Day 195 I Don't Feel Like It

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having self sabotaged myself with attitude of "I don't feel like it" as a self validated justification/excuse/reason for not doing something.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having tailored my participations to feelings and emotions as like being pushed into something because of an accepted and allowed positive buzz or being repelled to doing something because of a negative enregy buzz.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self righteous within the attitude of picking and choosing what I will particpate within based on the starting point of feeling.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising the ridiculousness of allowing myself to making decisions based on some form of back chat as thought/feeling/emotion as like an energy force within myself that has been given weight based on how much attention I have projected towards the subject and how it is alligned with my already programmed self interests.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having avoided facing the reality of instability by operating from within the attitude of, "I don't feel like it".

I realise the self imposed limitations as consequence of existing within a self righteous attitude of operating according to self interests based on 'feeling it' or not 'feeling it'.

I realise the abuse that is caused as neglect as a result of operating according to self interest based on feeling. Our shared reality is evidence.

I realise when and as a point emerges within myself as like a form of backchat as like pushing me towards doing or not doing something...I stop and breathe and let go of this point and realise I direct the force within myself and therfore take responsibility for self willed direction as equality and oneness from within starting point of common sense simplicity.

I commit myself to not go there as like accepting and allowing backchat to self direct myself.

I commit myself to stop giving into force within myself as accepted and allowed back chat.

I commit myself to expose the ridiculousness of backchat/self talk/feeling/emotion.

Day 194 Over Analyzer Character

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding the trap of over analysis from within and as the starting point of fear as like curiosity to see where and what comes up within myself next as like thought/feeling/emotion/reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for placing value adn worth within reaction as thoughts/feelings/emotions/reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing thoughts/feelings/emotions/reactions to be of importance within and as making decisions as who and how I am.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having limmited my movement and self direction to be influenced by my mindconsciousnbess system as the over analyzer character as being based on placing my trust within reactions as thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get stuck within the vortex of reaction as thought/feeling/emotion particpation possession.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have allowed myself to experience myself as stuck within and as the vortex of thought/feeling/emotion/reaction as consequence of accepting and allowing myself to place value and judgement within thought/feeling/emotion/reaction as like wanting and desiring specific positive energetic feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having perpetuated myself existence as an over anlayzer character stuck within the cortex of mind consciousness reaction/thoughts/feelings/emotions by allowing myself to be addicted to self righteous energy addiction as like a consequence of accepting and allowing fear within myself.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding that I can only be lost within vortex of mind consciousness system for but a moment as thought/feeling/emotion/reaction as being out of synce with and as breath awareness and as I accept and allow myself to reuturn to breath awareness I stop the sotrm of minc ocnsciousness system vortex particpation and I am here within the and as the silence of me as breath awarness here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having been addicted to particpations within and as the over analyzer character as like a way yto justify and perpetuate my particpation as a main personality ego asserting self righteous energy addiction.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding how greedy it is to over anlayse myself within myself as reaction/thought/feeling/emotions as like not realising and understanding the automatic regurgitation of mind consciousness system particpations with my accepted and allowed passive acceptances as simply allowing myself to particpate within whatever comes up within myself as thought/feeling/emotion/reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having surpessed the living of the self realisation of myself here as the solution to stopping the accepted and allowed automaticness of mind consciousness system movement and integration by taking a stand in saying till here no further and standing within the stability of breath to let go of thoughts/feelings/emotions/reactions and therfore move myself through self imposed limitations with an as the hereness of breath.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding how exstensively I have mentally masturbated myself and abused my body and others around me as consequence of accepting and allowing judgement within myself as thought/feeling/emotion/reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe who I am is thought/feeling/emotion/reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that I can get lost/stuck within and as mind consciousness system particpations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having influenced self willed direction as what is best for all from within the starting point of self compromise as placing value and importance within reactions as thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I realise the ridiculousness of allowing myself to be directed by what comes up within myself as thought/feeling/emotions/reaction.

I realise how with passive acceptance and allowance as like exisiting as an observer within myself I am consequently possessed and consumed by reactions/thoughts/feelings/emotions and self stability is compromised.

