Day 283 St. Patrick's Drinking Holiday

So, Today I participated in St. Patrick's day festivities which means going to various bars where green beer and green drinks were being served and people were wearing green and maybe had a green hat on...and in general were having lots of alcohol to drink.

Initially, I had no interest to witnessing any of this activity. My girlfriend had asked me and I had initially reacted with an annoyance/anger/irritation/frustration/angst as like, "no fucking way". I recognised I had some resistance towards being around such festivities since I don't drink alcohol nor do I think drinking alcohol is cool. In fact I think it's quite lame.

I decided that I would join some people I know who had asked me to join them in their St. Patrick's day endeavour's.

Some points of realisation came about during the course of the day as a result of applying self forgiveness in facing the brutal truth of my acceptances and allowances.

I realised that the anger/irritation/frustration/annoyance/angst I had in relationship to drinking alcohol was a reflection of the self judgement I was holding against myself as forms of shame and regret and embarrassment as facing the brutal truth of the reasoning as why I would participate in drinking socially....whether it was just a few drinks or it was drinking to the point of complete intoxication.

I realised that I had been projecting anger/irritation/frustration/annoyance/sadness/disappointment towards others in relationship to drinking alcohol and 'partying' because this was the emotions I was holding on against myself as self judgmental shame and regret.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take anyone's indulgence in alcohol personally.

I realise the ridiculousness of taking self abuse personally as like holding myself hostage as a victim of self abuse as consequential strong hold of self judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have avoided facing the brutal truth of my relationship with alcohol and socialising as like the desire to belong and fit in as part of the group.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have doubted myself and not included myself as fitting in as a part of the group here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have believed it is easier for me to fit in and feel a sense of belonging as  consequence of drinking alcohol with other people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe in a strong bond connection through drinking alcohol with others...as like sharing experiences of indulgence together...and sharing the projections of emotions and feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse alcohol as like a raw energy drink to amplify my feelings and emotions as a means to insuring I have fun and a good time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to utilise alcohol as a social lubricant to give me courage where courage has been suppressed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that alcohol is the gateway for me to meet and establish sexual connections with women.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have utilised alcohol as a stimulant...as like a way of amplifying the expression of myself that was buried within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ignore consequences of alcohol and alcohol abuse for temporary high of bliss as consequence of ignorance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to just want to fit in as a part of the group/societal conformity as like just wanting to be normal and doing what is the popular social past time as what is accepted and allowed as being apparently cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe drinking alcohol is a cool scene.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the lameness of the drinking alcohol scene as consequence of wanting and desired to be praised by other people as cool and hip and the life of the party.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to have compromised self integrity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to supress speaking out about the stupidity of drinking alcohol and getting drunk when someone talks to me about drinking or desiring to party and get drunk.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to avoid speaking out about the fuckedness of alcohol when given the opportunity to do so.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sympathetic for alcohol abusers and think that they don't wanna hear about how fucked alcohol is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deliberately place myself in an environment of excessive abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to project the attitude that even though I don't drink, I'm cool with others drinking.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having doubted my awesomeness and leadership skills and trend setting nature.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have resisted being a trend setter as the example as what's best for all Life as cool agreement relationships here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have desired to be a follower as like another conformist in society who is just going through the motions of emotions and feelings as chasing self interested desire without any real regard for self expansion and enhancing one's abilities and tapping into one's potential by reaching and stretching oneself to live out capabilities as a way in which brings about self expression, self expansion as what is best for all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have hoped for better leaders and cooler role models.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand myself as the way the example and role model as self expression within and as self trust and self honesty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have feared myself expression and self expansion as brutal self honesty and self trust.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have judged and feared self expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have doubted self expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have doubted self honesty and self trust as a means to living self expression as always awesomeness in the most awesome of ways.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wishing I didn't require to be an example and role model for other beings here lost within alcohol abuse as a means of societal conformity and submitting to the world system of abuse as this is just the way things are and something's just can't change.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have charged alcohol as a negative or positive energetic polarity as either love or hate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing an energetic friction conflict within myself with the word alcohol.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have accepted and allowed alcohol to be an energetic reactional trigger for me as an accepted and allowed mind fuck.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get emotional about the fact that I can't save anyone from alcohol abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to save people from alcohol abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself take anyone's alcohol abuse personally as my fault.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to dismiss each beings self responsibility in stopping self abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have suppressed my self responsibility in doubting others self responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have avoided self responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit self responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist and avoid self responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing conflict towards self responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have compromised self responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire and hope to self people and consequentially dismissed self responsibility as consequence of being a nice guy and a hero.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to be a hero as the perfect guy as like the biggest male ego held in the highest regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have thought of myself as better than other males.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that my life is sacrifice and compromise because I am better than most being's here because I am so pure in my righteousness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have desired to be well regarded as a great guy and better than most.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to dismiss my potential and capabilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself  to conform to my environment as a means of fearing standing out as individual self expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt my individual self expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear individual self expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my individual self expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have limited my individual self expression as consequence of self judgement and the desire to fit in and be accepted by others as cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be concerned with others acceptance of myself as consequence of doubting myself acceptance of myself love as unconditional assistance/support/self trust/self honesty.


