Friday, 12 February 2016
Day 767 - Maleficient
I first recall seeing this word when the movie came out with the title "Maleficent". I was kind of intrigued by this word because I was not familiar with it...at the time, I did a quick look of the word and found it to be synonymous with evil and wicked. I stopped consciously investigating the word at that point...However, when I would see this word in the poster for the movie, there was a sort of curiosity about it. Words we do not really know are so much so a mystery. I did not know if i knew how to in fact pronounce 'maleficent' correctly. I was kind of reading it like 'male-ficent'..or 'male-ficient'...this didn't quite sound right to me...but I believed myself to not care anymore about it, and it would be just a word I would kind of disregard, and not really know all that well, while kind of justifying that I know enough about it because I connected it to 'evil and wicked'.
"causing or capable of producing evil or mischief; harmful or baleful. malefic, adjective. maleficence, noun. C17: from Latin maleficent-, from maleficus wicked, prone to evil, from malum evil."
Maleficent came up in discussion earlier today while sorting out perceptions of ego that I have been sorting out. In my mind, so much so, I have regarded myself as, 'Magnificent'. Which, ironically is so much so Maleficent, from the perspective of playing the polarity flip flop in perceptions and deliberately choosing to pick the 'positive' associations to hold in mind as Being 'It' as the form and information that creates my character personality.
Ironically, what is missed within seeking out and defining oneself within the positive light, even with the best of intentions...is the split decision that results as outflow consequence of the accepted and allowed word relationships. Let me further explain this: See, if you deliberate take a word and you superimpose it onto yourself for all time, as like this is my form here, this is who I am...You are influencing your form here with the information you are using....which is an act of self-manipulation in so many ways as a result of not really understanding oneself here and how to in fact be capable of expressing words without limitation from moment to moment. See, so longs as there are these formed impressions/definitions about oneself here as the character you are here...as the who you are completely defined....you are predictably trapped withing your own self-created mind construct. A self-imprisonment if you will.
Why is this seemingly bad when it sounds like such a good idea to be specific with the words to define yourself as? Well, it's bad from the perspective, that it re-enforces the programming of oneself being an automatic robot...predictable programming...and then just kind of playing out the various consequences of such a construction, because over time, the programming becomes more and more rooted in as what was accepted and allowed....it's so much more substantiated and self validated as what it means to be here.....All the While, Ironically, the ability to actually Express oneself in any given moment as any particular Word, Showcasing a complete range of flexibility in one's creative capacity to Act and Express what it means to live Responsibility.
See, if i look back into my earlier days, I figured I might as well self-define myself as the Best in the World. My initial starting point perspective was definitely rooted in survival here, thinking that my greatness is in what I believe, as the rhyming of "what Believe, I can Achieve". Interestingly enough, I didn't really question why I would really need to create this sort of ongoing Belief within myself...to me, it just seemed like a sort of trick to give myself a competitive edge here, from the perspective that it's up to me to create the best for myself. Ironically, at that time I did not understand myself in relationship to others here, as like being various points of mirror reflection here...so, so much so I was well on my way in created dissonance within my perception of my shared reality here. Ironically, with good intentions.
To give some overall clarity in word relationships:
I've come to realize my capacity to express myself is within and as moments here. So much so, the moment is a result of and as myself here as a complimentary player and action directing my response ability.
The interesting thing here, and it is still a continuous process I am opening up, Is in taking the Care to see where I went into an Automatic Reaction in relationship to the relationships in my environment. What is fascinating about this, is that by investigating the automated behavior which is reaction based, is just a going through the motions without really being an active living participant here...not too mention the play out, isn't really a self-directive play at all....though, ironically, within one's own mind, the reactions as one's actions, make total sense....complete total sense, because that is the very logic/programming that was authorized, whether consciously or unconsciously...the behavior characterization was consented and scripted into one's very own self-personified his/her story.
Words are creative tools for ourselves to express ourselves here. Our ability to express ourselves effectively here is within our knowing how creative tools work in shaping our form as information from moment to moment. The irony of course is that holding onto some words all the time, with particular charges about the word...as like it being energetically negative;y charged or positively charged...creates this wedge within oneself where our ability to move as the expression of our Potential is compromised within and as our very own Spelling.
