Day 433 Self Will

My writing here today is a point of strengthening my self willed determination to not accept and allow myself to give up on myself in moments when I experience an energetic reaction within myself as like "I don't feeling like doing that right now...specifically looking to avoid directing a point into completion"


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding that it is in fact quite easy to move myself through self imposed points of limitation as resistance to doing particular tasks, because it is a choice to not do something...just as it is a choice to do something...and I realise and understand the implications of allowing myself to be stuck within the energetic reaction experience of I don't feel like it....I realise and understand this is not valid...this is not in my best interests in any way whatsoever...and it is not in alignment with the best interests of all Life....and therefore I see and realise the point of aligning myself as what's best for all Life is best for me...and that self interest is therefore the point of negating any responsibility and consideration for myself as all Life here as Oneness and Equality.


When and as I see myself thinking I don't feel like doing that right now... I stop and breathe and I direct myself to move through myself inflicted resistance...as I see the gift I give to myself in becoming stronger by pushing through resistances...and I realise and understand that pushing through resistances is in fact easy because it's a choice...and it's the best choice...I mean really it's just living the principle of what's best for all Life is best for me...I also realise and understand that as I give myself the best treatment and support I am giving all life the best treatment and support because I am embodying the principle of treating myself how I would like to be treated...giving and receiving.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the blatant disregard for myself as all Life within operating from the starting point of a feeling/emotion as like I don't feel like it, I'm not going to move myself within my physicality because I'm possessed within an energy buzz.  I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of letting myself be guided by energetic experiences within myself as various forms of reactions.


When and as I see myself moving into justification as like justified reasoning to continue within a pattern of "I don't feel like it", I stop and breathe and I realise and understand my self willed movement into application as like till here no further do I accept and allow myself to mind fuck myself out of doing what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to taking self responsibility for myself in moving beyond the limitations of existing within the energies of "I don't feel like it"

I commit myself to the process of Life purification as Oneness and Equality as the starting point of Creation Here.

Day 432 Cheap

Cheap: low in price, worth more than it costs.


I have been noticing lately how much I've been using the word cheap...within looking for things...like wanting to make sure I get whatever I'm looking to buy for cheap...

Cheap this, cheap that...everything looking for on the cheap...like cheap deals...wanting to stretch the value of my money as far as possible.

Is there consequences of everything being cheap?

Yes.


Life being disregarded is the consequence of everything being cheap.

Isn't it kind of bizarre that products can be sold for less than they actually cost?


I've been looking at my attitude about money and buying things and it's been quite ridiculous.

I see how I've bought in on the idea and attitudes of cheap living...and I'm saying what the fuck? As I see and realise how this attitude and perception about being "cheap" is totally fucked.

I see many problems with cheap goods and services:

This is a disgrace to all Life.

This attitude and perception perpetuates abuse creating like a win/loss scenario...where the abuser is the winner and the abused is the loser...which is totally fucked because a win/loss scenario is actually like a lose/lose scenario because the abuser is suffering from a form of mental retardation and is in fact just operating from a starting point of fear of loss...as like not wanting to be abused, so better make sure to be real nasty by not considering the total fuckedness of the situation...and actually realising that a better way of existing is possible...that a win/win situation is the only true situation as what's best for everyone because everyone wins...making the win legitimate and of integrity and high quality...as like yes, my life has value, as all life has value...because life is valuable and important.

The economy does not function very effectively with cheap goods and services because cheap goods and services means cheap labor...and if the reward for the work being done is cheap...that means major instability for Life...like everything suffers as a result of the cheap attitude/perception...because change than becomes apparently too expensive...like were witnessing a total fuck up within our economic structure and monetary systems...and the price were paying is high...in that we are destroying Earth as Our shared Ecosystem Life...and well I guess you could say it didn't cost us very much destroy...it was actually quite cheap to live the way humanity has lived because Life has never been really been regarded within humanity...always under valued...and cheap

What the fuck?

Justifying that we can't have an economic system that is rich and expensive is just being cheap...and well...being cheap is to accept ourselves as less than Life

Supporting things being cheap is a crime against all Life.

Don't be Cheap!


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Day 431 Stupid Corrections

Facing a point of stupid within humbleness and just getting the correction done is the key....because what purpose is their to dwell or make some big song and dance about the point of stupidity? None...doing that is just stupid...perpetuating own stupidity with continued stupidity...


