See the full share here:
https://steemit.com/life/@worldclassplayer/integrity-of-sharing
Note: If You are Not in Fact familiar with Steemit, You should! There's a lot of reasons why. At the very least...it can change your life for the better.
I am engaging myself in a 7 year journey to Nothingness. Meaning I am writing myself here...all the way through my mind, birthing my Life Potential within and as my physical body and Being Here. I re-structure myself within and as words. I am sharing my process of self-forgiveness, self-corrective statements and self-realizations as I walk my journey to life. Cheers and Enjoy.
Monday, 17 April 2017
Day 799 - Desteni and Dignity
See the whole story here:
https://steemit.com/desteni/@worldclassplayer/dignity-and-desteni-my-vistit-to-the-desteni-farm-and-my-potential
https://steemit.com/desteni/@worldclassplayer/dignity-and-desteni-my-vistit-to-the-desteni-farm-and-my-potential
Wednesday, 22 March 2017
Day 798 - Steemit
Steemit, a new blogging, social networking platform that is connected to a crypto currency. Get paid to play in sharing your best posts. Fascinating structure with steemit...it is still very early stages of development. My best suggestion is check it out and start playing with it.
https://steemit.com/desteni/@worldclassplayer/steemit-allow-me-to-introduce-myself-mikedestonianmcdonald
https://steemit.com/desteni/@worldclassplayer/steemit-allow-me-to-introduce-myself-mikedestonianmcdonald
Friday, 17 March 2017
Day 797 - Work, Physical
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor really question or in any way investigate the nature and expression of "Work".
Do I like work, Yes.
Work has been a point of sloppiness within myself in so many ways because Discipline has been a point of weakness within myself in relation to living "Work, Physical".
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize this 'go with the flow automation of my mind' has not been supporting me to be physical and work here in ways that are great. I realize i've been too flexible within my mind in the sense that Discipline has been lacking as my best discernment.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist the work required in exercising a plan effectively - where for example i make a plan the night before as a physical support in how i can best participate and support myself through my day....and then when the day is here, go into an experience of emotional discomfort and preoccupation that comes up in me where I am willing to give priority to this 'breaking news story' that has just aired inside myself as the networked consciousness channeling of myself as fear/energy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how I polarized discipline within myself to be preferenced based according to my consciousness energy definition...where the mind is dictator in that the discipline...or lack there of real living Discipline is biased towards getting the positive energy high. I realize this is a distraction, and for myself has been a preoccupation i did not fully understand.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how for the most part, I've feared myself here as Resistance. Meaning, it's always been that part of me that i havent wanted to give credence to - 'the bad, the darker parts of self'. I realize the experience of myself as Resistance has been mostly Inferiority, with little bits of superiority glossed on top from time to time to keep me fueled in and as mind automation - running, without regard for the implications, stress, strain, pressure, tension onto and into me as my physical body.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Resist myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand myself as 'Resistance'.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the best expression of Resistance within and as myself here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fight Resistance within and as a point of good versus bad. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have limited my definition and understanding of the experience of Resistance inside my physical body. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect reflection into and as my relationship with Resistance.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realizing and understand the harmony in body and mind with Resistance. Where it's the point of force within and as our movement...it's a point of will...like that of breath. The resistance does not require to be intense pressure...however it can be. I realize i created much intense pressure within my body as a result of not understanding the dynamics of myself within and as Resistance.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mindfuck myself in relation to Resistance where I accept and allow myself to be Inferior to Resistance, while hiding in delusions of grandeur in my mind as the sort of distraction/preoccupation logic of making sense of non sense to superimpose excuses and justifications on to myself and others. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how ive fueled the dissonance resistance movement within myself. I realize in attempting to understand and live my best potential - An important emphasis in accounting specifically for my daily living words - specifically the Regard within and as Word. I realize my strategy of understanding and learning has been through the consequence of suppression. I realize this is an inferior approach to Life. Less than. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify suppression of myself in thinking that i always need to challenge myself in decision making....meaning i must always choose that which is difficult.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify suppression of myself in thinking that i always need to challenge myself in decision making....meaning i must always choose that which is difficult.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor understand the stress and strain i have built up within me about decision making...where i've created a relied upon dependency on getting whipped by myself into movement/action.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to negate the best expression of myself as Work, Physical.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how my best Play has suffered from inconsistency as a result of having constricting conditions on my ability to best manage and direct Work, Physical here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the best of myself in daily living myself in my physical body, Working.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not really understand nor realize the effort within and as myself as Work and Will. I realize growth and maturity are the harvesting results of effectively cultivating the best expressions of resistance...meaning the words we give and gift to our selves as how we create solutions as our very own Instruction Manuals to share with others in how we moved,/breathed through a point of challenge and change
to be continued
Do I like work, Yes.