Let's together here, take a moment and explore the Self-responsible Play of Self-Forgiveness:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding what it really means to express myself as living words from moment to moment as the movement of myself here as a sound.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I created my own self-authorized hypnosis within and from the starting point of wanting to be the best in the world.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my thinking is so much so a reactionary play out of the making of sense of what I have accepted and allowed myself to believe.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the restrictions I have created upon my capacity to express myself and to see and hear what is here with clarity as a result of what I have self-authorized within myself as my thoughts/feelings/emotions.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to really go in depth into looking at my starting point for wanting to be positive.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that my status standing capacity to express myself from moment to moment is within and as my ability to self-correct my reactions from moment to moment and to create self-corrective solutions as an expression of me standing here from the starting point of Life - Oneness and Equality. I realize and understand that this is a process of creative play and work as there is much to be done in seeing the errors of our ways and to seeing how we can move beyond accepted and allowed restrictions/limitations. I realize that our a world is so much so a reflection of our words and our ability / inability to take accountability for our words.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for nor realizing and understanding how each and every word is a multi dimensional tool and expression here and our ability to naturally play with the potential that exists here, is a result of our willingness to stop polarizing our accepted and allowed self-definitions here. I realize our creative capacity is within our ability to remove the energetic charges from our words as this is so much so the key to a real world debt forgiveness, where we are no more enslaved to our own accepted and allowed bullshit.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to thoroughly question What it is I am accepting and allowing,..I realize that is complete bullshit. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for logically self-manipulating myself into believing myself to be separate from the bullshit that exists here in our world,...and for believing myself to be not responsible for all the bullshit here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how I have had a tendency to discount my capacity for change that is best for myself and others here.
I forgive myself for unwittingly accepting and allowing myself to be at war with the world. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the profound ironies within and as the military systems of control in this world and the amount of defenses/justifications and excuses I have created within myself as necessary as a result of how I am within and as my thoughts/emotions/feelings.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining myself as Magnificent in opposition of of Maleficent.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying myself to be better than others within my thinking from a point of egoistic superiority as a result of believing that I am just better and more committed to self-defining my own greatness. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the self-compromise within making believe character personalities for oneself as like the consequential outflow of self-definition from the perspective of focusing on building up a positive self regard rooted in a conflict.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that the more one polarizes oneself here in language, the more difficult it is to in fact have effective relationships here. I realize our real potential here in this world is within harmonizing the points of dissonance within our language/vocabulary.
I commit myself to sounding through the process of word and world accountability, by taking the time to investigate myself and world here and to in fact utilize all the different mirrors of self-reflection that exist here.
I commit myself to sharing my process or word and world relationships.
I commit myself to expressing my process of self-investigation here.
I commit myself to the moment by moment word movement and expression of myself here.
I commit myself to play with the development of my word and world potential here.
I commit myself to assist and support others to develop there creative capacity to play with what they say and to unlock the moment by moment potential of ourselves here as practical living word and world participants Here.
I commit myself to continue to share myself in writing.
I commit myself to stop flip flopping myself within the realms of positive and negative reactions as like absolute belief systems within myself.
When and as I see myself becoming stuck within a moment, as like having a resistance to moving myself and taking directive responsibility for my participation, I stop and breathe, I have a look at my momentary accepted and allowed bullshit...i allow myself to sit within my shit for a moment, and really see what i am doing/accepting and allowing for myself here....I also acknowledge and realize that what I am accepting and allowing for myself here, I am in fact accepting and allowing for all of existence...I face my shit...and realize that enough is enough...time to play..time to move...time for fun...time for self expression. I see the ridiculous absurdity in deliberately accepting and allowing self-suppression. I commit myself to the process of practical living here. I realize that this is a process unfoldment here, and that sometimes my movements may be lame and less than graceful. I realize there is so much fun potential here in allowing myself permission to express myself from moment to moment. I realize my capacity to live and express words from moment to moment, develops organically as I allow myself to work with my play here in all that I say and do.