I realise the ridiculousness of self suppressions.

I realise the vast ridiculousness I had accepted and allowed in relationship to alcohol.

I realise the chemical makeup of alcohol as a depressant and the brutal truth of those of abuse and consume alcohol.

I realise alcohol as a great tragedy lubricating abuse here.

I realise alcohol as self suppression and conformity to world system of abuse.

I realise each being here as the ability and will to save themselves.

I realise the awesomeness of self forgiveness in enhancing expression as the platform to walking self correction.

I realise self responsibility in being a trend setter here as what is best for all Life.

I realise self responsibility in being an example as what's best for all Life.

I realise self responsibility in living and sharing leadership skills.

I realise myself relationship agreement as a leaders ship in self direction as what is best for all life.

I realise the assistance and support in pushing points of resistance as a way to utilise and enhance understanding and learning of self acceptances here.

I realise the strength training as guaranteed self expansion as consequence of utilising resistance as a means of assistance and support as like the road map to Life as enlightenment.

I commit myself to standing within a leadership role within existence.

I commit myself to standing as a trend setter as what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to reaching my full potential as self expansion in all ways always.

I commit myself to self expansion as equality and oneness as the starting point of Life.

I commit myself to marketing myself as Life Awesomeness as Equality and Oneness.

I commit myself to Life simplicity as always the awe-so-me of equality and oneness.

I commit myself to individual self expression as equality and oneness as what is best for all Life here.

I commit myself to doing whatever is necessary in bringing forth a world system that supports Life in always that are our best.

I commit myself to share and be a living example of and as Life solution living process of practical application of equality and oneness as always awesomeness.

I commit myself to consistent constant awesomeness as always awe-so-me as what is all ways best.

Day 282 Failure Character part 2

I realise the ridiculousness of accepting and allowing any kind of failure within myself as like a personal dissapointment/resentment/self judgement.

I realise the ridiculousness of beating myself up with self judgement.

I realise the ridiculousness of placing myself within the competition frame of mind as either succeeding of failing...like winning or losing..

I realise the ridiculousness of creating frames of mind as polarity frictioned conflict within myself as like comparing characterizations as like good vs evil....or like comparing ideals.

I realise the ridiculousness of putting myself down with backchat about failure.

I realise the ridiculousness of fearing failure.

I realise the ridiculousness of charging the word failure as a neagtive charged energetic word.

I realise the word life within the word failure.

I realise the word lure and alure in the word failure.

I realise the word fail and lure within the word failure.

I realise the word relief within looking at the word failure.

I realise the word rule within the word failure.

I realise the word liar within the word failure.

I realise an equal and one starting point relationship with the all words is key to physical stability here as being physical structured sound.

I commit myself to open up meanings within words as like enabling myself to see the potential assistance and support of words as resutl of an equal and one starting point relationship with all words.

I commit myself to equalizing my vocabulary with all words so that my vocabulary and how I see words isnt limitted to polarity frictioned consequences/separations/disharmonies.

I commit myself to utilising the word failure as a practical point of assistance and support in self assessing my skills as abilities/capabilities for self expansion. I realise the word failure to be a crucial ingredient in understanding how to complete tasks.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have judged the word failure as being limmitted to a negative polarity definition.

I realise the life practicality as what is best for all life in equalizing definition of failure as common sense physical structured sound.