Work has been a point of sloppiness within myself in so many ways because Discipline has been a point of weakness within myself in relation to living "Work, Physical".
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize this 'go with the flow automation of my mind' has not been supporting me to be physical and work here in ways that are great. I realize i've been too flexible within my mind in the sense that Discipline has been lacking as my best discernment.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist the work required in exercising a plan effectively - where for example i make a plan the night before as a physical support in how i can best participate and support myself through my day....and then when the day is here, go into an experience of emotional discomfort and preoccupation that comes up in me where I am willing to give priority to this 'breaking news story' that has just aired inside myself as the networked consciousness channeling of myself as fear/energy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how I polarized discipline within myself to be preferenced based according to my consciousness energy definition...where the mind is dictator in that the discipline...or lack there of real living Discipline is biased towards getting the positive energy high. I realize this is a distraction, and for myself has been a preoccupation i did not fully understand.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how for the most part, I've feared myself here as Resistance. Meaning, it's always been that part of me that i havent wanted to give credence to - 'the bad, the darker parts of self'. I realize the experience of myself as Resistance has been mostly Inferiority, with little bits of superiority glossed on top from time to time to keep me fueled in and as mind automation - running, without regard for the implications, stress, strain, pressure, tension onto and into me as my physical body.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Resist myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand myself as 'Resistance'.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the best expression of Resistance within and as myself here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Fight Resistance within and as a point of good versus bad. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have limited my definition and understanding of the experience of Resistance inside my physical body. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect reflection into and as my relationship with Resistance.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realizing and understand the harmony in body and mind with Resistance. Where it's the point of force within and as our movement...it's a point of will...like that of breath. The resistance does not require to be intense pressure...however it can be. I realize i created much intense pressure within my body as a result of not understanding the dynamics of myself within and as Resistance.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mindfuck myself in relation to Resistance where I accept and allow myself to be Inferior to Resistance, while hiding in delusions of grandeur in my mind as the sort of distraction/preoccupation logic of making sense of non sense to superimpose excuses and justifications on to myself and others. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how ive fueled the dissonance resistance movement within myself. I realize in attempting to understand and live my best potential - An important emphasis in accounting specifically for my daily living words - specifically the Regard within and as Word. I realize my strategy of understanding and learning has been through the consequence of suppression. I realize this is an inferior approach to Life. Less than. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify suppression of myself in thinking that i always need to challenge myself in decision making....meaning i must always choose that which is difficult.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify suppression of myself in thinking that i always need to challenge myself in decision making....meaning i must always choose that which is difficult.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor understand the stress and strain i have built up within me about decision making...where i've created a relied upon dependency on getting whipped by myself into movement/action.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to negate the best expression of myself as Work, Physical.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how my best Play has suffered from inconsistency as a result of having constricting conditions on my ability to best manage and direct Work, Physical here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the best of myself in daily living myself in my physical body, Working.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not really understand nor realize the effort within and as myself as Work and Will. I realize growth and maturity are the harvesting results of effectively cultivating the best expressions of resistance...meaning the words we give and gift to our selves as how we create solutions as our very own Instruction Manuals to share with others in how we moved,/breathed through a point of challenge and change
to be continued
Friday, 24 February 2017
Day 796 - Rigidity Nature and Flexibility
I noticed upon waking up this morning i was a bit stiff and rigid. I experienced a tightness and even a bit of a soreness and stiffness within the middle of the small of my lower back....and also a lot more intensively so in my thighs. Yes, my recent physical activities play a role in my physical body self-reflection and investigations.