I realise the ridiuclousness of over analysing from within the starting point of mind consciousness system particpations as like a thought of a thought of a thought of a thought as like a reaction of reaction of reaction of reaction as like going down the rabbit hole within trains of thought that I allowed to move/direct me as consequence of accepted and allowed particpation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as an over analyser character as consequence of accepting and allowing myself for fearing not having control and I forgive myself for not realising how I create a false sense of control as self willed direction within myself by being influenced and controlled by my very mind consciousness created fear particpations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having operated from the starting point of fear as like trying to control and regulate fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my comfortability/uncomfortability to be related to mind consciousness system relationships within feelings as comfortability or emotions as uncomfortability.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having sacrificed physical comfortability due to over analysis of thought/feeling/emotion/reaction relationships as like of dislike based on the experience of the energy buzz.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself going into the over analyzer character as like automated thinking as consequence of accepting and allowing myself to just let my mind move on its own volition as like a passive acceptance and allowance within the guise that I am just being meticulous in making decisions as how to direct myself...I stop and breathe and I realise the startingpoint of self direction starts and stops with breath awareness.

Day 193 Over Analyzer Character

It's kind of funny how after I decided to write about the over analyzer character..... for a bunch of moments I couldnt figure out how to begin writing.... it's like I got stuck in the role of over analyzer character and I was trying to think my way into action.... as like a constant thought/feeling/emotion analysis..... as my reactions to looking at myself. Irony is, I didn't realise my actions as reactions were mimicking over analyzer character definitions. And it's like I was doubting myself as an over analyzer character which was leading to further thought/feeling/emotion/reaction analysis which perpetuated a stagnation  in my ability to begin deconstructing over analyzer character.

 

Look at the definitions listed for perpsective on the over analyzer character:

 

Over

preposition

1. above in place or position: the roof over one's head. 

 

2. above and to the other side of: to leap over a wall. 

 

3. above in authority, rank, power, etc., so as to govern, control, or have jurisdiction regarding: There is no one over her in the department now.  

 

4.so as to rest on or cover; on or upon: Throw a sheet over the bed.

 

5.on or upon, so as to cause an apparent change in one's mood, attitude, etc.: I can't imagine what has come over her.

source: http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/over?s=t

 

Analyser

1. a person, machine, or device that analyzes.   2. Optics. a polarizing device, often a Nicol prism, that indicates the direction of vibration of light by selecting and transmitting only the component of linearly polarized light in that direction.

source: http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/analyzer

 

Analyze

 

1. To examine methodically by separating into parts and studying their interrelations.

2. Chemistry To make a chemical analysis of.

3. Mathematics To make a mathematical analysis of.

4. To psychoanalyze.

source: http://www.thefreedictionary.com/Analyzer

 

 

Note: Analysis is pretty cool when the starting point of analysis is alligned as what's best for life as equality and oneness as physical common sense.

 

However, I noticed I didn't have a cool starting point for anyalysis because my starting point was influenced by fear as an uncomortable/comfortable emotion into feeling. All my analysis's were based on how I felt. My vision and my physical ability to move was influenced by how I felt. My preference was positive energy as like the buzz that moves me.

 

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating the mental mind fuck of over analysis as constant reactions to participations within mind consciousness system.

 

I realise in process of using my mind consciousness system as a feedback system tool,.......that reacting to what I see and here is ridiculous because the feedback is the feedback and generating a  buzz about the feedback is feedback on the feedback... and as I continue to investigate myself within mind consciousness system participations I am constantly getting feedback because I am in direct relation/communication with mind consciousness system.

 

I realise my interest in mind consciousness system feedback is to work through accepted and allowed behaviour programmed conditionings.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising the ridiculousness of being dependent uponf feeling to facilitate movement as like to be directed by feeling.

 

I forgive myself for not realising that particpation within over analyzer character has resulted from fear. 

