Day 657 - Self-Responsibility, The Buried Treasure

Here I am with an abundant of opportunity to move and dictate the manifestation of my destiny...and the funny thing is...it's difficult for me to create direction for myself...like knowing that I can do whatever I want...and that because I have such potential...I see there is this responsibility that I have...yet it's interesting that I say that there is this "responsibility that I have"...yet it's like I have not fully realized and understood this word and point of "responsibility" that I have, and know, and am able to exercise it as much as I want....and, really living this point/word "responsibility" that I have and own.

See, what I am learning more and more on a daily basis is this "responsibility" in which I am in fact the owner....to be more specific...the "responsibility" that I have and own is "Self-Responsibility".

The funny thing here is that even though I know I got/have it(Self-Responsibility)....What has become apparent to me as like me taking on the Self-responsibility for myself here as my own parental figure...and go figure...I have been learning how to walk the point of self responsibility for myself here.

See it's interesting because I see myself enjoyment coming from actually living my self-responsibility. the interesting thing is...is that I so often was seeking this self enjoyment outside of myself...like making the starting point about a particular condition and state of experience...when all in all...I see here...me the director of and as the point of my Self-responsibility.

So, I'm more and more aware of when I am neglecting my potential to live self-responsibly...as the knowing and understanding of myself responsibilities...because what is interesting here is like self-responsibility is in fact a way to work and play in the best possible ways...and well when I neglect my self-responsibility...I neglect living/existing here in the best possible ways...and If i am not existing here in the best possible ways...what the fuck is that all about...if and as I am in fact able to be here in the best possible ways...exercising the best abilities available...making the most of myself/situations here...the point of bettering myself and this world...because of the point that I can always be making my best better...and thus I am always becoming better than my previous best...like an ongoing  fine-tuning perfection/harmony/play/heaven here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting my best possible ways of existing/expressing/creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself form self-enjoyment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the disservice I do to myself when I resist my very own self-enjoyment from moment to moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the self-enjoyment of myself from moment to moment to seem like a very difficult challenge at times...and like seemingly beyond comprehension.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity of my self-enjoyment being rooted in and as my response-ability to honor my self-honesty and self-trust here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for complicating the simplicity of and as my individual self-enjoyment from moment to moment as the author that I am all-ways here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for postponing greatness within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing my greatness in potential abilities here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the bare minimum approach within self-responsibilities..as like a poverty type mind set...as like just enough to get by in coping with my unjust acceptances and allowances

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising and sacrificing my best potential for the point of coping with unjust acceptances and allowances.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating a poverty type mind set as a result of fearing to take on the status standing here as Self-Empowered Man of Self-Responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for working and playing in ways that are less than the best for myself and all life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for excusing responsibility for lethargic behavior.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for validating and justifying lethargic tendencies within myself.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the ridiculous absurdities of holding myself hostage within lethargy when it is in fact possible for me to do almost anything...as like giving myself whatever direction/future I would in fact like.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being reluctant to actually commit everything of myself here to my future here

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have neglected to give everything of myself to the future of myself here.

I forgive myself for myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my self-responsibility is like an investment and insurance into and as my future well being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to really give a shit about my future well being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having caste judgement upon my relationship within and about "responsibility"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to take self-responsibility for myself in every moment here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that taking self-responsibility for myself here in every moment is the point of actually taking ownership of my life and living here in every moment as the epitome of what is in fact best.

I commit myself to the epitome of what is in fact best.

I commit myself to taking ownership of my life and living here in every moment.

When and as I see myself being reluctant to do/give myself what is the best support/assistance...I stop and breathe...I have an aha moment as "yes", I see here and realize the opportunity I am presented with...and I welcome myself into and as the movement of receiving. I realize and understand the "movement of receiving". I see and realize and know that I cannot receive what is best for myself if I do not commit myself to moving myself into the point I wish to receive.

When and as I see myself faced with a point/gift I am resistant/apprehensive about receiving/getting...I embrace the fortune that I am bestowed...I commit myself to receiving the golden platter of support that is here for me...I realize and understand that sometimes it is quite a labor-full process in digging up the buried treasure...I see, realize and understand myself process journey to life as a digging and uncovering of buried treasure...as like it's all sorts of new discoveries of myself that I had previously mistakenly misplaced/buried/hidden.

I commit myself to the self-revealing process of my physical abilities/applications.