Day 304 "Ring Around the Rosie"

Ring around the rosie,
pockets full of posie,
ashes, ashes,
we all fall down.

So, I was looking at the point of communication from within the starting point of reaction as like thought/feeling/emotion....any and all reactions.....and it's a viciious circle that no one benefits from...maybe there's some temporary high's along the way...but in the end every-body is fucked...like fucked in the most brutal way as like a plague the consumes everything.

How does this relate to today?

Communication existing from within and as the starting point of reaction. it's like reaction perpetuates reaction....like feeding into each situation...as like parasite behaviour....an energteic sound transfer.

Example,

Someone talks some shit, someone hears the shit talk and reacts within a spectrum of possible ways...and speaks some shit....

It's like our communication is totally fucked as it stems from being born within a cycle of fuckedness.

Look at the emotion and feeling circle of the high being relative to the low and that without the low there is no high...so, as above so below....

I was looking at myself within these equations and how I existed within the behaviour patterned tendencies to always exist as some sort of reactionary character...whether I errupt outloud or I keep my feelings/emotions/thoughts to myself.  I've always been experiencing myself within the spectrum of consequence where my starting point was to look out for myself from the perspective of survival as like me being in competition within everyone else...so my actions as consequence were never in alignmnet as what's best for everyone else.

I have been integrating the programming what's best for all Life is best for me. This contradicts my previous accepted and allowed programmed conditoned behaviour of it's all about me and that's it...having previously had no real regard for consequence...only considering consequence as a means of my own personal survival.

So, back to the point of communication here. My communication was always rooted from within the starting point of me without any real regard for you....which meant I was speaking to You for me and even though I was talking to You....it never had anything to do with You because it was always about Me....Like screw You...just desiring people to screw...like with my words...people to take them in and generate reaction in alignmnet accordance to my reactions and than say something back that causes me to say something back as like a back and forth teeter totter reaction of energy buzzing off words.

I've been communicating with my immediate family lots.....there's been lots of nastiness. Shit talk. Oppinions, put downs, cheezy compliments, bullshit rhetoric, and a little bit of calm cool collected self expression.

It's like reactions are our entertainment. Reaction sounds and looks like our action as R + e as in energetic action...but Re as after the initial action...as like in response....like responding to what was done before...Like because this was done unto me I am recipricating the action as my reaction to the action...But what was the initial action here? Because seemingly we've been within a vacume in space time cycling as Re-cycling through are actions as constant and consistant re-actions as like history repeating itself over and over again....without any real ingenuity.

Ingenuity? But there's been advancements....ya tons of self interested advancements for the benefit of an individual at the expense of the many...it's like as time progresses there's more and more of the wrong kind of ingenuity as like clever deception...as aha trickery of fool me once, shame on you but fool me twice, shame on me.

Ingenuity...engine it y....make it so....create it....creative ability....in genuine....ingenuous...In genetics You and I tied together...In gene U I ty...as real creative genius exists from the starting point that benefits both You and I.

I forgive myself for accpeting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the exstensiveness of structural re-alignment required to purify the law of my Being Here as what's always best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be impatient within communication and as consequence self victimized myself as like a mental patient.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take family shit personally.

I forgive myself fot accepting and allowing myself to resist the patience required in walking through process of structural re-alignment as to purify the law of my Being Here as what is always best for and as Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have lacked compassion and emathy in moments where I feel like I am being verbally assaulted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that great patience is the aquired skill of remaining here as breath despite the storm of consciousness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the storm of consciousness as like the constant test of my awareness and ability to exist Here as breath as constant and consistant stability despite the energetic storm of consciousness energies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand physicality as like beyond energy diminishment.

I realise it is easy to learn from my mistakes because I have made so many mistakes as consequence of existing here within and as consciousness without any consistent breath awareness.

I realise the learning process is filled with opportunity as moments of self expansion/progression in process of structural re-alignment because every moment here is a gift in walking process as the journey to Life and to use what is here in always as what is best for Life makes decision making process simple and easy because what is seen as the best pick is the best pick. If a mistake is made...than aha...there's a positive confirmation feedback of seeing a self realisation which enables self correction and re-alignment.

