DAY 814 - Popularity

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resistance towards Popularity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a resistance towards Popularity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that life is easier to simple not be Popular and rather just be quiet and not draw attention to myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a preference towards keeping quiet and being more internal and less external.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create a polarized relationship within myself where i prefer to be very internal and less external in terms of sharing myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a belief that it is safer from a perspective of survival to simply be less vocal of myself in existence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the interconnectedness within and as my internal and external realities and that my self-expression as who I really am here is beyond the the justification and excuses of survival system constructs.

I realize, understand and know the ridiculousness of allowing myself to be swayed by survival systems of control and suppression.

I commit myself to sharing myself and the processes walk as what it means to give as I like to receive.

I commit myself to let go of any resistance towards popularity.

I commit myself to stop self-censoring myself from a perspective of not wanting to draw attention to myself and the process of self-change I am in fact walking and have been walking for a very long time.

I commit myself to practice the living of giving as i like to receive as a way for me to birth my internal processes outward into the world as what it means to speak up, stand up and share myself as what it means to give as i like to realize - i realize, understand and know this is an extension and follow through of the giving i am first for gving to and as myself here and so from here to each one as a 'you is me' in another life here.

I commit myself to the awareness of the point, 'I got this 1 life - this one opportunity to exercise the best development and maturity of my utmost potential.

I commit myself to investigate all things and keep that which is good.

DAY 813 - EXPLAIN NATION EXPLANATION

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for becoming conflicted within and as the point of explanation – where it's like i am frustrated when and as another in my remaility demands an explanation of me. Within this – I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to BLAME another for acting as a trigger point for a deeper point within and as myself that i am not seeing clearly – and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into SPITE as like the fuck you – you're fucked out flow of blame and spite together as taking a stance of fighting/war where it's a disagreement in and as word and world regards here – not realizing – the very basic point of it always comes back to myself here – and that where there is even the smallest of movements in me – and i perceive it to be as a result of another's actions/reactions – there's a point a major point of self-accountability that requires immediate direction and self-correction.

I realize that when I experience a trigger – my reality will continue to pulsate the point untill I infact substantiate the best self-correction within myself. I realize this is quite cool in fact and really showcases the equality and oneness of process in fact here for each and every one because we are alll here to assist and support one another – wheter we realize it or not is somewhat irrelevant, because the process of fine tuning structural alignment as life itself here – is a 24/7 thing and so – Life is always Unconditional Here – and it's a very grounding experience in recognizing ourselves all together here – always all ways as what is our best in the moment response ability.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that when I am demeanding an explanation from another in my reality it generally reflects a point of misalignment within myself and that my effectiveness in receiving the support and assist from another as 'me in another life' results in and as my standing awareness one and equal – where i am not so demanding and or persuassive per se – I am simply here and in that the words flow easily – i realize and understand that when i speak with any sort of charge onto another in my reality – it creates and permeates a sort of dissonance and war like construction and constriction of best complimentary relationships – i realize that there's a tremendous responsibility to myself and so to all life here – within and as the very standing awareness of 'oneness and equality' here.

I realize and understand that there's a process of self-realization that takes place where each one here must stand alone in and as their self-realization of what it in facts means to exist all together here Alone One and Equal. I realize within and as this process – each one here is in the process of facing face so to speak as all of our faces and that sometimes for a moment, we require to let go of holding on to certain faces, spaces and places in order to fine tune the walking of our world here together as our words within and as the very life itself blueprint design – oneness and equality.

