Day 632 Seeing, the "I am Patience" within a Moment of "Impatience"

It's interestingly cool to see the, "I am" within and as the word "Impatience". What's so interestingly cool about this is that within seeing a Word for what it is...You can clearly See what it is not. The more clear the understanding of what something is...the more clear the understanding of what it is not. So, this illustrates how one can realize and understand "patience" by and through the examination/investigation of one's moments of "Impatience."


I also find it interesting to see how "justified" Impatience can be...as like a point of arguing for one's own self-inflicted limitation/stress/strain/suppression. An easy example that comes to mind is: telling someone to just calm down....and they respond/react by saying, "No, I will not calm down...blah blah blah blah blah...it's my right and you have no right to tell me what to do...blah blah blah blah blah...it's my birthday and I can cry if I want to....You would to if it happened to you." I'm sure everyone knows the justifying attitude I am referring to here.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the "I am Patience" within examining and understanding my momentary reactions as Impatience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity that is possible in strengthening my Character of of Self-Expression within investigating the nature of and as my word relationships...as like how I am behaving within and as a particular action and or re-action.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the insight that I am able to garner from taking the time to investigate my behavior from moment to moment as like the nature of my thoughts/feelings/emotions that pop up within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the fear that is existent within "impatience" as like either a positive or negative energy push/pull relationship...where I have felt pushed/pulled towards doing something as like a there is an impatience/rushing desire where this energy experience generates this feeling of "I just can't wait...I need to do it...have to do it now...I just can't wait...If I don't do it now, I might miss out on being able to do it later"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having an a polarized energetically charged relationship within and as the word "Impatience".

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I have in fact acted out impatience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding Impatience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for rushing in my mind Impatiently.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the "I am Patience" within and as the playout reactionary experience of and as "Impatience".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the energetic playout of Impatience within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for garnering motivation and inspiration from reactionary moments of Impatience within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to move myself unconditionally within and as the self-expression, "I am Patience".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising my premier performance within and as the Justification of Impatience being my starting point motivation and inspiration for movement.

When and as I see myself Justifying moments of Impatience within myself, I stop and breathe, i see/realize and understand the self-deception within and as the justification of impatience. I commit myself to the self-expression 'I am patience'. I direct myself as I am patience in moments where there is an urge/impulse...push/pull energy to react in and as "Impatience". I see/realize and understand My Premier Performance here as Effective Efficient Self-Movement/Self-Expression exists within and as the Understanding of and as "Patience".

I commit myself to taking the time to be patient with Impatience.

I commit myself to stop resisting I am Patience within Impatience.

I commit myself to practically living I am Patience as a point of support and assistance.

I commit myself to sharing the joy that is possible within and as Self-Patience.

When and as I see myself rushing within my mind, I stop and breathe, I slow way down as I see/realize/understand my premier performance within and as my self-movement here is dependent upon my ability to self-express my understanding of Patience. I see/realize/understand the best performances are self-directed as a point of patience in Motion.

I commit myself to my best performances.

I commit myself to practically living the insight of Patience in Motion.

I commit myself to self-directed movement from and as the starting point of Patience.

Day 473 Emotional Reflections

Sometimes I've taking peoples emotions personally, like mimicking their behaviour, within projecting blame back to them...as like being emotionally about them being emotional.  This behaviour is really ridiculously absurd.  This behaviour is hypnotic trance like.  Where I was not seeing and realising myself at all because of the accepted and allowed blame...and focusing upon the other as separate from me...and being/getting upset about what I see....and from within that, feeling the need, to become self-righteous and project my self-righteousness as a believed way for the other to see and hear what the fuck is going on.  Within these particular instances, I see and realise how I have become my own mental patient as a result of lacking the patience to breathe and not take offense and be on the defense of what and how I see.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for lacking patience within myself with regards to emotional outbursts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being triggered by emotional outbursts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting upset/angry/frustrated when and as I see another admitting frustration, suppression, and lack of self worth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having hidden and suppressed my self worth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being rough on myself within accepted and allowed emotions/feelings. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have been rough on others around me as the resulting consequence of accepting and allowing myself to be rough on myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for provoking unnecessary roughness within myself and others as form of release so I can feel better temporarily.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having been blind to my lameness within acceptances and allowances as a result of having suppressed any awareness of myself within self-righteousness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extensiveness of self-righteousness as a manifested self-suppression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being brutal to others with my words in an attempt to perpetuate chaotic explosive emotional releases.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making a point about another within blame and deflecting self-responsibility and self-accountability away from myself by discrediting myself value and respect as the starting point of equality and oneness.

I realise and understand any energy within my voice tonality as expression is an indicator of emotion/feeling accepted and allowed self-suppression...and I realise and understand that by listening to myself, i can hear what I am accepting and allowing, and therefore I give myself the ability to stop accepting and allowing conflicted/energy within myself as it becomes clear to me what is conflict within my words/voice/tonality...and what is self-expression as sounding equality and oneness together here within words/voice/tonality.

I realise I am garnering tremendous support from others within my environment, as I am being assisted and supported to see and realise every single point of conflict within myself.

I realise and understand that the assistance and support of others is a necessary ingredient within the process of self-realisation.

I realise and understand it's been necessary for all my buttons to be pushed so to speak...so every reaction comes out of me...and therefore I can walk the process of self-forgiveness and self-correction as the point of self-prevention as the necessary means of insuring a better future.

I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of belittling someone within accepted and allowed self-righteous authority.

I realise and understand the abuse of self-righteous authority, within feeling the need to be brutal.

I commit myself to emotional self reflection within moments I see and hear someone experiencing emotional reactions, because I see and realise how I am able to give assistance and support when I allow myself the patience to look and see what is actually going on...and I realise it takes time to look and see what is going on, as this is the patience required in assessing a situation without becoming instantaneously possessed by the situation as the consequence of not accepting and allowing myself to be patient within and as the point of self-reflection of what is here.

I commit myself to compassion and patience within seeing emotion/feeling reactions/suppression.

I commit myself to stop taking what I see and realise personally.

I commit myself to utilize what I see and hear as a point of self-reflection.

I commit myself to harmonizing a giving and receiving relationship of assistance and support.

I commit myself to taking the time to give and receive my own assistance and support as a point of self nourishment.

When and as I see myself about to become self-righteous within my words/voice/tone, I stop and breathe, I smile and I realise I directed myself out of self-abusive suppression.

When and as I see resistance within and another, I stop and breathe, I direct myself to be gentle as a gentleman as I realise and understand the strong ability to assist and support another as myself when I enable myself to respond as a gentleman.

I realise and understand the self-support and assistance within being and becoming a gentleman at all times.

I realise and understand I become more effective in caring for myself and others within being gentle with myself and others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that I should be rough with myself and others...and within this, believing that roughness is the way to toughness/strength of character.

I commit myself to becoming a gentleman.

I commit myself to realising and understanding the strength in character within being a gentleman.

I commit myself to stopping unnecessary roughness within communication.