Failure is your fail as like the area where you need improvement as self expansion of abilities/skills. Failure assists and supports the learning process of self expansion when utilised in a practical common senscial way as a means of self correction and self perfection.

I commit myself to living the word failure as a practical tool of self support in enhancing self expansion.

I realise the word failure is a stepping stone on the journey to life.

I realise failure is never permenant.

I realise failure is like a pause for correction and re-assessment.

Day 281 Failure Character

Thought Dimension:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to picture myself not being able to accomplish certain tasks.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to picture limmitations on performance abilities and capabilities within certain tasks.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe myself to be defined to my thinking as pictured thought within my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing thoughts of failure.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself myself to believe in thoughts of failure.


Backchat Dimension:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to talk myself out of particpating within new activities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to tell myself that I should stop particpating within activities that are challenging me to learn and understand new things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to say to myself,"I don't want to do this" when it comes to particpating within particular activities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to say to myself, "I can't do this"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to say to myself, "accomplishing this is impossible"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to self talk myself out of doing things before I have even begun to participate within task(s)

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create rational/logical manipulation within backchat as reasoning/justification for non participations.

Reaction Dimension:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be influenced by emotional uncertainty as reasons and justifications as like forms of self judgement for non action/participation.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding the consequence of making self judgements based upon emotions/feelings of uncertainty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto self judgements as consequence of emotions towards trying something new.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get emotional about new experiences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with emotions towards new activities if I experience resistance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get frustrated and irritated with being humble in walking learning process from the beginning in learning new skills.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react in frustration/irritation/annoyance when I am not progressing/understanding/advancing current skill set within participating wihtin a particular activity that I have placed expectations upon myself as expediant accelleration within learning processes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react with emotions as like a sense of failure if I don't have an immediate reaction of positive feeling experience of accomplishment as like a winning satisfaction within life particpations/activities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to self victimize myself with a spectrum of emotions as a reasons/justiofications/judgements of failure.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to self sabotage myself with feelings and emotions as polarity energies out of sync with equality and oneness.

Behaviour Dimension:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into failure behaviour as consequence of accepting and allowing limitation within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within failure behaviour attitude as consequence of emotions/feelings as ego persona towards specific tasks/activities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to to create failure behaviour as self imposed limitation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify non particpation within new activities as consequence of accepting and allowing failure behaviour attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist learning/understanding how to do something as consequence of particpating within the idea/attitude/behaviour system pattern of "I can't do this, or there's no way I can finish this, what's the point of even trying, or what's the difference if I do this or not....or it won't make any difference if I do this or don't do this."

Fear Dimension:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing fear within myself as a reason/justification to exist as a failure character.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limmit myself within fear experiences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand fear as a tool of self support as a gudeline platform measurind device in testing my abilities to expand my abilities/capabilities.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding and utilising fear as a tool of self suppor for self expansion in pushing limits.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create judgements about fear as like other emotional and feeling reactions upon initial fear form.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience fear of loss and fear of diminishing ego status.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear upholding ego status of righteous superiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear walking new point from the begining.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear not knowing everything about new point when walking new point from the beginning and therfore fear fear failure in fucking things up.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear making mistakes in learning new things and within that fearing the learning process as the time frame in making real life assessements so as to assist with practical living dimensions of a point into application as like knowing how to apply skill as result of learning points involved through trial and error process.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding the practicality in being gentle with myself in learning and developping new skiills and the uselessness of beating myself up with fear as like buying into failure as a self imposed limitation

Day 280 What the Fuck is Going On?

The Earth is being picked a part like a jenga game. Which is ridiculous because when you play the jenga game, you know that collapse is inevitable.




A cool Blog I just read, "An Activist's Journey to Life, Day 316, Prince and the Pauper" http://activistsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2013/03/day-316-prince-and-pauper.html

An Activist's Journey to Life Blog exposes ridiculous everyday fuckedness that is happening as Humanity's global jenga game that is being played out by all participants here.

A cool line from the end of An Activist's Journey to LIfe Blog, Day 316, is, "I wonder what would happen if the so called lower class roles were to suddenly be stopped? Would those in the higher roles be able to continue, or would it indicate a codependency?"

Take a moment and re-read the quote.


Read it again, real slow.


Think about it.


Wonder about it.