 

 

 

 

 

Day 192 Anger Character

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for participating within anger from the starting point of and as reaction as conflict/friction energy buildup within myself as like an overwhelming experience where I just want to explode and unleash the wrath of vengenance upon whom I point the finger at in blame as the source of triggering me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for liking to play out the anger character as a means of feeling power as asserting my self righteous indignation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for feeling strong and protected from harm and abuse when I portray anger character as like being who is not to be fucked with or there will be hell to pay as consequence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting frustrated and irritated with myself for moments of reaction within and as anger character as like realising I lost control of physical self direction and that I gave into energetic personality system take over...due to not stopping particpation and therfore manifesting passive acceptance and allowance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having had violent thoughts as consequence of emotional reactions as anger.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having justified and validated abused and harm as consequence of being energetically possessed as anger character.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for seeing anger as an easy escape from responsibility and self discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having gone into experiences of anger as an emotional reaction as a form of hiding and submission as like to avoid facing myself as responsibility and discipline in living what is always best for life as life support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding wholesome anger as like not being based on reactional energy as polarity friction/conflict...but being based on dissatisfaction as consequence of operating as less than maximum potential/capabilities.

I realise wholesome anger as like a self expression of disgust.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared my anger reactions and feared others reactions to my anger reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having surpressed anger reactions as aconsequence of fearing of exposing anger reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding onto anger reactions and not immediately dissipating anger reactions in the moment with breath as I realise the ridiculousness of perpetuating anger reactions as like electricuting myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding that reacting in anger as emotions is like an inability to communicate effectively as like going into a point of denial as like blame and judgement and justification...as like separating self from and as the point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having liked to particpate within anger as like I felt like a macho man as mr powerful.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having particpated within and an as anger from and as the starting point of self righteous indignation as like feeling justified/validated in acting out experiences of reactional anger as I believe it to be necessary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for liking the adrenaline experience of going into intense anger reactions.

I realise the fuckedness of particpating withina anger reactions as emotional energgy personalityy possessions.

I realise the point of anger prevention as energetic emotional reaction by dissipating anger with breath by making the self willed decision to not allow myself to particpate in experience/play out of anger personality by saying no, I will not go there....and therefore stand within and as directive will within myself as directive principled living as what is best for life.

I realise the ridiculousness of anger reactions.

I realise the nastyness of anger reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being nasty and abusive as consequence of particpating within and as anger reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing life as consequenc of particpating within anger reactions.

I realise the loss of self directive control within and as anger reactions.

I realise the power experience as consequence of acce[ted and allowed inferiority as lack of self acceptance/love and therefore anger as reaction is a scape goat mechanism as consequence of all sorts of shit building up within self that just get's to be too much and an overwhelming experience.

I realise it is nasty for me to desire people to have angry reactions to me as like a form of self righteous justification of myself as being a powerful influence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself fro desiring to fuck with people to the point of people losing their shit and going crazy and bezerker in anger.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to push people over the edge as like to manipulate and insitgate in such a way that I am partly responsible for intense anger/rage reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for feeling guilty and bad within self judgement when I instigate/initiate/provoke anger reactions within people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking people's reactions to me in anger personally as like self victimization as it's all my fault and I should have been more considerate of people's feelings/emotions and not fucked with people's feelings, emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being sensitive about my feelings and emotions as like very sensitive to reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking my reactions personally.

I commit myself to dissipating experiences of anger by choosing to stop particpation within anger as attention/direction to physical breathing and to stop thought processes with regards to channelling/brewing anger up within myself.

I commit myself to exposing the ridiculousness and craziness of anger as emotional reaction.

I commit myself to not take people's reactions to me in anger personally.

I commit myself to remaining calm and not reacting to people's reactions towards me as anger.

I commit myself to assisting and supporting others to dissipate anger experiences.

When and as I see myself experiencing anger reaction within myself...I stop and breathe and allow myself to dissipate anger experience and expose point of ridiculousness...by allowing myself a laugh/gigle/smile as I recognise myself responsibility in dissipating anger from within myself.

Day 191 Self Victimization Character

Self victimization character is consequence of particpating within reactions as thoughts/feelings and emotions.  Specific applications of self victimization character include; guilt, blame, inferiority, justification and judgement.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for exisiting as a self victimization character as consequence of accepting and allowing reactions as thoughts/feelings/emotions of guilt, blame, inferiority, justification and judgement.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding that when I accept and allow myself to participate within self victimization I am terrorizing myself and all of existence as I am making the statement that I accept and allow terrorism as consequence of accepting and allowing myself to terrorize myself within mind particpations as reactions of guilt, blame, inferiority, justification, and judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for mindfucking myself with self vicitimization.