Ironically, i've noticed that my ability to move within physical activities is so much so rooted in the deep psychology of myself here. Meaning, my words....the vocabulary i speak....and how I say what i say...and the outlook I hold as my insight about the particularities of the relationships within and as the activities i engage within.
What is also very fascinating, is the fact that, I have a whole history of physical impressions layered in me over time on a cellular level as my words imprinted in me since childhood...and in so many ways...what i am realizing and investigating....and working on, is Identifying and correcting my cognitive dissonances. The Interesting thing i have realized is that my cognitive dissonances have manifested in me over time as my reactionary play outs in my movements throughout my days. Meaning, where I would react in a way of Offense or Defense. I noticed I created these offenses and defenses in my behavior conditioning as forms of protection as a result of not really understanding points of conflict/trauma early in my life.
Ive recently started playing with a structured process of Accountability in my, 'thoughts, words, and deeds.' How this Playing works, is:
I wake up in the morning...for my new Today.
I look within my body to see what i am experiencing.
I challenge myself to be Specific with Identifying a Word to explain and summarize the experience of myself.
I go into the specifics of the experience within my body...as how i am physically experiencing myself within particular parts of my body.
From here, I ask myself what word can I gift myself today as a complimentary support for my physical body investigations into the Initial Word I have given Focus to.
From Here, I see how this complimentary word/action exists within me as a physical body experience. I play around for a moment and realizing myself within and as the physical movement of the particular word I have given focus to.
I am now set, in and as my structure for my daily living of word and world investigations. What happens from here, is so much so an adventure and undertaking of unpredictable explanations. Meaning, 'it's like setting the table for a meal...you've prepared the lab for a scientific investigation and exploratory journey into yourself that you are going to walk/run in real time as Today. To further clarify: as a result of giving attention to the first word I bring forth, (example: rigidity)...I get to know and understand myself within and as Rigidity throughout my day...I become aware of my acceptances and allowances as this point of Rigidity on a deep level. Memories come to the surface throughout the day as support in showcasing to me how I substantiated the specifics of my behavior patterns.
I find it supportive to play with both words and get to know myself and even fine tune my definitions as i go with the words I work with in and as my word/world play and participation's from day to day..
Ironically, i've noticed that my ability to move within physical activities is so much so rooted in the deep psychology of myself here. Meaning, my words....the vocabulary i speak....and how I say what i say...and the outlook I hold as my insight about the particularities of the relationships within and as the activities i engage within.
What is also very fascinating, is the fact that, I have a whole history of physical impressions layered in me over time on a cellular level as my words imprinted in me since childhood...and in so many ways...what i am realizing and investigating....and working on, is Identifying and correcting my cognitive dissonances. The Interesting thing i have realized is that my cognitive dissonances have manifested in me over time as my reactionary play outs in my movements throughout my days. Meaning, where I would react in a way of Offense or Defense. I noticed I created these offenses and defenses in my behavior conditioning as forms of protection as a result of not really understanding points of conflict/trauma early in my life.
Ive recently started playing with a structured process of Accountability in my, 'thoughts, words, and deeds.' How this Playing works, is:
I wake up in the morning...for my new Today.
I look within my body to see what i am experiencing.
I challenge myself to be Specific with Identifying a Word to explain and summarize the experience of myself.
I go into the specifics of the experience within my body...as how i am physically experiencing myself within particular parts of my body.
From here, I ask myself what word can I gift myself today as a complimentary support for my physical body investigations into the Initial Word I have given Focus to.
From Here, I see how this complimentary word/action exists within me as a physical body experience. I play around for a moment and realizing myself within and as the physical movement of the particular word I have given focus to.