When and as I see myself experiencing conflict within myself, I stop and breathe and I realise and I am committed to the exstensive process of Journeying to Life as what is always Best for Life as structural re-alignmnet as the purification of the Law of my Being Here as Equality and Oneness.

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Day 303 Education and Child Labor

Education System as it exists is RIDICULOUS. Education system as it exists is exploited child labor.

Today I was looking at the point of labor within the world system. I thought about how when I was a child I thought all the grown ups were taking care of the labor, and all the work was organized. I thought about how Education is pushed onto children because it's the cycle of generation after generation as patterned behaviour consequence of it was done to me, so it is done to you....everybody has got to go through it...it's just the way things are. "You need an education to exist in this world". "You can't get a good job and have money for the toys you want if you don't get good grades at school".

So, I then looked at the point of child labor...like what if the world system was designed in such a way where children were educated about the various form of labor needed and required for the effective functioning of the cities, towns, countries,...World/Planet Earth.

The way we are educated in school from a young age everything is separated...it's like there's this cognitive dissonance from education system and how the labor force works. This is because the monetary system is never explained in school. It's like you need money....but it's never really talked about....like...money is the back bone principle driving all labor here and it's not practically explained in primary school. What is ridiuclous about the explanation of economics is that it's like it's own language system that's introduced to only some students as an introductory elective course in highschool...and then some study it in  more detail in university/college.

If we design our world effectively on a global scale as like play ground planet Earth with the common sense of the science of Awesome as Awesome is awe-so-me and what's best for all Life is best for me....then really desiging a world that is most excellent in always seems pretty simplistic.

If our shared global reality is designed and regulated on the principles of what's best for all Life is always best for me and give as You like to receive...then the Awesomeness as stake is beyond our current imagination because it's like trying to imagine a colour that doesnt exist...lol.

Look at the practicality of being retired from the labor force by the age of 30. Think about it. How could it be practically possible for all beings to retire from the global labor force by the age of 30 if we have a global collective that's educated and works from within the starting point principles of what's best for all Life is best for me, and give as You like to receive? If education works congruently with labor...all beings here is educated to work effectively in caretaking and maintaing a most excellent play ground planet earth for all Life to in-joy Here.

The Awesomeness at stake is exponetially profound beyond all imagination.

This is what we've been waiting for! Waiting?

Why the Fuck are we waiting to make Heaven on Earth Our practical shared living reality?

Check out how we labor this so at the following links:

http://equalmoney.org/

http://economistjourneytolife.blogspot.com/

http://desteni.org

http://desteniiprocess.com

http://destonians.com

Day 302 Food Relations

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have not really investigated food relations as how I can use food to best support my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding onto assumptions about food nutrition without actually investigating my relationships with food as being the direct science experiment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse food.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have disregarded quality substance of food in favour of the taste and feeling experience I get when consuming the food.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have made such a big importance about the taste of my food as like taking precedence over the quality of substance I am ingesting as physical body support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place trust in ridiculous beliefs and assumptions about food as like "if it was really that bad for me it would be illegal"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blindly believe cultural norms about nutrition without actually investigating and cross referencing the information myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be lazy with regards to food/meal preparation and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire quick fix's as like fast foods and frozen foods.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that my existing food relationships are consequence of my childhood programming.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not taking the consumption of food seriously.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the potential and inherent dangers of mixing and combining certain foods together.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the importance of making sure I am giving my body the best Life support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have had an apathetic attitude towards nutrition as like 'there's no point'  and 'it's not that big of deal because were all gonna die anyway'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to make changes to my diet that are best for my physical well being because I will lose the things I like that maybe I shouldnt be eating.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have resisted investigating nutrition and my food relationships as consequence of fearing to lose certain food relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fuck with my body as consequence of loss.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the irony within fear of loss and fucking with my body because fear of loss is like insuring the loss of physical body here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist the labour involved in preparing quality meals.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have been defensive and resistant to investigating the fact that I have been eating lots of food.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that body requires lots of food to be supported as what's best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have had a relationship with food and eating as fear of loss as like if I don't eat all this food now than it will be wasted and no good or maybe someone else will eat it later and I will get a chance to eat the rest of this food later.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a greedy relationship with food as consequence of fearing to miss out on the opportunity to eat more food.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be possessed and obsessed by food.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have had a rebellious attitude about food and nutrition.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be addicted to stuffing myself full with food.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to eat my food real fast sometimes as like not even really appreciating what I am eating and really taking the time to enjoy it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to eat food quickly as like getting an energy buzz/rush as like a drug high experience from rapid indulgence of food.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that it may not be best physical body support to consume liquids while eating food.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have regarded my stomach as like a bottomless pit that just burns up whatever I put in it and it's really no big deal because my body will process it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard the physical processes my body must go through as consequence of the foods I consume.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand how I have been taxing my physical body as consequence of the nature of my relationship with food and the ways in which I have consumed food.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding my body as physical substance  and the food I eat as physical substance.