I forgive myself for not realising the ridiculousness of self victimization.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding how I was creating myself here as a self vicitimization character as consequence of accepting and allowing reactions of guilt,blame,inferiority,justification as mind back chat thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating self victimization from within a starting point of self righteous indigination as like believing that I am required to suffer because I am reacting in anger to a self realisation and believe I must suffer consequences as like future punishment for the harm and suffering I have caused.

I forgive myself for not realising that justifying abusive harm as punishment is ridiculously fucked and perpetuates abusive harm here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having dwelled within self victimization as like an accepted and allowed justified depression from the starting point of self righteous indignation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have created fucked up situations for myself that I have justified, validated, excused, blamed and reacted to as guilty conscience as consequence of accepting and allowing myself to exist here as a main personality of self righteous indignation.

I forgive myself for not realising and undrstanding that all my characters as like personalities stem from my main accepted and allowed personality...as like all points are connected to the main point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted the prevention of self victimization.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having desired to victimize and terrorize myself from the starting point of self righteous indignation.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding how I created the desire to terroize and victimize myself from within the consequences of accepting and allowing myself to exist here as a main personality character as self righteous indignation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating mind consciousness energy personalities within myself as like persona's I personify based on enrgetically charged reactions.

I forgive myself for not realising that I take on the personified character that suits the enrgetic level of my reaction.

I forgive myself for not realising that I created a pluthera of characters as energized actors so to speak as like the tonality I will act out a reaction as like consequence of suppressing myself as life self expression.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding that life self expression is not here as long as I exist within and as reactions as playing out energized persona's based on the definition as self defined reactions.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding that I created all the relationships within myself as different personified characters to respond in moments of reaction under the guise that this is me as life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted working through all the enrgized reaction personified characters I have accepted and allowed myself to participate as.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the ridiculousness of having created specific personalities for specific moments based on energized polarity charged definitions of situations.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding that how I see has been through the eyes of ego main personality as self righteous indignation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to the fact that I havent been able to see cleary my acceptances and allowances in all ways as like to immediately finish my process of self realisation within one moment as like woah, ok ya...I see and realise all my accepted and allowed bullshit...ok, I stop accepting and allowing myself to be consumed by my mind particpations as energetic reactions pulling and pushing on my physicality here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for victimizing myself as consequence of whining and complaing and comparing myself against myself as like putting myself at war with myself as like accepting and allowing myself to be competing against myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having been addicted to whining and complaing as like a form of justification and validation and excuse as like a self induced false self of comofrt for my accepted and allowed self victimization as a form of self pitty as believe to be justified within myself from and as a starting point of self righteous indignation.

I forgive myself for not realising how exstensively I have fucked with myself from the starting point of self righteous indignation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for feeling powerful and weak within and as self righteous idignation...and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for focusing on the feelings and experience of power within and as self righteous indignation and to hide and suppress the weakness/inferiority/suppression/depression.

I realise the ridiuclousness of my participations within and as self righteous indignation.

I realise how all my character personas seem to connect back to a main character persona as self righteous indignation....well maybe more like greedy self righteous indignation.

I realise I disconnect acceptances and allowances that serve no benefit to life point by point till no more do I have any points within myself acting as friction/conflict/cancer/disease as abuse to life here.

I realise I am the solution as do it yourself example as how to walk process here.


When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to victimize myself within and as reaction as any thought/feeling/emotion....I stop and breathe and release myself from self imprisonment as like letting go of the energetic chains that I accepted and allowed to hold me down as like a heaviness weighing on me restricting my physical movement and application here as I realise the ridiculousness of placing charges against myself as all of existence ...as I realise the ridiculousness of self inducing terror upon myself  as self victimization


I commit myself to expose the ridiculousness of self victimization as being an accepted and allowed act of terrorism.

I commit myself to exposing the truth about terrorism.

I commit myself to terrorism prevention .

I commit myself to life solutions that are best for life.

Day 190 Indecisive Character

Should I do this or should I not do this? hmmmmm, what to do. Looking into thoughts to make a
decision and teetering back and forth on the teeter totter of thoughts as like up and down.


