Day 634 Creative Word "Adjustment"

Ok, I feel tight and cramped…like my muscles are strained maybe a bit from the walking I did but I think more so it has to do with the consecutive days in which I have been hunched in front of the computer…like no real accountability for the pose as the post that I was expressing…it’s like I just kind of was in a slumped and slouched position because I believed that I had to…that I didn’t want to work at expressing myself in those particular moments at the computer…it’s like I justified that I shouldn’t have to express myself while sitting down…it’s like my whole relationship with sitting down is out of wack…like somehow…I’ve disregarded my back and shoulders…and the core area of my body…my stomach and ab muscles….like really neglecting my ass muscles too…like really not caring to utilize my self-strength and stamina…beating myself up within the belief…as like avoiding the effort of work that it would take to hold myself up within my seat…and I’ve looked at the point of posture before and realized the significance of posture being the pose and post you are…as a poster of and as yourself expression position in how you are aligned within the physical body…what I neglected to see was the justification as to why I really resist supporting myself within my sitting…well I see here how I’ve justified it within believing like ok well I am sitting at the table using my computer and the couch is positioned this way and my laptop is here so I really have no other choice but to bend over…and sulk…and it’s; ridiculous…that I have subscribed to such a belief and idea…justification…because I am capable of Adjustment…Adjusting my positioning and the things in my environment to make sure that when and as I am working with things in my environment I do not necessarily strain myself as a result of being resistant to Adjusting my stance and balance positioning…like it is actually a point of learning to freestyle my self-expression in and as the point of Adaptation…meaning, seeing how I can live myself here in and as the self-expression of Premier Performance….as yes, if I neglect giving myself Premier Positioning within and as the way that I seat myself from moment to moment…like what the fuck…obviously I see the point here where I actually have to give a fucking concern about myself here and my physicality and direct myself to stop half assing my seating…I mean, I am responsible for where and how I sit in every moment here...because how I sit…relates to and as my ability to eat…as I often eat in my seat…and to further the point I am getting at…is my home is where I am at…and I am at home when I sit...and rest…I am, at home always wherever I am …I am here…so the question and answer is why would I allow myself to fuck with my personal living in home comfort deliberately…I mean, really...Is it too much effort for me to really make sure…and take the time and effort to give myself the comfort of myself movement…as the moves and positioning that really support me living here…I mean yes this is it…this is the point here… is that for me to live here in a practical physical way…I got to be self-responsibility as like a point of and as self-managing my physical body here…like me as the driver of my body here…gots to make the effort to not over work particular parts of my body...and take the time to utilize and exercise my strength in physical body positioning…by playing within and as my creative self-expression here,…I mean within and as the self-realization here…it’s always play time ..regardless of what work and self-responsibilities are required…because it’s who I am within and as how I move myself and how I station myself in sitting to do a particular task…so Yes, I see that it’s all me in being here and yes there is point of and as meticulous detail that describes me as an artistic expression. As like yes how I sit here up right at my computer for the first time in some time…and I allow myself to flow as a point of strength building in my character as I reflect on and as the words I write…to make my application in self-discipline more tight….removing the looseness in and as my character flaws/weakness…by exposing myself to myself as all is always exposed…and slowing down to notice myself here and see…hey this is what’s been going on in me…I see realize and understand how to self-correct my misalignments…I’ve through and as my writing myself here…reasoned and rationalized in a self-supportive way as to how I have been behaving and what I have to say about my behaviour…and see here how I can add refinement to my behaviour as like the living definition of my words as the creativity in and as my self-expression…as me music here…in my play working together as I use this method of mediumship…meaning writing as a structured tool of support to look at me as what exists within me as my structured word relationship as the self-reflection of what the fuck is going on…and so yo, this has been a cool point of adjustment…ADD Just Meant…Adjustment.,….A just meant…meaning a nobleness to the meaning in which I speak/live…move…as the self-governing body maintenance…as I see realize and understand myself here as a word body mechanic…the basic mechanics is like basic mathematics…and the intricacies are here...as yes there are many variables and relationships at play…but the funny thing is, is that I am in the process of simplification…so that anything that seems overtly difficult and strenuous as like a real strain on my physical beingness…is because I am not effectively and correctively aligned within and as the point of simplicity as my epitome Equality and Oneness starting point of creation here…as the core of my beingness stems from and as the roots of and as Physical Equality and Oneness...that is and as my bark as my voice embodiment of me here as the living words….ok yo…so I just added in this little bit after the first initial looking investigation at the word Adjustment...see this is what is so cool in playing with words…is the we have aha I see…I going to flow and go and just see what I do as I do what I do as I trust myself to play and explore for real as yes I say oh galore…I really do enjoy the galore of knowing there is so much more…meaning this continuous on going opportunity of me to self-direct the creative playing of and as myself-expression physical movement from moment to moment…as like yo the style and grace to a self-dynamic directive flow…in and as I decide how to decision my precious precision as the surgeon doctoring the practical living words…like the recipes and the remedy’s as the spelling so it is sewed together so we remember our roots so we can pull out the weeds so we're not burning away the buds and the stems as thinking there is some divine higher spiritual power up in the clouds up in smoke as like just needing a toke as the way to get to nirvana as like some sort of dive intervention...thinking I got gods herbs…not realizing I’ve been lying as like even facing the spelling of the lie is tricky because it’s difficult to comprehend in the beginning because in a way it facing your death and your end…and so you can begin to re-plant the tree that you are…as like re-nourish the essence of and as our true beginning and our core structure foundation as our natural learning ability comes through as ya it’s an effortless flow when and as we develop the basic core vocabulary to have the bricks in place to be a master builder demonstrating the harmonical rhythmics of and as our words being the building blocks that shape the fabric of and as our fabrications here…and its interesting because I’ve only really just begun to explore the depth of my character in and as my physical body Adjustment...as like stepping out of mind indebt servitude to an equal and one play field role play...where I am the synthesizer as mc mc master music maker as I am alive with organs...and no I don’t need no transplants…because I planted the seeds within me as the words oh so proper this time because I put the o’s in and as my orgasmic expression as I blast from moment to moment as I spray with and as what I say because this word play comes out the mouth Like a faucet I am a fountain facet of expression living the who I am in and as the moment to moment application that yo yo Osho exemplified in and as his portal turn sharing moment self-expression. The word Adjustment here is what I got myself started with here,…because I could see my body posture positioning needed Adjustment…as yes the consequence of all my slouching behaviour…and go figure I was getting tired of slouching all the time…it’s like trying to hold yourself up without really holding yourself up…I mean its quite ridiculous when you think about it…because I need to be up and in position to move myself in action as the living actionable words I write…and so by barely holding myself upright in position by neglecting the stability of my core as the focal point of my stability…how am I able to really flow in and as my ability to play…I mean Premier Performance is really lacking when the core support structure is virtually non-existent as a main consideration in the games I play in being here as the expression I make in participation within and as my self-response-abilities.

