Day 248 Is it Possible to Stop Perpetuating Fuckedness?

Yes, it is possible to stop perpetuating fuckedness.

Each individual being is the key holder as the way.



Finding the way becomes sharing the way as Life is for-giving.



Forgive Everything.



To Forgive Everything is to give for every thing...as the epitome of understanding the principle, 'give as you like to receive'



The hardest thing to realize is ourself as source of fuckedness. What? Me? But I'm just one individual being......
It's gotta be some other beings to blame as who are responsible for the perpetuating fuckedness existing here.........BULLSHIT....Each being here is the Source of situation here.



Attempting to shift the blame away from self responsibility here is Lame,,, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to shift the blame away from self responsibility here.



Facing myself with brutal self honesty means facing Everything,




Self Forgiveness, self honesty, self trust, and patience is the recipe formula as how to utilise key to stopping perpetuation of fuckedness.



I have found out that self forgiveness is only difficult when self honesty/self trust is being fucked with as consequence of accepting and allowing the choice.



What's more important than stopping the perpetuation of fuckedness?

Who is more important than stopping the perpetuation of fuckedness?

Who's responsible for the perpetuation of fuckedness?



Agreed is the individual greed shared collectively as the same greed as the same point of agreement....aligning the greed to what is best as the best interest of self...as what's best for you is best for me is the basis of a sound agreement where all is agreed here as oneness and equality together as sharing in greatness/awesomeness/excellence/perfection as what is best is common sense agreed understanding here....so, everyone knows as knowing thy self here is understood as the root cause of why what is best can be predictable.

Day 247 How I Stopped Weed Addiction

Self Forgiveness was the key tool of self support in letting go of weed addiction. Self forgiveness assited me alot with weed addiction because I forgave myself on all the positive memory experiences I had associated with weed. Initially stopping weed was tough for me because I had some many positive feelings about weed and I would have seemingly random thoughts come up within myself about having an urge/craving to smoke weed as like to have a postive feeling experience.

Through applying self forgiveness exstensively on my relationship with weed...I released the positive feeling energetic charges I was holding within myself about weed.

Inititially I was flip flopping between feeling and emotions about weed....like I would go from it being a positive thing to a negative thing...and this was a total energteic mind fuck that I had induced as consequence of trying to direct my decisions/movement in relationship to weed based upon feelings and emotions.

It's interesting that I tried to facilitate stopping smoking weed based on creating negative emotions about weed...because that is like the flip side of the coin of positive feelings.

Within stopping weed addiction I realized the ridiculousness of movement from within and as the starting point of positive feelings or negative emotions. I noticed how everything I would want to do would be based upon positive feelings as like forms of desire to gratify self interest indulgences...and everything I would not want to do would be as consequence of accepting and allowing negative emotions about things...as like resisting what I don't have good feelings about.

Through intensive examination of myself within my acceptances and allowances in relationship to weed, I realized how operating from within and as the principle of what is best for all Life here is beyond existing within and as feelings and emotions. I learned that all feelings and emotions are rooted in and as forms of Fear. I realzed that untill I release all accepted and allowed forms of fear from within myself as feelings/emotions,...I am in process of self correction, purifying the law of my being, establishing myself here as equality and oneness as my starting point for existing.

I realized that I had started smoking weed and enjoyed smoking weed because it made me feel good...as like existing within and as positive feelings. I realized that weed was assisting and supporting positive feelings within myself and was helping me to relax and feel at ease because I was actually quite surpressed and had lots of negative emotions existent within myself. I realized that smoking weed just kind of camoflauged my inner issues and therfore provided me with a temporary escape from my regular day to day internal stress that had been accumulating throughout the years.

I realized that I had perpetuated self suppressions within myself by continuing to smoke weed for years...and that I was just burrying shit that I wanted to forget about within myself...But...I realized that forgetting shit...as like releasing all the energetic charges as feelings and emotions on past memories/events is only possible with the application of self forgiveness as like the gift giving to self...as like forgive and forget go hand in hand.

I realized I had made letting go of weed addiction seemingly difficult at times because I accepted and allowed letting go of weed addiction to be difficult.

Day 246 Heaven's Journey to Life Blog

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect the daily gift in allowing myself the opportunity to read Heaven's Journey to Life blog.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for feeling disapointed that I have'nt read every single one of Heaven's Journey to Life Blogs.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect the assistance and support that is being shared within Heaven's Journey to Life blog's.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience regret that I havent kept up to date with Heaven's Journey to Life Blog's.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto regret that I am behind in time with regard to reading Heaven's Journey to Life blogs and I am trying to play cathcup in order to be up to date with all the material as words of assistance and support shared within and as Heaven's Journey to Life Blog.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding, what's done is done in terms of time gone by...and that dwelling upon missed passed opportunities serves no purpose.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being upset with myself that I allowed myself to fall behind in the daily reading of Heaven's Journey to Life Blog's.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want and desire to be capable and able to take in all available information at all times with effortless ease...so that I always have all assistance and support of available information here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be hard on myself for not being up to date with having each daily blogging entry within and as Heaven;s Journey to Life.