I realise the ridiculously negligent actions on my part in disregarding the importance of investigating my relationships with food as like what is the best foods to support my body at all times.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have dissmissed food as such a vital role in my physical well being here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist the detective work involved in detecting what works best for my body.

I commit myself to investigating what is the best foods to support my body here.

I commit myself to to a thorough investigation of how to best support my physical body.

I commit myself to substance that is always best.

I commit myself to stopping all substance abuse.

I commit myself to realising and understanding myself as substance in all ways always Here.

I commit myself to purifying my food relations to that which is always best.

Day 301 The Word "Scam" and the Word "Cult"

Today I had some reaction within myself to the word "scam" and to the word "cult".  The words were used in such a way a fear mongering justification as to dismiss any real practical insight. Well, this is how I interpreted and reacted to the words being spoken.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect exstensive amounts of fear to the words "scam" and "cult".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate tricker with the words "scam" and "cult".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get offended when Desteni is referred to as a cult.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get annoyed when Eqafe is called a scam.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take people's oppinions and judgements personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be bothered by the words "cult" and "scam"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the words "cult" and "scam"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive the words "cult" and "scam" as abusive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have an abusive relationship with the words, "cult" and "scam".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take the words "cult" and "scam" personally as having consequentially scammed myself and disregarded the cult of culture I was born into and conditioned within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have held onto "cult" and "scam" as negative enregtic polarized words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the harm and the abuse that comes from accepting and allowing abusive relationship with words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to have been mildly irritated with beings use of the words "cult" and "scam"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the reaction I had of mild irritation as consequence of listening to another beings words, ... reflected my accepted and allowed relationship with the words and exposed to me where correction in my vocabulary were required as a means of purifying my vocabulary here as Living Words that can stand the testaments of Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and udnerstand the importance of examining my relationship with every words as a means of making sure no disagreeement/disharmony exists within my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the manifestation of disease being disharmony in words....which results from the acceptances and allowance of a polarized energetic relationship with words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have defined differentiating values to words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have categorised words into high energetic values, low energetic values...and neutral energetic values as like neither good or bad...such kind of whatever.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to restrict access to Life within and as my relationship with words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not value all words as one and equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to corrupt and polute words with fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist the patience required to sytematically meticulously re-program my vocabulary word by word.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that words are programmed into the living flesh.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist the labour in re-defining words as what is best.

When and as I see myself reacting to a word, I stop and breathe and I realise this moment as an opportunity/gift of self correction in purifying my vocabulary. I seize the moment by making the best of the situation by re-establishing my word relationship to the starting point of equality and oneness.

Scam: fraudulent business...like a mask of deception disguised as legitimate.

Cult: from the word culture and in the word difficult. Culture, the cult You are. Cult sounds kinda like called out..or called....culled...cull....cult is like being picked out or picking out and subscribing to particular beliefs. When you are born you are culled out or picked out as likebeing welcomed in to the cult where your mother and father are the cult leaders. Cult is like cultivate as a child is cultivated by the cult of the culture.

so to clarify the word Cult:  Cult comes from our culture which is here and We are all Here which means we all are reponsibile for the cultivation of our cult as the cult We are and to realise and understand our Culture is within difficulties and so without difficulties will be to establish that which is always best....cult rhymmes with vault and then there's the waltz like the dance as the fancy prance dance as our stance to when the time is right, release all secrets from the vault as an end to diffuclt times and a Here's to new beginning as the cultural play with the words we say as always all ways living the best sequential play of the consequence outflow of our sound self expression as word relationships together in perfect harmony as the sound organs organising the simplistic nature of awesomeness as the cult as is a Part as the beginning and the end merged together as a starting point one and equal as an all knowing we cultivating our culture as our cult here as each member has picked themselves as worth of Life.