So, Continuing from my last blog, Day 430 Stupid Fear Manipulation, I'm gifting myself with self forgiveness with regards to the mind fucked nightmarish situation I created for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking it to be clever to use fear a way of getting what I want...as like deliberately inducing myself into a point of fear as a result of believing this to be a brilliant way to get what I want to happen...and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have in fact harmed myself by deliberately perpetuating conflict friction within my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding or taking the time to see if what I am participating within as acceptances and allowances is what's best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising myself as what's best for all Life within making decisions from the starting point of feeling and emotions and thoughts, not realising and understanding that my thoughts/feelings/emotions reveal to me the points of energetic friction within myself that I require to sort out in a way that is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a mind fuck about being regarded as a public figure, famous person.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared expressing myself to others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to live self expression as what's best for all  Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be a famous stand up comedian.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing attention as a result of being outspoken within and as my self expression as what's best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understand the absurd ridiculousness of thinking that inducing fear upon myself is like a short cut solution.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing myself as all Life within inducing fear within my acceptances and allowances. I realise and understand that each word that exists within me creates and forms the impression and expression of who and how I am and therefore it is myself responsibility to make sure my vocabulary as all words is purified as what is always best for Life.  I realise and understand that each and every word I speak carries weight and value as Life equality and oneness...and I realise and understand that any word I speak and accept and allow within myself that is in conflict with Life is a form of brutal abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding to the extent in which each word acts as the building blocks creating Life as sound physicality Here.

I commit myself to take my time within communicating words as I realise myself responsibility within and as the expression of Living words.

I commit myself to taking self responsibility for all words.

I commit myself to Living words as the building blocks of Life as that which is always best for all Life from and as the starting point of creation/oneness and equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the unification of man as living words.

I commit myself to the unification of man as living words.


When and as I see myself wavering within an acceptances and allowance that is less than what is best for all Life, I stop and breathe and I direct myself in returning to a starting point of that which is best for all Life.

When and as I see myself thinking that I should create fear within myself as a way of manifesting a point within myself, I stop and breathe and I realise and understand the self abuse within deliberately inducing conflict within myself.  I realise inducing and perpetuating conflict within myself is a crime against all life as equality and oneness,

When and as I see myself resisting to walk the self correction on a point of stupidity within myself, I stop and breathe and I correct the point of stupidity within myself...and within this I take a brief moment, to have a smile and or chuckle, or grimace as like an aha moment of seeing and realising my own ridiculousness. I take self responsibility for my accepted and allowed ridiculousness.

I commit myself to taking self responsibility for my accepted and allowed ridiculousness.


blog to be continued

Day 430 Stupid Fear Manipulation

"What You Resist Will Persist"

I've come to understand the point of what you resist will persist with regards to fear within yourself...like holding onto particular feelings/emotions will compound within yourself until self responsibility is taken by facing yourself within the point of the acceptances and allowances and releasing/removing the polarity energy charges...and all polarity energy charges are in fact forms of fear.

Let me take a moment here to share a little story about myself:

I'm interested in a world that is best for all Life. I see the Earth as Our Life Playground and Home. Some time ago, I was looking at how I could effectively participate with assisting and supporting the manifestation of Heaven as Earth...Like how can I contribute to Life Greatness...What role can I play in assisting and supporting the New World Order, Where all Life is regarded with the highest value.

I began looking at the point of comedy as practical platform avenue to plant a lots of seeds of support within lots of people as the words I speak...as like spreading the message of awesomeness, which is Oneness and Equality Here as What's Best for All Life.

I figured I can take on this role because I don't see anyone taking on this role, and I see it as a fun role I am capable and able of taking on as a personal responsibility.

I see the point of stand up comedy assisting and supporting with the necessary political process that is required in order to facilitate world changes that are best for All Life.

I see, realise and understand that comedy is a great way to educate people...because real funny, is a cross reference confirmation of understanding, as an aha...ahahahhahaha moment because, You and I get it...We Got the joke, the point that is being relayed as a sharing realisation...a connection is made...and what's interesting within comedy...is that even when someone doesn't get the message being relayed...the seed is planted within the being...and eventually the seed/point will sprout.

It's kind of ironic that I've come to see comedy as a way to plant seed of support within others as a practical way to assist and support the facilitation of Heaven on Earth, because my primary source of income for the past 9 years has been tree planting...So I am very familiar with planting.

A little more than 4 years ago I got the idea of making a tree planting reality tv show...and 4 seasons ago I took a personal camcorder with me and documented a lot of footage...and within this time...I was just starting to consider myself as a stand up comedian...so talking and joking with everyone I worked with and doing interviews and taking all sorts of video footage was a cool experience and process...unfortunately I lost most of the footage I had accumulated that year...I had the camcorder out every day...and ya I had so much interaction with everyone I worked with there was a lot of good footage.