I am now set, in and as my structure for my daily living of word and world investigations. What happens from here, is so much so an adventure and undertaking of unpredictable explanations. Meaning, 'it's like setting the table for a meal...you've prepared the lab for a scientific investigation and exploratory journey into yourself that you are going to walk/run in real time as Today. To further clarify: as a result of giving attention to the first word I bring forth, (example: rigidity)...I get to know and understand myself within and as Rigidity throughout my day...I become aware of my acceptances and allowances as this point of Rigidity on a deep level. Memories come to the surface throughout the day as support in showcasing to me how I substantiated the specifics of my behavior patterns.
I find it supportive to play with both words and get to know myself and even fine tune my definitions as i go with the words I work with in and as my word/world play and participation's from day to day..
Saturday, 11 February 2017
Day 795 - I Manipulate with Justification
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate
myself in my world through Justification where I am existing in and
as a sort of Ignorance of my living of and as the word JUSTIFICATION.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to self-sabotage myself and my participation within my world within and as the execution of JUSTIFICATION to make sense of my accepted and allowed abdications of my best potential living here as Life made manifest as the realization of myself as All as One as Equal.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how I create JUSTIFICATION as a form of Defense and Offense I administer regularly to aggressively hold myself within a state of Suppression. I realize this shows to me how deceptive I am, because within this I play dumb as a point of Inferiority, pretending I do not know what I am really doing to myself and others as I use and abuse my words specifically for a sort of reactionary play out of the truth of myself acceptances and allowances.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist slowing down within and as Vulnerability and Patience to investigate the usage of my words to be sure that I am standing clear in and as the meaning and the specificity of my share.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be so careless within and as JUSTIFICATION.
I realize the shame within and as the way I have lived Justification.
I realize the travesty of my living and understanding of how to best express Justification.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Weaponize Justification within myself where it's always been used from the starting point of me existing here on the field of battle, playing out my inner conflict and superimposing my suppression/depression onto the world as how I manipulate myself and others into the point of Inferiority.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the fear within and as my usage of Justification, where it has been my accepted and allowed, Inferiority and Inadequacy in me that has kept me Justifying....where I created this Need within myself to Explain my Reactions as my actions, to Justify my self-righteousness as someone who is ok, or even better than ok, someone who is good and is even in fact admirable.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to superimpose deceit within my structuring of words.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the origins of the trauma from my childhood as the source memories of myself physically integrating/learning how to Defend and Attack myself with Justification.
I commit myself to exposing the ridiculousness of Justification used from the starting point of making sense and rationalizing the explanations of failure without being asked and or questioned about such things.
I commit myself to question myself and others in and as the usage of Justification.
I commit myself to show how Justification is an effective tool in and as Manipulation.
I commit myself to use Justification as a tool of self-support in questioning my acceptances and allowances....and to from here be Vulnerable and Intimate with myself in going deep into the discomfort within and as my body...and from here, access the memories of my past where i accepted and allowed suppression as a result of not realizing nor investigating the specificity of my reactions.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to self-sabotage myself and my participation within my world within and as the execution of JUSTIFICATION to make sense of my accepted and allowed abdications of my best potential living here as Life made manifest as the realization of myself as All as One as Equal.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how I create JUSTIFICATION as a form of Defense and Offense I administer regularly to aggressively hold myself within a state of Suppression. I realize this shows to me how deceptive I am, because within this I play dumb as a point of Inferiority, pretending I do not know what I am really doing to myself and others as I use and abuse my words specifically for a sort of reactionary play out of the truth of myself acceptances and allowances.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist slowing down within and as Vulnerability and Patience to investigate the usage of my words to be sure that I am standing clear in and as the meaning and the specificity of my share.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be so careless within and as JUSTIFICATION.
I realize the shame within and as the way I have lived Justification.
I realize the travesty of my living and understanding of how to best express Justification.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Weaponize Justification within myself where it's always been used from the starting point of me existing here on the field of battle, playing out my inner conflict and superimposing my suppression/depression onto the world as how I manipulate myself and others into the point of Inferiority.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the fear within and as my usage of Justification, where it has been my accepted and allowed, Inferiority and Inadequacy in me that has kept me Justifying....where I created this Need within myself to Explain my Reactions as my actions, to Justify my self-righteousness as someone who is ok, or even better than ok, someone who is good and is even in fact admirable.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to superimpose deceit within my structuring of words.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the origins of the trauma from my childhood as the source memories of myself physically integrating/learning how to Defend and Attack myself with Justification.