I fogive myself for accepting and allowing myself for waddeling within thoughts as liketrying to search within thought for an answer/solution to making a decision.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that the more I think about something the better a decision I will make.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing consequences of a bad decision.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be influenced by feelings/emotions within making decisions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mindfuck myself within hesitation of making a decision as like allowing myself to consume myself with fear for a moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having made decisions based on feelings.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding that making decisions based on feelings is all ive ever done.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not understanding  and realising how I am capable of making decisions beyond the influence of feelings.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding that I can make decisions from and as a statting point of common sense and brutal self honesty....as like staright up simplicity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for complicating decision making process with reactions as feelings/emotions/more thoughts/thinking

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having fucked with myself by going into reactions as thoughts/feelings/emotions about decision...and perpetuating reaction...as continued thinking/feeling/emotion and indecisiveness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understand the red flags within a decision making process as like thought/feelings/emotions being like indicators of self compromise.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for mindfucking with decisions when the decision involves desire.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding desire as a mind fuck as like a manifested form of fear that fucks with me in my head.

I realise decision making process is less complicated when I leave feelings/emotions out of decsions.

I realise accepting and allowing indecisiveness within decision making is an unacceptable mindfuck that is perpetuated with backchat.

I realise myself responsibility in keeping decision making process simple as to base decisions on facts as like physical considerations.

I commit myself to when and as I see myself being indecisive, STOP and Breathe...and I allow myself to realise the ridiculousness of particpating within indecisiveness.

Day 189 Perceptual Dream Expectations Character

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing as a perceptual dream expectations character.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding a perceptual dream expectations character is like three character in 1 as like a perception character and an expectation character and a dream character all personify the makeup of a perceptual dream expectations character.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding words association as like different words always connecting to a word to explain the word as like a word always being dependent upon attachments as like a form of reliance as like needing other words to support the living of one word.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for connecting word associations as the basis of creating myself here as a perceptual dream expectations character.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for participating as a perceptual dream expectation character as consequence of conencting word associations to each word as perceptual dream expectations characters as polarity charged energies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I perpetuated the existance of myself as a perceptual dream expectation s character as consequence of particpating within conflict/friction as polarity chages energy as like the starting point of my movement, seeing, exisitng here within and as the chatracter that is pushed and pulled as impulses as pre defined accepted and alowed polarized word relationships as me participlaying/playing out experiences of myself as perceptual dream expectations character.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding how I have been existing as a self fulfilling propechy as a perceptual dream expectations character from the starting point of negative energy as the root of polarized enregy that manifests the weed of positive energy experiences due to perpetuating the root of the problem here as negative polarity charged energy friction/conflict/abuse/ignorance/disregard/possession/programming/mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating the existence here as a negative/positive polarity charged energized friction/conflict/abuse/ignorance/disregard/poession/programming/mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding how addicted I have been to creating experiences of myself within and as a perceptual dream expectations character as like always chasing and expecting to cath my dreams based on the energetically perceptualized relationships I have creating from the starting point of separation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself the starting point of existing as a perceptual dream expectations character to be that of self interested greedy self righteousness as the mantra attitude chasing after creation of desired experiences as specific conflict/friction levels within myself as mind consciousness programming as self inlicted abuse and disregard for living well being as what is best for all life as the solution.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to think of justifications as to provide myself  validation as like a self deceptive insurance that I can believe in to generate a feeling rooted in fear that will feel good as like a love energy that will be mind consiousness system comfirmation activation life enslavement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for enslaving myself within my mind as mind consciousness system programming as like a constant in game reaction simulation based on myself created relationship programming as words asssocitation with pictures as word meanings from as starting point of separation as manifested friction/conflict/split from and as life as equality and oneness as common sense physical hereness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating perceptual dream expectations character as like a form of protection as like insure my fulfillment of energized addictions as desired buzz.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to stepping out of energy suit as illusionary personified presence here as perceptual dream expectations character.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to operate free from fear as energy body suit and various character roles and developmental play outs as consequence of competition/conflict/friction as mind consciousness programming.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating abuse within myself by fearing to take self responsibility for energy addiction personified character developmental play outs as mind consciousness system programming automated existence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to discomfort in stepping out of character as like to remove the veil of automated mind consciousness fear programming as perceptual fream expectations character.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for facing fear from within a deceptive starting point as actual fear as like a friction to fear itself and therfore attempting to face fear from as starting point of hoping that if I face all fear than fear will be no more.  I forgive myself for not realising that I am standing as less than fear itself when I allow myself to hope to release and remove fear ansd I am perpeutating an inferior relationship with fear as like being in fear of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising the fear in accepting and allowing inferiority or superiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for hiding and submitting to fear controls behaviour consitioning automnated reactionary survival instinctive responses.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for always hoping that I can be fulfilled so that I no longer require to be fulfilled. I forgive myself for not realising and understanding how I have created unfillment mask and disguise by accepting and allowing myself to exist as a perceptual dream expectations character.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding the importance of prevention as like knowing how to prevent the perpetuation of polarity frictioned personified conflict as characterization rooted in competition as like disagreement as to who gets the starring role of energy consumer as physical abuser.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dwelling on experiences of discomfort when walking solution as not going there as there being into the depths of reactions/thought/thinking/feeling/emotion as energy possessed state as being like out of body as consequence of energy pushes and pulls on physical life substance.