The next season I went tree planting, I met a dude who had the same idea as me with regards to creating a tree planting reality show...and this dude had put some more planning/brainstorming into it than I had previously done...and he had gotten himself a really decent camera to accumulate footage with. Also this dude understood that he was going to have to create a pilot...as like that which he could present and pitch to television companies/broadcasters...

A few days ago, I was informed that a television broadcaster has agreed to do the show...and now the fine details of the contract are being out and I should expect to receive a shit ton of paper work soon...as release papers...and contract terms of production.

The show is going to focus on a specific amount of people as the main characters/focus of the show...I've been selected as one of the people/characters to be profiled.

This is a great opportunity to plant lots of seeds of support and accelerate myself further into stand up comedy .

Now here's where I expose a point of stupidity:

Some time ago I figured it would be clever of me to make believe myself to fear being a famous stand up comedian...because I figured if I feared this...I would manifest what I feared..as like the basic principle of what you resist will persist...

This is not a recommended suggestion to create a fear about a point that you want to happen...because what has happened is that I created a huge mind fuck...as like, fears about doing the tv show...and fears about doing stand up comedy...so it's like...ridiculously absurd...and I realise and understand the ridiculous absurdity of this all...and so fortunately I am able to stop this mind fuck.

So now...I have to walk through all this bullshit fear I created within myself about something that I actually wanted to do....I mean how stupid is that...that I created fear within myself about something that I like and I think is cool...I mean talk about stupid...


To be continued...

Day 429 Why You are so Stupid?

This is a continuation to my previous blog entitled, Stupid.

After having written my blog I went through a process of self induced stupid experiences. I had some reactions come up within me as various forms of self-judgment with regards to writing the blog "Stupid".  I was worried and concerned about what others might think of me taking on the topic of stupidity...and also I feared that I was exposing myself as stupid and that what I was doing is kind of stupid and that I'm way off course by bringing up the point of calling people stupid...like to make any sort of inference that it could be actually a nice gesture to call people stupid...is somewhere I shouldn't go.

I see that writing about stupid and my stupid education is a way of facing my own stupidity and breaking down the stupidity barriers as system patterned programming that is stupid.

The fact that I had some reactions about exposing and undressing the point of stupidity reveals to me that this is a point of resistance I am required to push through and transcend all self imposed stupidity.

What brought me to the starting point of writing about stupid was the question about stupid in fact being a practical teaching aid of support...like specifically using the word stupid to assist and support myself and others in seeing points of stupidity as like what the fuck!  What's interesting about doing something stupid is that when you're so immersed within a point of stupidity it's like you're in a trance and snapping out of a moment of stupidity can be difficult at times. I mean, I see that we humans have been educated to be stupid...as like stupid organic robots...functioning off of reactions...like a bunch of chickens with our heads cut off.

I also see the point and practical responsibility for each human to face and self correct our accepted and allowed stupidity. This is obviously quite a process because we've been designed and programmed to be pretty fucking stupid...and therefore realising who and what we are may being experienced in a plethora of stupid ways because the truth stings like a swift kick in the ass.

I see and realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of  self judgement...and I've been walking a process to stop all forms of self judgement within myself...and as I have explained at the beginning of this post, I was self judging myself about taking on the point of stupidity. What I'm doing is stopping reactions that occur within me and making self corrections about the reactions as the means to prevent myself from going into a stupidity vortex as like being stuck within the out flowed consequence of a reaction...as like losing myself for a moment within a reaction.

So the point came up within me...I realised and understood the stupidity as like absurd ridiculousness...as like a fear mind fuck...and I realised and understood the ridiculousness of stewing within the point. I've come to utilise moments of reaction as a point of cross reference within myself as like an aha moment...as here is a point that I can work with...as like something that hasn't been completely sorted out within myself.  I see and and realise and understand the practical support in utilizing a reaction as a point of resistance that I am required to push...as the means necessary to facilitate my strength training in integrity and accountability as a human being who is removing stupidity bit by bit.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing being regarded as stupid...I realise and understand that fear as a mental fear...is a stupid mind fuck and is totally ridiculous...and that by reacting further to the point of fearing to be regarded as stupid...which is a reaction in itself...as like choosing to compound stupidity/fear within myself. I realise and understand that I am not interested in compounding and perpetuating stupidity/fear within myself...and I realise and understand myself responsibility in facing every single point of stupidity/fear within myself...as I see and realise this to be the necessary process...as the way to actually take care of myself...and give as I like to receive...and expand my potential abilities to make the world as a whole free from stupidity.