I commit myself to exposing the ridiculousness of Justification used from the starting point of making sense and rationalizing the explanations of failure without being asked and or questioned about such things.
I commit myself to question myself and others in and as the usage of Justification.
I commit myself to show how Justification is an effective tool in and as Manipulation.
I commit myself to use Justification as a tool of self-support in questioning my acceptances and allowances....and to from here be Vulnerable and Intimate with myself in going deep into the discomfort within and as my body...and from here, access the memories of my past where i accepted and allowed suppression as a result of not realizing nor investigating the specificity of my reactions.
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Day 794 - FaceOff "JUSTIFICATION"
I've been facing the characters of myself as how I have conditioned myself to respond in a plethora of scenarios. What's interesting to see is myself as the array of characters and also to within various forms of interactions/engagements where sometimes i have a particular resistance towards a certain type of character and it's like i want to move on and away from that character as quickly as possible because I see something in them that I don't like.
Lets look at this point of seeing something in another person that i don't like.
The things i see in other people at times are ugly, undesirable, awkward, overcompensation, fake, fucked, bullshit, superiority, inferiority, volatile, scripted, Routine, justification and excuses.
These are all points of myself that i am working through.
for practical purposes here: I am going to take one word:
JUSTIFICATION
I've been getting so angry when reading and speaking with others and Justification comes up. Like this up sets me very much. The irony of this is it is showing a deeply embedded point within me.
What I have noticed about myself within and as my day to day living as JUSTIFICATION, is that it has been a point of self-suppression, a form of accepted and allowed defense system that I use as a form of Offense and Attack on myself that is projected outward onto others to compensate with a form of suppression/depression existent within myself.
Let me further clarify:
Justification has been used by me as a sort of Self-narration to Explain myself to others my Point of View as in why I am Right within my Living as the decisions I am making and have made. Justification is the Excuses I create as the ways to validate Inferiority within myself as Accepting less than my Best Potential.
I've been using Justification as a form of aggressive Offense where I would instantly go into an automated reactionary response where I experience the urgency to Explain myself and my actions to others. Fucked up in a lot of ways, because what this reveals upon further investigation is how I am manipulating myself in participation through others. Meaning, I use my participations with others to validate my behavior and pattern where i superimpose a sort of Validating and Accepting response/reaction in others the way i position my sharing of information as JUSTIFICATION.
SEE:
Justification has been my way to say, " Just If I see a Tie On". Meaning also: Just if I/Me/You can see the connection I am making here and accept it as the terms of the Contract I am presenting here as my word scheme as my Pyramid layered self-deception.
Vulnerability has been a support word for me in going deeper into investigating JUSTIFICATION within myself.
Vulnerability is cool because I within and as Vulnerability I am strong in standing in and as Weakness. I move past my dissonance and stand as the point of accounting for my acceptances and allowances that are not cool.
The experiences I encounter within and as my vulnerability are very challenging at times as there is often a certain amount of intensity that comes up and that has manifested in a myriad of ways in my body in various moments...and so I've made a sort of game and challenge for myself in being my own DETECTIVE in making a play and work of Identifying the Specifics of the experience that surfaces and comes up within myself. What is very fascinating about this detective process of self-investigation for me is that my behavior and patterns are Learned over time, Layered within and as Specific Memories of past acceptances and allowances. So much fun and excitement in a way of creating the path of self-discovery with going into the seemingly Unknown of myself. Unknown from the point of not realizing and understanding how exactly i self-sabotaged, self-suppressed myself in the first place!
This process of self-exploration as taking on the staring point responsibility here as an Existential Detective has been a journey and an adventure for each and everyone. My ability to relate and share and teach and learn has improved immensely. The quality of my life is a continued improvement because I Keep letting go of baggage that is unnecessary to hold onto as impressions of suppression as the points and moments in memory as Not Understanding and Realizing myself here as Life, One and Equal.