So cool to play with what I say in expressing some awesomeness in word discovery significance as me seeing beyond the vels of fear as the restrainst that bounded me within limitation and kept me from seeing beyond into the depths of perception as common sense obviousness as the obvious nesting place of Life, yesterday, today and tomorow as all ways always what's best.

so to clarify and simplify the defintion of the word "cult" one last time,...lol....untill next time?...lol.....Cult is a specific part of who we are as culture as the the 'cult You are'. Cult is a specific part of cultivation. Cult is a specific part of difficult. Cult as Life Principle of what is always best is consistent and constant way to live a specific part as who and how We are as the Cult You/Me/We Are as Life Agriculture grown and expanded to be cultivated again and again as the gift that keeps on giving as the song that remains eternal Awe-So-Me

Day 300 Correcting a Polarized Relationship with Clothes

So, Today i made a YouTube video talking about what kind of clothes I would wear to a wedding that I am attending in a little over a week. I decided to make a YouTube video to just talk about the point. Afterwards I almost deleted the video because I was kinda of ashamed and a little bit embarassed about what I had been consumed with regards what clothes I will wear and specifically the relationship with the clothes. I mean I see the ridiculousness in my accepted and allowed relationship with clothes...and I see how I was looking for a conflict so to speak and the wedding being a point of clonflict for me from the perspective that there seems to be alot of preference around wearing particular types of clothes. And within this...I didn't really consider the point that maybe I've been trying to hide and suppress the nature of my relationship with clothes by just taking on the attitude that I don't give a shit what I wear as long as Im comfortable. I see actually that when I was younger I very much liked to pick out my clothes in the morning for the day...and I very much enjoyed having new clothes and spring and summer clothes and fall and winter clothes and fancy clothes and bedtime clothes and work clothes and basically all sorts of types of clothes to support me in all sorts of different specifc ways.

Oh ya, here is the YouTube video I made, kind of a brutalexposure,"Wedding Dress Etiquette"   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v v=sYMjo-t8_p0

I see also that I was making a big deal about the wedding point as a way of deflecting the points wihtin myself to be faced with regards to my relationship with clothes and how I have been disregarding my relationship with clothes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make a big deal about what clothes I wear to the wedding.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have a polarized relationship with clothes as like believing that wearing sweat pants to a wedding carries a negative enrgetic charge and wearing dress pants and a dress shirt carries a positive eneregtic charge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have a love/hate realtionship with formal wear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have desired to dress differently than everyone at the wedding as a means of holding onto conflict towards everyone as like me and my self interests against the world.

I forgive myself for accpeitng and allowing myself to create fashion judgements as positive and negative enrgies.

I forgive myself for accpeting and allowing myself to judge myself accprding to the clothes I am wearing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge others according to the clothes they are wearing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to face the nature of my relationship with clothes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect the nature of my relationship with clothes.

I forgive myself for accpeting and allowing myself ot disregard the nature of my relationship with clothes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have cut of self enjoyment from picking out my clothes to where each day.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have taken on the character person of I dont give a shit about what clothes I wear...but really I do.

I forgive myself for accpeting and allowing myself for engaging my parents and girlfriend about me wearing a tracksuit to the wedding as a means of stirring the pot and generating conflict/friction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to like being the point of resistance with others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as a point of resistance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge the way I look in clothes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be resistant to wearing formal clothes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get emotional about clothes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to project blame onto majority of humanity as society as being fashion conformist.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make a big deal about fashion.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take fashion very personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide from my accepted and allowed relationship with fashion as taking fashion very seriously.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being kind of embarassed that I take fashion seriously as like dressing for success and comfort/relaxation support and stability.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have defined fashion as a femine thing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the point of fashion as consequence of judging myself for taking fashion seriously and than reacting in denial with the rebellion and I don't give a fuck attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have justified the I don't give a fuck about fashion attitude from the starting point of my own personal style of dress from the perspective of fear of lossing money as consequence of being addicted and obsessed with clothes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear losing money to such an extsent that I have resisted buying myself new clothes for such a long time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have held onto conflict within myself about fashion/clothes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the ridiculousness of my accepted and allowed relationship with clothes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have suppressed my enjoyment of clothes because I have gained weight and many of clothes I have don't fit me aswell as I like.