When and as I see myself waiting to take action on a point of self correction...as like remedying a point of stupidity, I stop and breathe...I direct myself in letting go of the point of stupidity...I have a chuckle as I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of procrastinating on a point of stupidity...as like wow, I see and realise how crazy it is to in any capacity to be like..."oh there's a point that's totally not cool that's existing in me and I am capable and able to direct the point now in a way that's totally awesome...but nah i think I just going to be totally fucking stupid for a little bit long...there's comfort in stupidity...being smart is hard work...stupid is easy..." What the fuck.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to be stupid in moments as like thinking that stupid is a form of safety avoidance of work and responsibility...as like protecting me as ego...thinking that me as an ego is so smart...as like I am a superior being within my mind as ego...and I am winning the competition against other ego's because I am so stupidly smart.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to confront stupidity in all capacities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for ignoring and disregarding stupidity and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I was dismissing and ignoring the stupidity that exists within myself and that by ignoring and disregarding the stupidity I see in others...was like an indicator that I am accepting and allowing the same relationship within myself...which is not cool...which is stupid in fact.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how stupid it has been for me to fear my own stupidity..as like I see and realise and understand what a total mind fuck this is.

There's a really good point of fearing My own stupidity that I will begin within in my next blog as an example and illustration which further exposes the absurd ridiculousness of fear...and that creating particular fears is in fact stupid.

Cheers and stay tuned for an example of stupidity that I believed to be totally brilliant.......

Day 428 Stupid

STUPID

Adjective Lacking intelligence or common sense. Noun A stupid person (often used as a term of address): "you're not a coward, stupid!". Synonyms adjective.   foolish - dull - obtuse - dense - fatuous - idiotic noun.   fool - goof - tomfool - booby - dolt - imbecile

(source: google stupid definition) I'm looking at the point of stupid...well specifically how I was educated not to use the word stupid.  When I was young I was informed that it's not nice to call people stupid and that I should avoid calling people stupid. I'm questioning the rational in avoiding to call out stupidity. I mean, there is a serious stupid epidemic within humanity that seems to be related to the education around stupid...call it stupid education if you will. There's so many stupid situations existing on earth as a result of human relationships. Poverty is really really stupid. Poverty exists because humans are really really stupid. Stupid is a big topic of exploration, so I am going to focus on the point of my stupid education with regards to being told not to call people stupid.  I was informed and connected the word associations that stupid is  "not nice"and that because stupid is not nice...it is not nice to point out anyone's stupidity because anything that is not nice is negative/bad...and words that describe anything that is not good cause people to experience uncomfortably What's interesting about the "stupid" education about conversation etiquette is that having rules about how to speak to someone based from the starting point of trying to protect emotions and feelings is quite bizarre/insane...and dare I say stupid! With regards to the point of avoiding to call anyone stupid because they may be offended or experience discomfort is questionable behavior to me...because I see that rational as justification for the acceptance and allowance of stupid comfort-ability...like that it is ok for humans to be existing comfortably stupid... How can humanity stop being so stupid if were educated to avoid confronting stupidity? I mean human education is really stupid...you're born and your lead to believe that your parents/adults are smart...and then you become an adult and you realise you were misinformed and everyone is actually pretty stupid...and the hardest pill to swallow is the fact that You are just like everyone else....stupid. The only way for humanity to stop the stupid pandemic is to actually face our own stupidity and correct our behavior. This blog was an introduction into Stupidity Stayed tuned, more to follow

Day 427 Twisting and Turning Words

I noticed a pattern within myself today with regards to communicating with my siblings where I would be competing to communicate from the perspective of having a desire to speak and say things as a means of generating attention and within this, twisting and turning the words around...as like a form of arguing just for the sake of arguing.

I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of arguing just for the sake of arguing.

I didn't realise and understand how I had a tendency within and as a pattern of desire for attention as like a point of competition with my siblings to speak words from a point of winning...as like just kind of shit talking with each other...as the words carry values like a scoring system...and that I was speaking to my siblings in a way where I was focusing on scoring points so to speak...as like creating a form of energetic high within myself...as like a superiority competition game.

My participation within this behaviour patterned tendency was so automatic...it was quite bizarre to catch myself within the midst of talking shit...like rushing to spew words without awareness...as like being so concerned with speaking from the starting point of generating a buzz within myself.

