within logically reasoning the use of violence as an effective programming/remediation/rehabilitation program.

I commit myself to stop all violence from existing within myself.

I commit myself to share the absurd ridiculousness of violence onto one another as reasoned and justifiable outlet for energetic fits of anger/rage.

I commit myself stopping all energetic anger in relationships.

I commit myself to only accepting and allowing a wholesome anger to exist within me as the word anger as like a point of motivation within seeing and realizing my shame here...which is like a cold reminder and support platform for walking change for real that can stand here eternally as what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to self-correct every single point of energetic anger that exists within myself.

I commit myself to prevent the justification of violence within myself.

I commit myself to facing all my mistakes that are disgustingly shameful.

I commit myself to utilizing self-reflection here.