I forgive myself for accpeting and allowing myself to have resisted buying myself some bigger clothes as consequence of being dissapointed that I have gained weight and my old clothes don't fit the same as they used to.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear letting go of my old clothes that don't fit me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to lose my old clothes that don't fit me now out of fear that they will fit me again later on and I won't have them anymore.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be greedy in my relationship with clothes as like hoarding clothes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing myself to have been selfish in my relationship to clothes and fashion.

I forgive myself for accpeting and allowing myself to take my clothes for granted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand how my mood has been influenced by the clothes I am wearing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have suppressed physical enjoyment from putting on clean clothes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have taken for granted that I have clean clothes.

I forgive myself for accpeting and allowing myself to desire fancy clothes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear spending my money on fancy clothes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to spend my money on cheap clothes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify getting cheap clothes and the fear of lossing money by saying to myself that cheap clothes are just as good as fancy clothes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have a conflict within myself about cheap clothes and expensive clothes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have resisted quality clothing as consequence of judging myself for only wearing really good quality clothing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be embarassed at the ridiculousness of my relationship with clothes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have defined myself as who and how I am by the clothes that I wear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define others as who and how they are by the clothes that they wear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating opinnions, thoughts and ideas about people based on the clothes they are wearing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being nasty as consequence of allowing an abusive relationship with clothes/fashion.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make assumptions and people based on the clothes they are wearing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and udnerstand the delusions I have particpated in with regards to clothing/fashion.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise andunderstand the polarized energies within myself in relationsip to clothes and fashion.

clothes is like the cloths I wear....clothes is what I use to close my body off from experiencing the cold as my clothes are close to me and clothes keep me warm and comfortable and protect my skin.

Fashion is like how we fasten ourselves together which is fascinating. fashion....

I realise the ridiculousness of accepting and allowing myself to exist within a polarized relationship with clothes.

I realise the ridiuclousness of making a big deal about wearing particular clothes to a wedding.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make a big deal about wearing fancy dress suit or a an athletic track suit to the wedding.

I realise the ridiculousness of being a fashion extremist.

I realise the ridiculousness of polarizing the word fashion with either a positive or a negative charge,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have defined fashion with a negative energetic charge.


When and as I see myself making a big deal about fashion...like what I should wear, I stop and breathe and I realise the ridiculousnes of getting overwhelmed about putting clothes on.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make a big deal about putting clothes on.

When and as I see myself reacting to clothes, I stop and breathe and I realise the ridiculousness of taking clothes personally.

When and as I see myself desiring to wear particular clothes to instigate reaction, I stop and breathe...I realise the ridiculousness of existing within the starting point of desire.

Day 299 Black Sheep of the Family Part 2

So, an interesint point as like an aha realisation as wow.  In existing as the Black Sheep character within my family I noticed an interesting thing, my starting point has always been self interest with regards to my family. Like always me first, my experience. I became aware of the point of predicative programming...and realised how I am capable and able to change the nature of my own predicative programming when I step out of self interest and enable myself to regard others as equal to myself.  It's really tough..actually impossible to exist from a starting point of oneness and equality with all Life here when one's starting point is skewed in egoic self interest.  I realised how I had just kind of accepted my family to be the way they are and that's that...like this is just how things are...and that myself responsibility is to make the best of things from the perspective of just focusing on me. Within this perception that I enacted for sometime, I realised how I closed myself up and was very standoffish and keeping myself locked within a specific perception of self induced hypnosis. A total mind fuck that I perpetuated like a daily time loop....totally existing within predicative programming as opperating according to conditions of acceptances and allowances.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that accepting and allowing limitation within others as like holding onto particular beliefs/judgements is delusional and in fact enacts a form of self hypnosis that is to be avoided at all costs.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise the ridiuclousness of my timelooping as consequence of being stuck within family judgements.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have held  myself back within family expansion as consequence of selfishness as like a form of righteous dogmatic thinking of myself as better and morally superior.