I realize there are so many dimensions to ourselves here as life itself in fact as the process structural alignment here as life birthed from and as the physical. I realize a way of simply placing perspective on the magnitude of the purity of the physical here in and as the sound body creation here – is in and as our word and so to our world regards as the sounds/words are housed inside and so to outside ourselves as an outflowing expression of our innerstanding and care taking of who we are in fact here. I realize this is an extensive process of fine tuning and re-organization in fact as like each one will always have work to do so to speak as work is the visible expression of love in fact – work is life as our ability to respond - and so much so the balance and harmony to in fact living our best life as the love in and as the work we do – is the art of play itself here – where as the words oneness and equality are recognized and substantiated as a bond/marriage fusion together – so to are the words - “work and play”.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the various conflicting definitions within and as words – where for example – a word means one thing to one person and means another thing to another person – within this – i see realize and understand there is a sharing process in and as the expression of “explanation” – where an explanation is in fact the solution as “living words in fact here” it is the 'who i am statement of accurate account and detail'. I realize, understand and know there's many ways in which to share the standing awareness of myself as who I am as the 'living words in fact here.' I realize the fun within and as the work and play in showcasing my very best regards as my in the moment – from moment to moment - statement of accurate detail and accounting – As Who I am Here.

I realize the word Explanation has much creative usage – I Realize and understand there is both a positive and a negative aspect possible within and as “explanation” itself – I realize, understand and know this to be an individual and collective process unfolding together at the same time – where first the process is on self-awareness and unfolding our word and world regards as what it in fact means to live the, “who I am – as the Living Words – In Fact Here.” I realize this is an extensive process of physical work and play and that My very work and play will be challenged and criticized extensively as this is the best way to support my continued development as what it means to In Fact – Work and Play – Here Together.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how in some moments of my process of structural ressonance alignment i've fucked with myself by becomming possessed within and as a physical addiction to energy – where I resort back into the early genesis of myself within and as an inferior behavior pattern/system and thus there is a process of self-correction required in order to actually in fact substantiate my best growth, development, maturity, expansion and structural creativity as Who I am Here as the Living Words. I realize so much so this is once again a matter of word and world regards – and that after a time – the process of exercising best response ability in substantiating the creation of substantial change as the very substance of myself that i substantiate – One bit at a time – as it is as simple as one breath at a time – one word at a time - the beauty of course coming in and as the very recognizing and regarding myself as the world itself here – One and Equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being indecisive within me at times in terms of how i will utilize my words – i forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt myself within and as my usage of words. I realize, understand and know it's a mind fuck of sorts when i become too fixated on the 'how' of myself here – it's a point of fun and funny in fact – because it's the very point of knowing the 'flip' as the 'who i am here as the flip in fact – what it means to rotate myself in and as my very outlook and perspective and realize the interconnectiedness...the very in fact multi-dimensional nature of myself as the 'who I am In Fact Here as the Living Words – as it's so much so in ReMembering myself here as all the bits/words/parts of me here that enable the How of Myself here in and as the outflowing expressions and this is so much so a process of Self-Trust as the How comes through as the outflowing expression of and as the Inner Standing of the Who I am in and as Thought, Word and Deed.

To express the above in a similar way is to recognize that How I am in thought, word and deed is a reflection of WHO I am within and as my thoughts, words and deeds – and it's a fun and funny thing because each is here in Compliment as One and Equal Here to dish out the best Assists and Goals as what it really means to live life as our best reponsibility here – I am talk about being the best sport – as all is always fully engaged!

Whether I like the weather or not is so much so a point of self-honesty in accounting for my likes and my dislikes and so much so it is a process of learning to like that which i dislike – which sounds like a strange and peculiar thing because this requires the humbleness and the humility to stand One and Equal Here as Life Itself here – and to really know all of myself here – the good and the bad of everything Here. I mean – “Investigate all things and keep what is good. This practically means to really get to know and understand the 'bad' and to actually walk the self-correction process for real in fact – the very who I am as a Best Life Creator Here – One and Equal.”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit myself within and as my usage and standing awareness of words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the seemingly infinite possibilities within and as the very limitations of myself in and as the usage and standing awareness of my words – within this – I realize, understand and know that it's about – Quality of my Words – not so much about Quantity – in and as the simplicity of and as Word and World Expressions here – I realize the art of simplicity is one and equal with the art of sophistication. I realize and understand that by saying less – it's equal and one to saying more. I realize, understand and know that this is like a basic parenting and patience process we each walk with ourselves in returning to source so to speak as what it means to learn and walk for real as one word at a time – as it is one step at a time – as it is – one breath at a time.