As I look at my participation...I had a what the fuck moment...as I was astounded to see and realise my acceptances and allowances within communication with my siblings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a competition word play with my siblings as like not communicating from a point of oneness and equality...but as like being in a constant battle against each other where we choose to argue each other no matter what...as like the game is within finding points to disagree upon and trying to make the other sound stupid by being stupid.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to communicate from the starting point of creating an energetic high experience within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding my self righteousness within allowing myself to speak within and as a position of superiority and to within this create a friction energy charge within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being offensive within my communication with my siblings and others from the point of speaking words in polarity relations as like using words as weapons so to deliberately instigate reactionary responses where I am receiving energy as like points of winning by making my siblings react...as like getting high off the reactions I am generating within my siblings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to generate reactions within my siblings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created a patterned tendency to go back and forth with my siblings in and as a form of competitive communication where we are feeding each other words as energetic charges...and it's a battle to see who can be the king of the castle as like the ultimate winner/word zinger...as like the king of smack talk and shutdowns.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the differences within  playing with words within communication as a point of funny ridiculous sharing as an expression of who I am as what's best for Life and communicating from the point of reaction as like desiring to achieve an end result experience of getting high off the words I speak.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get excited within communicating from and as the starting point of polarity friction energy within myself as like allowing myself to be speaking from the starting point of getting the buzz I want...as like a drug addict scoring drugs.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting my best communication within and as desiring to get high within and while communicating.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making communication with my siblings to be a war of words disguised as cleverness intelligence that is veiled in separation and win/lose relations.

I realise and understand that the real fun and funny sharing of communication with my siblings comes when I am taking responsibility for my words and I am speaking the words as I am here...as like accountability for me as living words...and within this...there is no end game desire of scoring a high energy reaction...it's just about sharing the words I am as a point of funny/silly ridiculousness as the expression I am...as a giving I like to receive...as a treating others how I like to be treated...and within this....I see and realise the real funny as myself sharing moments of silly ridiculousness where I am standing one and equal with and as the silly/funny ridiculousness....as I realise and understand that real funny cannot exist if there is separation within the words...as that then becomes a form of abusive communication as like a form of attack...as like a putdown/shutdown stemming from friction within myself as like a not realising and understanding myself here in the moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for arguing within and as a starting point of reaction.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding that I lose sight of the funny within arguing from a starting point of reaction as I realise and understand reactions to be a point of personal acceptance and allowance as a reflection of the nature of relationship with myself...and therefore to be arguing from the starting point of reaction is to be existing within and as self inflicted conflict....which is really quite ridiculous if you consider the fact that You are choosing to fight with yourself...I mean how absurd is it to deliberately battle yourself...as like thinking that it is even possible to really beat yourself...and conquer yourself...into a position of ultimate winning status that only comes as a result of giving yourself as serious ass kicking...I mean, like what the fuck.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the extent to which conflict has existed within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding that arguing from and as a starting point of reaction is a choosing to fight myself...as like a justifying of separation within myself.

I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of choosing to argue a a point of reaction based responsiveness.

I realise and understand that kicking my own ass can be avoiding by choosing to spot arguing as self defensive ingrained reaction.

I realise and understand that I do not require to defend myself from myself...because I realise and understand that I am not attacking myself....and within this I realise and understand the point of taking things personally as a point/clash of victimization within the realms of superiority/inferiority.

I realise and understand the back and forth of the energy dance of separation...as like a trying to balance out inequality...where separate points are competing for hierarchical status.


I realise and understand arguing is like a really bad joke that's really disappointing and unfortunate when neither party involved in an argument see's that they are a Joke.

I realise and understand arguing as a point of ridiculous absurdity that is really funny.

I realise and understand that wanting to argue with someone is like not getting that You are a Joke.

I realise and understand that it is fun and funny to Joke when You  and the other person involved realise and understand Yourselves as Jokers sharing and making jokes as a point of fun and funny within self-expression.

When and as I see myself wanting to argue from the starting point of having a reaction to words I hear, I stop and breathe and I realise and understand there is a point of self reflection as gift that is being provided to me as insight within the words I reacted to...as this is the point of self realisation where I am faced with the nature of my acceptances and allowances...I seize the opportunity and take the gift that is being provided to me as insightful self-realisation as I realise and understand the words that triggered me are a point of support for me seeing and realising how I require to re-align the programming of the words to equality and oneness as I realise and understand the limitation as reaction/argument within accepting and allowing words to exist in polarity friction relations as opposite charges.

I commit myself to seeing the funny within arguments as absurd ridiculousness.

I commit myself to exposing ridiculously absurd acceptances and allowances.

I commit myself to seeing the funny in moments of reaction as like the point of self correction as the funny aha moment as I get and got the point here...as realisation and understanding.


Oh yeah, I almost forgot: Arguing is like a couple of dictators going at it...which means, "penis potato fuckers" WTF?