I forgive myself for accpeting and allowing myself to have resisted breaking the bariers of predicative programming as consequence of giving up personal preferences and desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have argued for myself imposed limitations within family particpations as consequence of fearing to let go of desired self interests.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be stubborn with my immediate family in holding onto self righteous judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand my family memembers as like really know the depths of them as consequence of holding onto formed picture perceptions as how I believe them to be a behaviour personalities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have resisted letting go of myself defined behaviour persona's as like the self imposed predicative programming behaviour patterns that I have developped over tima as my thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise myself responsibility in breaking the veils of predicative programming as a means of enacting and enabling self expansion here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have burdened myself and all of existence as consequence of my selfish behaviour.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself ot disregard Life as consequence of my selfish behaviour.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be a selfish individual who's starting point is rooted in greed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted directing myself out of patterened behaviours as consequence of fearing to let go of what I know and like as having preference towards.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being uncomfortable in stepping out of my comfort zone as like letting go of accepted and allowed preferecnes/bias.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have not realised the ridiculousness of my behaviour patterns of arguing/conflict within myself as like really just coping with self imposed lethargy and heaviness within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have disregarded myself as consequence of disregarding others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself ot not realise and understand that my relationship with every being reflects my relationship with myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have been blinded by my own disregard for others emotional well being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have resisted keeping myself in the shoes of my family memebers.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be at war with my siblings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have rules of engagment with family members as like meaning ok, once I react soo  much to something someone says than I dont give a fuck and let loose a verbal assault.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowin myself to verbally assault my family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to terrorize my family with verbal abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to bully my family by deliberately going out of my way to mindfuck the shit out of them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mindfuck the shit out of my family from the starting point of self righteousness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to belittle my family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself ot belittle myself wihtin my family relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have been stubborn in accepting and allowing myself to remain patient within predictive programming.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself in process of self realisation as like how much time it takes for me to have which realisations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the ridiculousness of taking anything personal within personal process as the burtal self hoensty required in facing all persons persona's and letting go of all masks of deception.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have been resistant and reluctant of great change.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doddle within the face of great change.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for feeling like I should be more amped to rush the facilitation of great change.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge my patience as either a positive or a negative energetic charge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to attach a positive polarity charge to the word patience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have been less than capable of all that I am able to be capable of.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for caring about ego persona imaging within the family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have resisted equalizing myself with all my family memebers as consequence of resisting to let go of super ego self righteous authority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to assert super ego self righteous authority.

I realise the ridiculousness of being stubborn within cycles of predictive programming.

I realise the ridiculousness of my family particpations from the starting point of self interest and disregard for others.

I realise myself resposnibility in breaking the veils of predictive programming.

I realise myself responsibility in stepping out of character as the way to facilitate great change that is all ways best for everyone.

I realise I am capable and able to facilitate great change that is all ways best for Life.

I realise myself responsibility in facilitating great change within myself that is all ways best for Life.

I realise myself repsonsibility Here as an author of Living Words as a creator from and as the starting point of Oneness and Equality.

I realise my role in cleaning up the mess I've accepted and allowed myself to exist within.

When and as I see myself holding onto formed oppinions about my family members, I stop and breathe and I realise the ridiculousness of creating a slef hypnosis delusion.

When and as I see myself resisting breaking the barriers of predictive programming, I stop and breathe and I break the barriers of predicitve programming in ways that are cool acts of self expansion as a realise the importance of utilizing all resources here as parts of me...parts of source as assistance and support in walking Journey to Life.

When and as I see myself in conflict with a family member, I stop and breath and I realise the ridiculousness of accepting and allowing conflict...I smile and let go of holding a grudge and rules of engagement as how to do combat with others as like how I can always win in verbal assaults.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be a bully in always verbally assualting others if they start it first...as like justifying verbal assualt to be ok if the other being initiated it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself ot have jsutified and validated verbal assault within myself.

When and as I see myself about to verbally assault someone, I stop and breathe and I realie the inhuman abuse as like war perpetuating madness insanity it is to use words like weapons.

When and as I see myself resisting to let go of self interest when ineteracting with family and have the opportunity to share in on some family fun, I stop and breathe and I realise the opportunity for some family fun that is being presented for all Here to enjoy. I push through resistance and embrace family fun.