I realize a day is a lifetime and then sum/some because the day consists always all ways as the sum total of my sharings/givings as the very what it in fact means to live, Pro For Giving Here as a Life Broadcaster – Realizing, Understanding and Knowing that the Life Broadcast, the Playwright In Fact is always Accounting as It is the very who I am as what it means to live – Self-Accountability – and So the very process of Me Here in Fact as the Real ...and Royal 'We' Here is in Fact Always All Ways Expansive as What is in fact Best for All. This is In Deed the Science as the Signs of Awe So Me as the who I am as Awesome in Fact Here. My very living and loving as the harmony infact as the best regards creative collaboration here of and as the what it means to live the who and how of Oneness and Equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to see words for the words and rather shift and shape the words to my particular preferred way of looking at words. I realize, understand and know words to be mulitidimensional with a variety of usages, meanings, expressions, contexts, implications, infererrences, assumptions, conclusions...and really that 'words' in and of themselves are simply an extenstion/reflection of physical life substance here – and in fact are in many ways very/vary maleable and formable and complimentary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extensive nature of words as the inner manifestation of substance in fact here as our outflowing expressions here as the very physical substance building blocks here. I reaalize, understand and know the very purity of essence of my physical substance here ...this physical reality here – there's a real maleability and flexibility in and as the very flow that works/plays in compliment with the firmness and rigiidity of structure. I realize, understand and know this to be an interesting and fascinating dynamic of life substance in fact here as it's the marriage in standing awareness of 'oneness and equality' together here as what it means to bond together in unision as complimentary support – the very 1+1 equation in fact = basic math and common sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extensive nature into and as the world as war where there is a fighting for position and a sort of arguing that transpires as like this battle for supremacy and how it is rooted within and as conflicting word and world relationships within and as the very substance of the physical in fact here.

I realize, understand and know the tragic comedy of the commons here – as the suppression of common sense in fact – where there's a propensity to in fact fearing to stand alone – yet together as all as one as life in fact here – it's a tragic comedy of sorts because it's in the very questioning and conflicts that arise where an in fact Panic sets in as an outflowing justification to worry as like the perpetuated Rush experience that again is excused as like the addictiion and possesion to physical energy is a self-consumption activity in fact and it's ironicaly tragic because it's all too common to not/knot real eyes to see how we are in fact always all ways fucking ourselves within and as the positions we hold in relationship to others here when and as there's a dissonance in structural resonances alignment as 'defense' or 'offense' because in fact life is not 'sided' as one side or the other side in fact – no that is the 'art' of war so to speak as like the very game/sport of war itself here – where it's about taking and moving from position to position to strategize both a strong offense and and a strong defense – it's fascinatingly funny in fact because it's an ongoing play and work – and it continues untill One Stands Up and Recognizes the Absurd Ridiculousness in a Way where it becomes an Obvious Assist in Seeing the Point and so to sharing in the enjoyment of seeing here together clearly and having a momentary laugh of the release of suppression as like the beast of burden becoming undone...unwound in fact as like there's nothing left to hold onto in fact when and as we effectively breathe and let go in and as the very one moment of change in fact here – the very constant and continous dance of life itself here – Change. The In Fact – thought, word and deed – Weather of our Time – The Experience is Indeed Timeless.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the physical structural resonance alignment in fact as the very word and world sound equation here as the basic math in and as the marriage/bond of and as sound itself here as the purity and essence of physicality here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deceiving myself in making a believing of things to be outside of myself, not fully realizing the gravity of my inner reality as the space and place - water holder of and as my sound body alignment here – the in fact process of my structural resonance aligment. I realize, understand and know this is the matter – the life responsibility to/for physical substance in fact here – my physical body – the very answer to the question as the 'Why”...flip side of My...The very in fact Expression of Best Word and World Regards Here.

I commit myself to continue working/playing the living/loving of substance itself in fact here as the very answer and solution to “WHAT” it in Fact Means to Live as a Self-Responsible Human Being.

I commit myself to showcase the “WHO” I am as the Living Words Here – as Life In fact Birthed from and as the Physical.

I commit myself to showcase the “How” I am In fact Here as the detail and explanation into the Creative Arts of Myself Here.

