Day 535 Why Do I Resist Things? Part 2

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to confuse myself within accepted and allowed conflict towards self-responsibilities and social activities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself within social activities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making the taking of self-responsibility to be a difficult task.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to make self-responsibility a difficult decision.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for delaying self-responsibility out of fear of being specific, precise and direct within every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to move myself out of an energetic funk as like wanting to remain within an energetic experience of lethargic laziness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be influenced and controlled by a heaviness energetic experience within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself within moving myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing not having enough free time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having justified inaction on account that I am feeling lazy and lethargic.

When and as I see myself resisting to do things because I am experiencing a heaviness energy within myself, like laziness and lethargy, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand that I am capable and able to move beyond such self imposed limitations/restraints. I direct myself to move into the point that I had resistance towards moving into. I do not accept and allow myself to be controlled and regulated by a heaviness energetic experience within myself.

When and as I see myself judging my decisions with how I have allotted my time, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of belittling myself with self-judgment. I realize and understand that it is not practical for me to place and hold judgements against myself.

I commit myself to stop victimizing myself within self-judgment.

I commit myself to realizing and understanding that I am not limited to how I am experiencing myself within a moment.

I commit myself to trust myself within removing resistance from within myself.

I commit myself to trust myself within making decisions about whether to socialize or whether to spend time by myself.

I commit myself to balancing my private alone time and my public social time.

I commit myself to stop making self-responsible decisions difficult.

I commit myself to stop judging and comparing myself to my peers.

When and as I see myself judging and comparing myself to my peers, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the separation within self-judgment, I realize and understand that there is no practical reason for me to judge and compare myself to my peers. I realize judging and comparing myself to my peers breeds separation and I am interested in removing accepted and allowed separation within myself.

I commit myself to purify my existence by removing accepted and allowed separation that exists within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand that resisting things is a result of accepting and allowing fear to regulate/dictate/control the functionality of myself. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of limiting myself within choosing to accept and allow myself to be regulated, controlled, and dictated by fear within myself.

I commit myself to assessing myself within self-honesty to see if I am being influenced by fear energies within myself.

When and as I see myself being influenced in my decision making by fear, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand how fear exists as the acceptance and allowance of resistance to change/self-direction and that it is myself responsibility to release myself from the shackles of fear that I created as programmed self imposed limitations.

I commit myself to transcending fear restraints.

I commit myself to facing my fears with self-honesty and self trust.

I commit myself to stop trying to avoid fear.

I commit myself to stop trying to escape fear.

I commit myself to look for points of fear within myself as a practical way to see and realize how I am able to expand my abilities here within facing my fears and transcending them

I commit myself to transcending programmed fears.

I commit myself to walking through fears/resistance in physical reality.

Day 481 Legal System Forgiveness

Continuing from my previous blog.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for looking at law from the perspective of wanting to know how I can exploit and manipulate the law.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that in order to be successful in this world, I must be an an expert manipulator and exploiter.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and considering the laws of my being within and as I reflect upon the nature of the legal system.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to exploit and manipulate the legal system for person benefit.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not even considering the consequences of exploiting and manipulating the legal system for personal gain.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not placing myself one and equal with the legal system.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding my own inherent fuckedness within the legal system.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not seeing the legal system as myself and as a reflection of humanity as a whole.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for placing myself as superior to the legal system, as like more clever, and therefor because of my superiority and cleverness, I deemed myself to be entitled to fucking with that which I deemed fucked because within my heir of self-righteous appointment, I'm looking to benefit and protect myself, as the expense of beating things...like in this particular scenario....my thinking was that I can beat the legal system of enslavement....note the punny pun here....."beating" the legal system....me kicking the legal systems ass....making the legal system my bitch....I mean what makes me so entitled to be a nasty fucker....when it is in fact this nastiness that I do not like in the first place.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself perpetuating the existence of myself within the veils of self-righteousness that were in fact blinding me from seeing the actual laws of my being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to see how lame I was being within and as blame...as like all sorts of degrees of blame...like for example....seeing corporations and money to blame, and international bankers, and government, and everyone else who knew or didn't know about the extensive fuckedness of the legal system.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as a tyrant.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting and desiring to leverage the legal system for personal gain.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I could show others how I had been prosperous in exploiting and manipulating the current systems.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the consequences of deliberately exploiting and manipulating the current systems for believed individual prosperity and liberty in the terms of gaining a monetary strong hold...as like insuring a wealth of entitlement within a world of debt and lack of entitlement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that I must be able to manipulate the wealth and resources of the world in such a way where I become the great emancipator.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself  as one and equal with those who hold the majority of the wealth and resources in this world....from the perspective of treating others how I would like to be treated.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that my way is the only way...that there are those who must pay at the cost of my expenses....and therefore be controlled and regulated by the debt I inflicted upon them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the oppression existent within and as the dominant oppressor.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that if I am not diligent within my application of practical living self-forgiveness than I am an 'Agent Smith' continuing to evolve and upgrade within and as the systems of exploitation and abuse.