Day 504 "You're a Mouth Breather"

So, I was at the dentist yesterday and the point came up with the dentist where she said to me, "You're a mouth breather"....I then apologized to her, saying oh sorry, ....and she was like why are you apologizing...and I figured I must of been really breathing in her face with my mouth. She then went on to explain how my gums were a little bit inflamed, which she said often result from being a mouth breather...specifically happening as a result of sleeping and breathing though your mouth...and the consequence of this being that your mouth/gums get kinda dried out....like they don't stay as moist as if the mouth was closed and the breathing was done through the nose. She also said that people who breath through the mouth often feel that there not getting enough air if they are breathing through the mouth...like there nasal passage air way isn't
 big enough. I said to her, So i should work on breathing through my nose...and she was kinda of like well no you cant really just do that...I was like I might as well just make the switch...and she was kind of hesitant/resistant in thinking that that this is not possible for me to do. I asked her If I should just go and get hypnotized so that I am breathe through my nose the majority of the time as opposed to my mouth.  She suggested I practice deep breathing within yoga or something like that.

It's interesting that when I give attention to my breathing, I generally direct my breath inward through my nose.

I've been playing with the point of breathing for about a day with regards to keeping my mouth completely closed a lot more. It's been a cool point of support for me. I'm going to continue playing with this point, I am experiencing like I have greater mouth awareness and breathing awareness just by making the effort to keep my mouth closed.