I commit myself to sharing my Art Work and Playwrights as my Best Regards in Standing Awareness of what it in fact means to live as The AuthorShip Here.

DAY 812 - PLAY As the Fight for Change ItSelf Here

I Forgive Myself for Accepting and Allowing Myself for not Realizing and Understanding that Play Itself May Be Experienced as a Sort of "Fight" In and As "The Moves" Through the Energetic 'Firewalls' of Self-Impossed Limitation/Suppression.

I Forgive Myself for Accepting and Allowing Myself for Not Realizing and Understanding that In Order to Crush My Resistance....My Suppression....My Very Suppression In Fact....I Require to In Fact Do Something - To Move - To Act - To Take a Stance - To Stand Up Within Myself - to Play/Fight in a Way as the Exercising Way of Self-Direction. This can also be Referred to as the "Inner-Ninja of Change Itself." I Realize, Understand and Know this is a Living Application - the Very Nature Being 'In-Tune Here' as  'Word Regards' and it's a Physical Movement - a Very Way to Break On Free from the Chains of Self-Imposed Non-Movement. #CrushingIT

I Forgive Myself for Accepting and Allowing Myself for Not Realizing and Understanding the Extensive Energetic Physical Addiction to the Experience of 'Boredom' as a Means to Keeping Me in a State of Lock Down where there's a sort of a General "Dol Drum" to my Everyday Living as like this burried point of "Self-Defeat" in a way - Burdened by the Knowledge I Have...Perpetuating the Very Suppressed Thinking that this is all there is - Not Realizing and or Understanding my "Explosive Nature" In and as the Moment of Movement as Life Burst from and as my Physicality Here.

I Forgive Myself for Accepting and Allowing Myself for Having Resisted to Be Honest with Myself  About My in the Moment Experience of Myself. I Realize, Understand and Know the Consequence of Neglectng the Practicality of My in the Moment Word/World Regards and Specificity. I Realize the Absurd Ridiculousness of Chooosing to rather 'Hold Myself Together in a State of Physical Suppression' as my 'Default Normal Operating State' - Totally Fronting the Living Effectiveness of Myself Here -  Not Realizing, Nor Understanding the Propensity to Accept and Allow Less of Myself Here.  I Reaize, Understand and Know - How I am in Fact Able to Move as a Result of Understanding and Knowing "WHO" I am - In and as the Very Living Awareness of Myself Here- #worldclassplayer.

I Realize, Understand and Know - All Words are Alive Here - And it's a process of Word and World Regards Here - and that it's to Recognize, Understand and SPECIFICALLY Define the Very Moment to Moment Experience of Myself Here as this is #Critical to My Living Change from Moment to Moment as the very Constant and Consistency Here as Change Itself Made Manifest. #worldclassplayer

I Commit Myself to Explore What It Means to PLAY FIGHT My Way Through Any and All Firewalls I experience.  I Realize there is Indeed a Humbleness and Humility in and as the Very Nature and Dichotomy of what it means to PLAY FIGHT.

A Practical Physical Example is TICKLING and How One Responds/Reacts - Another Example is Laughter - How One Shares in and as a Joke/Funny Moment - If there is Much Suppression and Firewalls - One will Simply Decline Participation as the very Suppressed Stance of Self in Fact Living a Resistance and Refusual to SHARE PLAY Itself Here. 

A Practical Alone Physical Example of Play - is to Do something so Deliberately Out of Character - like for Instance to Yell Out Loud for No Apparent Reason - To Make Some Silly Sounds - To Get up from your desk and do 30 pushups right now - to Periodically throughout your day Decide to Flex Your Quads - to Perdiodically Throughout our day flex the Pecs - ...flex the feet pressure points - Play with physical pressure points - explore small movement pattens - there's so many movement patterns one can explore within and as the infinite moment of breath - the potential is indeed extraordinary - Suggest to Explore what is Possible within and as One Breath.