I realise I am in the process of getting back in my body as physical here as like I have allowed myself to exist as an illusion of physical presence here as like being a sleep/not present within myself as physical director here. I realise this as consequence of being in my mind as separate from being in my body as like existing less than physicality here as make belief perceptual dream expectations character.

I realising practicing and living practice as stopping to go there as there being into my mind as like thought of a thought reacting to reaction as thought/feeling/emotion/experience/thinking/programming/mind consciousness here.

I realise my mind consciousness system here is like a feed back system mirror tool of support for me here to see where and how I have created discrepancies within myself as like polarized energetic friction as fear within my structural resonance alignment as my sound signature here.

I realise to birth myself as life from and as the physical, I am in process of harmonzing sound signature as equality and oneness as like I am removing/releasing all disharmmony as disease so that disease as disharmony exist no more.

I realise the word associations diss, harm, money within the word disharmony reflects an abusive relationship.

I realise harmony reflects the sound, 'our money' as like a sharing of life assistance and support and to sound harmoney as harm money is a disharmony as like, diss our money...as money as debt as suffering and abuse...as like perceptual dream expectations character.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding how I created the perceptual dream expectations character from within and as disharmony here as life suppression/depression/greed/suffering.

I realise myself responsibility here as life  harmony can only be accessed through taking self responsibility for my accepted and allowed disharmonies that are reflected to me through my mind consciousness system feed back tool of self exposed dissharmonies.

I realise I don't actually know life harmony because I forgot myself as life harmony here along time ago when I started particpating within the mind consciousness system of manifested disharmoney

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself fro blaming the mind fo my manifested disharmoneies here.  I forgive myself fo rnot taking self responsibility for my mind of disharmony here as polarized energy friction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for blaming the mind as separate from me as the point of self responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating mindful expression as polarized energy.

I realise the importance of releasing word association charges as accepted and allowed polarized conflict dependencies as a deceitful guise of false balance based on a feeling.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for exisiting as a perceptual dream expectations character as holding onto word association relationship charges as accepted and allowed polarized conflict dependencies as a deceitful guise of false balance based on a feelling.

I realise I am the solution as prevention of physical abuse by commiting myself to releasing accepted and allowed physical abusive enslavements from within myself as polarized word/picture relationship associations as likes and dislike based on feelings.

I realise patience is required in moving through points of discomfort as releasing/stopping particpation within reactions as pushes as as like wanting/desiring to move forward into mindful possession as like believing in the fulfilment of perceptual dream expectations as like desiring and wanting to be pulled on as consequence of accepting and allowing self to be pushed into energetic experience.

I forgive myself for not realising the source of conflict that exists within me as like a pushing and pulling on my physicality here from within the starting point of fear as mind consciousness programming controlled directions as systematic enagagement of tug of war as like pushing myself away and pulling myself back...and I forgive myself for not realiing how I disregard the physical act of pulling air into myself and pushing air out of myself and how this physical act is taking for granted when I allow my mind to direct me with energteic pushes and pulls.

I commit myself to stop pushing and pulling myself out of breath awareness and into mind consciousness possession as like particpating in process of self consumption as physical abuse perpetuation.

I commit myself to become patience as breath awareness playfullness ease as like a breeze as easy going self willed perpetuated momentum as self commit to walk process as solution as what is best for life.