Imagine about it.



This is some crazy ridiculousness! The fact that the state of affairs in our shared reality is sooo wack is beyond crazy....it's like crazy has become some everyday normality and it seems like things need to get crazier than crazy because humanity as species is numb as fuck.

What kind of crazier than crazy events must take place before enough people are accounted for as the custodians/guardians of the Earth as like radical fuckers who really give a shit about the well being of all Life here and will do whatever it takes to preserve and restore Life in all ways Best?

Will your self righteous personal bubble of self interested indulgences have to pop?

The self righteous personal bubbles of self interested indulgences are popping....What will you do when your bubble bursts?

All the bubbles are popping.

Join Desteni and take self responsibility and give your Life REAL meaning and integrity.
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See how Equal Money Capitalism is a viable solution in cleaning up our mess and reorganizing structural support in all ways best for all Life here.
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Day 279, Welcoming Self-Change

21 Days without smoking.








I am embracing self-change as I remove self imposed restraints from myself in always.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have resisted self change because of the fear of the unknown.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have been influenced into complacency as the ego of mind as like being at the mercy of desire.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have resisted the self commitment to slowing myself down in breath so that I am able to relase thoughts/feelings/emotions/back chat and not exist as an automated organic robot functioning on the premise of reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have desired to see more people around me in advanced processes of self-change.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that my reactions to other peoples lack of dedication to self change reflected my inner emotions as self judgements about myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare my process of self transformation to others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto personality persona's about myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto any images or ideas about myself as who and how I am.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have feared to walk alone in standing as all as one as an equal part within the whole of existence here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to miss cigarettes as like a love that I let get away.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to utilise the relationship I had with cigarettes as assistance and support in welcoming self change.

I realise the support and assistance I give myself with the application of self forgiveness.

I realise I like applying self forgiveness as like a release I give myself.

I realise the gift I am giving myself with self forgiveness.

I realise self forgiveness opense up self realisation as a key to initiating self expansion.

I realise my gratitude for learning about the effectiveness of living self forgiveness as daily bread.

I commit myself to my daily bread as self forgiveness.

I commit myself to welcoming self change.

I commit myself to embracing self change.

When and as I see myself fearing the unknown as like experiencing resistance to walking through the point, I stop and breathe...I embrace the honour, courage and integrity within myself and I realise the ridiculousness of accepting and allowing myself to submit to resistance as I realise the supporrt and assitance in resistance as being my guide as like my life road map of self direction.

Day 278 Stop Smoking with Principle Before Preference

20 Days without Smoking




2 Videos I wathced for practical perspective and insight in understanding principle before preference.

1 Stopping Smoking with Principle before Preference
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=29jglV9A6wU

2 Stopping Smoking with Principle before Preference 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D1Kyh-PQd5s


In examining principle before preference I noticed how throughout my Life many times I existed within the frame of mind of, preference before principle as like a following/choosing self interest as the way forward...like moving in alignmnet with self interested desire.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being reluctant to embrace the self realisation of principle before preference because my whole Life will change and everything I know as like how I move and make my choices will change.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear letting go of the choice of self interest as preference instead of principle.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that having the ability to choose self interested activities/movements/actions/particpations is my individual freedom and right.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist examining all my personal self interested choices out of fear of what I might realise and change.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist moving myself to change my choice from self interested preference to principle before preference.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to argue for my limitation within resisting change as what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself in processing what is best for Life as equality and oneness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that I have not been living in alignment/accordance as what is best for all Life always here as equality and oneness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist letting go of points of support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become reliant upon specific points of support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create positive feeling attachments to external relationships as points of support in my world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have reacting with negative emotions to letting go and saying good bye to specific external relationships in my world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to postpone principle allignment befgore preference.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to squander time as consequence of perpetuating self preferences before principle.

I realise the practicality as what is best for all Life in living principle before preference.

I realise the simplicity in living principle before preference.

When and as I see myself neglecting principle in favour of preference, I stop and breathe, I laugh/smile/grimace/giggle as an aha moment as realising the ridiculousness of choosing to neglect principle in favour of preference. I realign myself with self forgiveness and self corrective statements as I realise and understand self forgiveness assists and supports the aha moments as uncovering the ridiculous absurdities within and as acceptances and allowances that are less than what is best for all Life here.