Some self-forgiveness with regards to this point:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself fro thinking that it is not possible for me to change the nature of the way I breathe.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing once a mouth breather always a mouth breather.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for considering the possibility that it would be just too difficult for me to do the majority of my breathing through my nose.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for considering to not challenge myself within the point of keeping my mouth closed more and breathing through my nose.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for worrying about my gums.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself for having just kept my mouth open so much.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being upset that I have conditioned myself to keep my mouth open most of the time as like believing that I need to breathe through my mouth and that my breathing through my nose is just not sufficient enough.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to the point of breathing here as like what the fuck,,why wasn't I informed about the consequences of breathing predominantly through my mouth when I was very little.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking and looking to project blame upon my parents as like the way I breathe being their fault because they did not educate me in breathing through my nose.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting within blame as like a way of deflecting self-responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that the way I breathe is just the way I am and that there's nothing I can really do about the way I breathe.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the opportunity for self expression within and as the way I direct my breathing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being so unaware of the extent of how I breathe.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing health side effects as a result of ineffective breathing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing msyelf for thinking that I don't have to really give attention to the way I breathe, that my body just does it naturally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to be here within and as awareness of my every breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that it is just too difficult fofr me to be totally aware of my breathing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having separated my awareness from my breathing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking breathing for granted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my ability to become the director of my breathing here in every moment.

I commit myself to studying the point of breathing with my mouth closed.

I commit myself to test out the point of breathing through my nose.

I commit myself to breath awareness.

I commit myself to directing my breathing.

I commit myself to learning to be here as breath awareness in every moment.

I commit myself to express myself through breathing.

I commit myself to birth self expression through and as the direction of my breathing.

I commit myself to realizing and understanding that breathing is the starting point for everything that I do within my physical body here.

I commit myself to playing with my breathing.

I commit myself to becoming a master breather.

I commit myself to becoming a professional breather. lol.

I commit myself to making a point of keeping my mouth closed more often.

I commit myself to investigating myself through breathing.

When and as I see that I just have my mouth open and I didn't direct myself to open my mouth, I close my mouth and breathe through my nose.

When and as I think to myself that I'm not interested in making a commitment to investigate keeping my mouth closed when I am not speaking and breathe through my nose, I stop and breathe through my nose and I close my mouth.

Day 487 Time for Fitness Exercises?

How much time to I need to exercise? I noticed an interesting thing yesterday, I don't really need any extra time to exercise.  What I mean by this is that the time to exercise already exists everyday, regardless of the schedule.  What I mean, is that it is just a matter of incorporating exercise moves into routine/schedule.  Like for example, I have a dog that I am responsible for taking out for a few walks a day...and while I'm outside with her the opportunity exists for me to do some exercises....like there is a huge range of physical movements that I can express myself within and further my strength and understanding of my physicality by simply playing with physical body movement expressions. For example, the dog is stopped to smell a bunch of things, and so I do a bunch of squats on the spot.  The point i'm getting at is that I can freestyle fitness exercises throughout the day without having to set a side a big block of time for fitness exercises.

So, I'm just beginning to really play with this point of "freestyle fitness exercises".  I'm seeing it as a cool point of in the moment self expression physical body support.  I mean, the Earth is like one big giant playground, I see and realize the potential to play with physical body movements exists everywhere.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having been resistant to "freestyle fitness exercise" where I can play with my physical movements everywhere I am.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being judgmental about doing stretches in a public place.  I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of restraining myself from stretching when I am standing around in a public place.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be stiff and rigid.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be really flexible in all public situations.

I forgive  myself for accepting and allowing myself for having ideas as forms of judgement about how I am suppose to move within public interactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to use little bursts of physical exercises like push-ups, planks, squats, stretches after sitting or laying down for a little while.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that there's no point in doing physical exercises, unless I am going to do them for a very long time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing and disregarding the fact that every thing counts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for for having justified not counting things I regard as not very big.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not taking the time to insure that I am playing throughout my day within and as the various range of physical movements I participate within throughout the day.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding and neglecting opportunities and my abilities to physically move/express myself throughout the day.  I realize and understand that all physical movement starts with breathing. I realize and understand that it is through breathing that I am able to advance specific physical body movement expressions.  I realize I have neglected so many moments of physical expression here within breath.

I commit myself to physical expression within breath.

I commit myself to utilize the time and opportunity that exists each day/night to incorporate fitness exercises into my range of physical body self-expressions.

I commit myself to "freestyle fitness exercises"

I commit myself to sharing my process of discovery/self-expansion.