Also - Perhaps an Obvious - Yet Overlooked Example of Physical Play and Outpouring Self-Expression as the In the Moment Share of Who We Are  - Freestyle-Self-Expression-Flow - as the very speaking in the moment beyond thinking- where it's a self-trust in and as our very self-movement here - the experience is extraordinary and the results are incredible as it's a way to exercise and account for our Balance in and as our Word/World Base Here - Because Our World and Living Effectiveness is In and as Word Play . So Dare to Communicate In the Moment without the Hesitation to Doubt Yourself and Lock Yourself Into a Self-Contained Box Of Shitty Nasty Suppression.

The Inner Ninja is a Real Experience I Highly Reccomend as it can also be described as Dope as Fuck and the Camaraderie of it is in Recognizing and Regarding that we have #worlclassplayer Here as All is Part of the Group and it's the expression as Word Play Itself here as #worldclassplayer. #onenessandequality

Pleasse Note that Creation in and of Itself is Very Fun and Funny and Creatively Collaborative and There's Room for Many Words of Regard to describe/depict the Very Dance of Life Itself Here.
#Abundance.

To Be Continued with, "Dope As Fuck"

DAY 811 - PEER INFLUENCE

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress myself out of a concern for my peers.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that I am doing the best for the greater good if i simply shut up and avoid speaking about that which is regarded as contentious and or not well understood.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe and or think that if more than one of my peers makes judgement or is inquistive on my character it is necessary for me to assume a position of defense where i must entertain an inquisition into the overall character of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get caught up in the debate of right and wrong and what is and isn't permitted as acceptable behavior for myself as so defined by my peers review of and as my character in a very selective limited view of my overal reality here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having taking the bait of debate in feeling like I owe an explanation of sorts as like to explain myself in a way to put at bay the judgements and assumptions onto and perceived as my character assasination.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get caught up in the entertainment of my mates thinking - where it's like ok - i must take my mates by the hand and walk through the door of change itself here when i can see all is not clear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for playing along with less than stellar thinking and assumption as like a sort of whatevers - it is what it is - untill it's stopped - who am i to judge another for the very practice in thinking.   I realize thinking can be utilized as as tool to support effective navigations as the Life Waters Here - I realize this is a practice made perfect and it's a fine art of vocabulary recognition, remediation and elongation.

I commit myself to check myself when and as I see myself simply following allong with the thinking of others in my environment.

I commit myself to check myself when and as I resist speaking up because a position and stance has been created as a sort of resistance to my inner awareness and standing position.

I realize, understand and know - every single time - my reality presents me a test and challenge of my utmost potential and i waver in doubt as to the substantial nature of my best character response ability here - i fall in my shame as the undertainty in me to move as the trust from the core of me as who i am here as life itself - -blueprint design in fact.  I realize i will have various moments of engagement where i am tested full on in a variety of wayss as to the effectiveness of my common sense standing here as the very epitome of equality and oneness made manifest.

I commit myself here as the very epitome of equality and oneness made manifest.

I commit myself to expose systematic flaws of inferior natures.
I realize, understand and know that systems in and of themselves are not inherettently evil and that it is a matter of standing awareness of what is good and what is bad and making the labored effort to create and substantiate what systems are best in terms of providing opptimum support here - as i realize, understand and know the transition from consciousness to awareness is extensive and the best system supports will facilitate the process journey to life here.

I commit myself to continue sharing my process journey as life itself here - i realize this is an ongoing exposure and sharing into and as the nature of Play itself Here.

I commit myself to sharing Play in fact as what it means to live for real beyond the suppression state of being like a stoned system into a state of inferior acceptance and allowance - not realizing and understanding the 'keep it simple stupid' nature of change itself here - and the very How and Who I am as the very Player that Creates myself Here as the Experience of Myself Here in and as My Very Applications - I realize, understand and know the simplicity of the learning process as How I as a child like player Learns in Real Time as the very Interaction as Life Itself Here - I remember the very beginnin'gs of my process of Language Integration as the Very Elementary Humble Beginning's of Play Itself Here.

I commit myself to contnue to Play as my word and world regards Here.

I commit myself to showcase how One Word can Assist and Support Any-One to Unlock the very Suppressions and Suspicions in Word and World Regards Here.