When and as I see myself being pressured to engage in combat as like verbal assualt as like energy games with family members, I stop and breath...I realise the ridiculousness of self inducing myself into volunteering to particpate in enerrgy games...and I realise the ridiuclousness of chooosing to particpate in energy games as like choosing self harm and abuse to others.

Day 298 Post Your Are as Posture

Today I've been at my desk most of the day looking at the computer screen as I have lots of research to move through with regards to my university studies. I noticed that my posture was bad and that I was sulking my shoulders...it's like I wasnt really holding myself up within myself.  I started to play around with my seating a little bit and I had some resistance to an upright postured alignment.  I noticed also that within existing in a shitty posture that I wasnt really aware of how shitty my posture was as I wasnt really aware of breathing. I noticed I would have brief moments of attention to breathing and that was when I needed to stretch myself....possibly a consequence of my bad posture. Also, I would have moments of noticing my breathing when a point of reaction would come up within myself...although sometimes I think I was just sighing and not really aware of myself as breath stability. I also noticed that I was easily tired existing with bad posture...like I was sitting in my chair because it was necessay for me to be in my chair but I wasn't really owning my pose...like a standing up within myself and embracing all of myself while sitting in the chair.  There existed a heaviness within myself while sitting in the chair...it's like I wasnt happy about sitting in the chair.

I looked at the point of sitting upright. I reflected within myself as to when this may have origniated because initially in examinning the point of sitting in a chair... I thought to myself, I always slouch and kind of hunch myself over or try to lean back in be in a  laid back positioning.

I recalled myself at piano lessons with my piano teacher. My piano teacher telling me about posture.  the discussion came up because I was sitting on the piano bench with bad posture. She explained to me the importance of good posture for playing the piano. Also she said that if I had a bad posture now, I would be sure to have bad posture when I am older and that could lead to problems. I recall testing out the upright good posture...and thinking ugghh this is work....I really am aware of myself sitting here...I don't like really feeling myself sitting here....it's much easier to sit here without feeling.

It's ridiculous the thought process that I accepted and allowed as like I didnt like feeling myself within sitting...meaning being aware of my body as like I preferred a numbness so to speak.

I noticed this behaviour within myself was like a giving in/up before I even really tried to be good at having good posture.

I see that I had justification as bullshit reasoning as to why I resisted and rebelled against good posture. I viewed piano teacher as someone I didnt really appreciate because I didn't want to be taking piano lessons. My parents were forcing me to take piano lessons and I didn't have a choice in the matter and I didnt like that. I was angry/frustrated and upset that I was missing out on doing what I wanted to do.

I had a rebellious attitude and I was willing to fight against assistance and support as like fighting/arguing for my limitation as a self interested ego reactionary response oriented individual.

The irony Here is that i'm not very good at the piano and I wish I was good at the piano and knew everything about playing the piano. I didn't think the piano was cool when I was little and now I think it would be real cool to rock out on the piano....playing and singing like Ray Charles.

I see that I created a negative relationship towards the word posture as consequence of existing within a rebellious attitude towards playing the piano.

I remember being at school and a teacher was talking about posture...and I remembered thinking about memory I had with regards to posture with my piano teacher...and I remember thinking like fuck posture...this is bullshit...and I was angry and had even more resistance...more of a neagtive energetic charge to the word posture.

In recent years I have written and spoken about the importance of posture...but I did not dig to the depths of myself to really access the origins of myself created relationship with and as the word posture.

I recall playing with the word a little bit as your posture refelcts yourself as like a picture poster as how you are presenting yourself within your stance positioning and that body positioning says lots about a being.

I didn't consider within the word posture that you are posting your acceptances and allowances for everyone to see externally in and as reflection of your posture as posture is a self reflection of the accepted and allowed posts within oneself as like the feelings/emotions/words.

Playing with the word posture for a moment as like a physical structural stretch. lol posture is like a physical structural stretch that never ends as long as were  breathing as we just change the positioning of our poses from time to time which reflects our physical balance, condtioning, stability, discipline, patience, practice, core muscles as our Hereness expression.