I enjoy learning so much.
I encourage each and everyone to dare to go deep within and as your participation's with others and the activities you participate within alone...and really see what you think about others and the activities you participate within ,,,and really get to know your weaknesses, you know, The Justifications.....the Just if I see a Tie On.
Remember:
Justification in and of itself can be a cool tool to see where we work to create explanation in our actions...and actually understanding the nature of justification as why we are wanting to manipulate our information in a particular way.
Do we see how Manipulation is Complimentary in action to Justification?
Lets look at this point of seeing something in another person that i don't like.
The things i see in other people at times are ugly, undesirable, awkward, overcompensation, fake, fucked, bullshit, superiority, inferiority, volatile, scripted, Routine, justification and excuses.
These are all points of myself that i am working through.
for practical purposes here: I am going to take one word:
JUSTIFICATION
I've been getting so angry when reading and speaking with others and Justification comes up. Like this up sets me very much. The irony of this is it is showing a deeply embedded point within me.
What I have noticed about myself within and as my day to day living as JUSTIFICATION, is that it has been a point of self-suppression, a form of accepted and allowed defense system that I use as a form of Offense and Attack on myself that is projected outward onto others to compensate with a form of suppression/depression existent within myself.
Let me further clarify:
Justification has been used by me as a sort of Self-narration to Explain myself to others my Point of View as in why I am Right within my Living as the decisions I am making and have made. Justification is the Excuses I create as the ways to validate Inferiority within myself as Accepting less than my Best Potential.
I've been using Justification as a form of aggressive Offense where I would instantly go into an automated reactionary response where I experience the urgency to Explain myself and my actions to others. Fucked up in a lot of ways, because what this reveals upon further investigation is how I am manipulating myself in participation through others. Meaning, I use my participations with others to validate my behavior and pattern where i superimpose a sort of Validating and Accepting response/reaction in others the way i position my sharing of information as JUSTIFICATION.
SEE:
Justification has been my way to say, " Just If I see a Tie On". Meaning also: Just if I/Me/You can see the connection I am making here and accept it as the terms of the Contract I am presenting here as my word scheme as my Pyramid layered self-deception.
Vulnerability has been a support word for me in going deeper into investigating JUSTIFICATION within myself.
Vulnerability is cool because I within and as Vulnerability I am strong in standing in and as Weakness. I move past my dissonance and stand as the point of accounting for my acceptances and allowances that are not cool.
The experiences I encounter within and as my vulnerability are very challenging at times as there is often a certain amount of intensity that comes up and that has manifested in a myriad of ways in my body in various moments...and so I've made a sort of game and challenge for myself in being my own DETECTIVE in making a play and work of Identifying the Specifics of the experience that surfaces and comes up within myself. What is very fascinating about this detective process of self-investigation for me is that my behavior and patterns are Learned over time, Layered within and as Specific Memories of past acceptances and allowances. So much fun and excitement in a way of creating the path of self-discovery with going into the seemingly Unknown of myself. Unknown from the point of not realizing and understanding how exactly i self-sabotaged, self-suppressed myself in the first place!
This process of self-exploration as taking on the staring point responsibility here as an Existential Detective has been a journey and an adventure for each and everyone. My ability to relate and share and teach and learn has improved immensely. The quality of my life is a continued improvement because I Keep letting go of baggage that is unnecessary to hold onto as impressions of suppression as the points and moments in memory as Not Understanding and Realizing myself here as Life, One and Equal.
I enjoy learning so much.
I encourage each and everyone to dare to go deep within and as your participation's with others and the activities you participate within alone...and really see what you think about others and the activities you participate within ,,,and really get to know your weaknesses, you know, The Justifications.....the Just if I see a Tie On.
Remember:
Justification in and of itself can be a cool tool to see where we work to create explanation in our actions...and actually understanding the nature of justification as why we are wanting to manipulate our information in a particular way.
Do we see how Manipulation is Complimentary in action to Justification?
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