Day 277 I Like Smoking

19 days without smoking





So, within my process of stopping smoking I noticed myself thinking that If I hate smoking it would seem easier for me to let smoking go as something I don't want, need or desire to participate within as a physical activity here. Through previous writings within this smoking blog series that I have been writing, I noticed how I attached love to smoking as making it a real positive energetic experience...and also how when I was a young child I created a hatred towards smoking as something stupid that nobody should do.  I see the ridiculousness of existing within a love/hate relationship as a back and forth bi-polar relationship that is a making sense of non-sense as emotion/feeling reaction energies.

I like smoking, it's cool practical physical self support that I enjoy. Smoking is fun.

I see the point of self interest here with regards to smoking....as it has been my particular self itnerested preference to smoke.

I see how I have judged myself interest preference and even placed guilt upon myself for myself interest preference.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that in order to stop particpating in something I love, I must hate it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make sense of existing within bi-polar relationships as, 'hate it or love it'.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding the conlifct polraity friction as consequence of accepting and allowing a starting point of a realtionship to exist a separation opposition as, 'hate it or love it'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself exstensively for liking to smoke.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place guilt upon myself for smoking as a means of indulging within self interest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing conflict within myself about smoking, as like a continuing battle opposition play out that I am uncertain about.

I forgive myself for accepting and allwoing myself to desire to define smoking as bad and something that I should hate because that makes sense as a form of self manipulation as why I wouldn't want to particpate within it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist wanting to see the common sense in stopping smoking as a means of principle taking precedent over preference.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist  wanting to face all points of self itnerest preference out of fear that what is best for life is for me to let go of my preferenced likes so that I can asssist and support a world that is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to live according to self interested preference.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist making self commitment to let go of self interest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist favouring what is best for Life in all ways.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear changing my starting point for existing here from self interests to the best interests of all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be greedy and selfish and nasty as consequence of fearing to live what is best for all life always as principle starting point movement as equality and oneness in living physical application here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mindfuck the shit out of myself as consequence of judging my likes and dislikes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to self sabotage myself by manipulating my likes and dislikes with a form of logical manipulation based upon making sense to assert self righteousness within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for distorting my perception of reality out of fear of losing what I have placed value in as positively charged energetic relationship that are defined as superior, relative to that which I have defined as inferior.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have focused my life upon self itnerested superiority as justified as just being a lucky winner who has a fortunate fortune amongst all the unfortunate losers.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be less than Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not give a shit about the well being of all Life here as consequence of my accepted and allowed particpations here from within and as the starting point of self interested superiority.

I realise the ridiculousness of my particpations as self interest over the principle of oneness and equality as what is best for all Life.

I realise my shame in having fought for my own self imposed limitation as consequence of resisting to letting go of self interest as that which I like and have preference towards.

I realise the ridiculousness of logical manipulation as a means of making sense of things in such a way to support self interest indulgence out of fear of facing the brutal truth of self realisation actual reality of what is here.

I realise the ridiculousness of existing within bi-polar love/hate relationships.

I realise the ridiculous consequence of perpetuating love experiences as positive energetic feelings.

I realise the ridiculous consequence of perpetuating hate experiences as negative energetic emotions.

I realise that my participations here within existence have been from the starting point of self interested ridiculousness as no regard for the interconnectedness of all Life here and specifically my part/role in being connected/entagled within and as Life Force presence as oneness and equality.

I realise understanding all facets of one relationship makes understanding everything possible because all is relative when looking at everything.

I realise the profoundness within the statement, 'Let go of everything, to lose nothing' because who I am as what's best for all Life will always remain.

When and as I see myself bullshitting myself with logical manipulation as reasoning/justification to follow desired self interest as opposed to what is best for all Life, I stop and breathe...I laugh/smile/grimace at the ridiculously abusrd mind fuck that was adverted within and as the common sense realisation of till here no further do I choose to fuck with myself in creating consequence that is less than what is best for all Life here.

I commit myself to alligning myself in the best interests of all Life here as the principle of equality and oneness as 1+1=2.

I commit myself to utilising humour as a means necessary to facilitate a World which is Best for All Life Here as Equality and Oneness.

I commit myself in utilising humour as a necessary means in facilitating a World that is always Best for All Life Here as Equality and Oneness.