Posture...posterior...pasture...post sure....a sure posting as like posture is the indication of confidence or not...posture indicates unconscious physical acceptances and allowances. Posture is close in spelling to pasture and a good posture and a good pasture are very similar in that both's goodness is a result of physical conditioning in the sense that a good pasture is rich in vegetation....and vegetation grows upright...lol...posture and pasture...maybe a bit of a stretch but a good place to strech is for sure in the pasture and stretching is all about posture as it's all about hold a pose as like the positionings you could picture poster yourself in as stability in balance.

Posture is refelcted from the posterior as you want to stand tall like a tree in the pasture as upright positioning as a straight back is an indication of good posture because in order to have  a straight back you gotta be standing up within yourself as like a physical self stability in standing up for youself as the confidence to exist here within certainty of the moment of your physicality here.

Notice some really old people have really bad postures like being hunched way over forwards and in such an instance it's really difficult to hold your head up high as the structural alignment of the beings spine is bent/pushed forward as consequence of weighing one self down as like not wanting to feel the bodily presence of standing up within onself. The alternative to standing up within oneself is being numb within one's physicality and experiencing the heaviness of being weighed down as like a tiredness and a heaviness as like carrying the weight and stress as all kinds of emotional baggaged trauma of existing here against oneself as not realising and understanding self as the force of Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have negatively charged the word posture.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have separated myself from and as good posture as consequence of accepting and allowing myself to judge posture.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand myself within and as self reflection of words based upon early memory relationships here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have resisted and suppressed the Life Force within myself and desired to choose numbeness over physical feelings Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have suppressed physicality within myself here as consequence of accepting and allowing myself to argue and fight for my limitations as self imprisonment within my physicality.

I forgive myself for accpeting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that my relationship with words reflects the natured conditioning of my body here and how and why I exist with my body the way I do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself  for having resisted taking self responsibility for my body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the connection to physical breath awareness and posture.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that my posture is a result of labouring breath by breath as physical working body expression here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that I have access to physical body self expression when I am labouring my breathing here as focused self disciplined responsible constant and consitent individual participation as equality and oneness within and as physicality here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding breathing as like the stem which brings water to the roots of physicality here and as consequence keeps me grounded within stuctured physicality here as a tree with deep roots.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding breath and breathing as the root stem system of physical self expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist my posting here as my posture as a self expression as who and how I am Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that bad posture indicates bad breathing as like a shallowness and a weakness which results in a physical weakness as self compromise.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have neglected my physicality here as consequence of having existed within shallowness of breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the consequences of shallowness of breath as like shutting down physical capabilities and limitless possibilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understand that bad posture is consequence of the acceptances and allowance of fear.

I commit myself to good posture

I commit myself to sharing the awesomeness of expression within posture as like a physical body communication indicating the state of a beings acceptances and allowances.

I commit myself to living posture as a self expression poster of oneness and equality as what is best for Life.

I commit myself to becoming a constant consistent posture of what is always best for Life as consequence of self disciplined laboured commitment to breathing.

I commit myself to establishing physical presence as consequence of breathing awareness.

I commit myself to enhancing physical stability and nourishment as consequence of deeper breathing.

I commit myself to stopping shallow breathing.

I commit myself to learning to develop constant and consistent deep breathing.

I commit myself to learning from my mistakes.

I commit myself to the time and space necessary to birth myself as life physicality Here.

When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to be slouching within myself as like a here but not really here as consequence of being consumed within consciousness...I stop and breathe deep air as water into myself igniting the Life Force Fire that I am.

When and as I see myself hunched over my chair, I stop and breathe deep and hold my breath and centre myself within myself as like re-alligning my posture and stretch myself out as a point of physical body support and nourishment here. I realise myself responsibilite Here within breath. I realise myself expression is a reflection of my self direction in breathing Here.

When and as I see myself neglecting my posture, I stop and breathe and I realise the ridiculousness of neglecting my posture. I face myself as consequence of neglecting my posture and re-align myself with breath self expression here.

When and as I see myself resisting something, I stop and breathe and as consequence of breath awareness I re-align physical posture to a position of assistance and support as a means of nourishing well being as I enable myself to see what I was resisting with integrity and humilty. I walk appropriate in the moment living correction as what is best for Life.

When and as I see someone I know existing within suppressed posture as consequence of shallowness of breathing as accepted and allowed fear as a consciousness mind fuck, I stop and breathe and I assess the situation from the starting point of what is best for all is best for me.