I realise the daily practical assistance and support  from reading Heaven's Hourney to Life Blog series.

I realise I am capable and able to make a point of reading 2 Heaven's Journey to Life Blog's as a means of daily assistance and support...and also this is a way in time to become up to date with the sharing words of assitance and support within Heaven's Journey to Life Blogs.

I realise the absurd ridiculousness of dwelling on the past and perpetuating the continued past cycled pattern behaviour playouts that are not alligned with what's best for all Life here as equality and oneness.

I realise a point of self responsibility in making a daily commitment to read 2 Heaven's Journey to Life Blog's.

I realise Heaven's Journey to Life Blog's as a gift of awesomeness.

I realise I am grateful for Heaven's Journey to Life Blog's.

When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to neglect reading Heaven's Journey to Life Blog...when I see that I have some moments to do so, I stop and breathe...and I allow myself the opportunity to receive the gift of awesomeness in reading Heaven's Journey to Life Blog's.

When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself choosing not to read Heaven's Journey to Life Blog, because I dont, feel like it...I stop and breath. I realise the ridiculous mind fuck of neglecting a gift of awesomeness as assitance and support in reading Heaven's Journey to Life Blog's.

I commit myself to making a point of reading 2 Heaven's Journey to Life Blog's a day in systematic order, so that I can walk through all the dimensions of points shared within reading Heaven's Journey to Life.

I commit myself to sharing the awesomeness received in reading Heaven's Journey to Life Blog's.

check the link here to Heaven's Journey to Life Blog: http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com/

Day 245 Sexualized Sexual Eyes

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think and believe it is normal and just part of human nature to be sexualized has having sexual eyes as like preferences for particular body imaging.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to objectify specific body parts as sexy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to sexify as like to objectify men and women.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe it is perfectly natural to create levels of physical attraction based on individual physiques.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that having reactions to particular physical physiques is a natural human phenomena.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how my reactions to particular physical physiques have been conditioned through the media/television/movies/porn.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to objectify women based upon my physical reaction to them as energetic buzz.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create sexual fantasies based on reacting to physical attratctions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as like constant reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself not to realise that physical attraction is based on an energetic reaction within myself...as like reacting to specific external stimuli...as like particular sights being more stimulating than others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand all the details of stimulation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be obsessed by stimulation as gooood feelings.

I forgive myself fro accepting and allowing myself to be addicted to positive energteic reactions as positive stimulation as goood feelings.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding the extent to which I am programmed by stimuli in my environment.

I forigve myself for not realising and understanding how conditioned I am.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and consider the sexualized conditioning of society as a whole based upon all accepted and allowed forms of programming here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not consider the total extent of sexual programming existent within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within and as specific sexual conditioning.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding how I have particpated within and as my sexual programming.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make a big deal about sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to obsess about sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be fascinated about sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wonder why the sexual relationships exist the way they do within our shared reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having desired to have women to have sex with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to choose specific women to sexualize.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create a rating system of sexual worthiness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get to know women bases upon my sexual reactions to them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have sexual desires to have sexual experiences with women I have never had sexual experiences with before.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be addicted to sexual experiences with new women.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fantasize about new sexual experiences with new women I am sexually attracted to.

 

 

 

 

 

Day 244 Life Coaching Commitments

I commit myself to being an excellent Life Coach.

I commit myself to advertising my Life Coaching skills.

I commit myself to branding myself as an Awesome Life Coach.

I commit myself to providing opportunities for other human beings to become excellent Life Coaches through the assistance and support of myself and the Desteni I Process Pro training.

I commit myself to living self forgiveness as a core principle of Life Coaching.

I commit myself to explaining and exemplifying the awesomeness of Life Coaching.

I commit myself to self expansion as a Life Coach.

I commit myself to embracing myself as an Awesome Life Coach in the process business of Self expansion.

I commit myself as a Life Coach to Self Mastery.

I commit myself to sharing myself as a Life Coach.

I commit myself to assistance and support as Life Coaching.

I commit myself to becoming a role model Life Coach in and as all ways awesome.

Day 243 Life Coaching

 

 

So, throughout my weekend of social networking with strangers with different angers…I noticed a peculiar thing…Initially I only informed one person that I am a life coach….it’s like I skipped this pertinent detail of who/how I am and what I am doing here.  I see that I did this out of fear as like not wanting to go into the point to much as like people asking me lots of questions and such. I see that I feared the attention that had the possibility of being directed towards me.

What’s interesting about this is that the one person I informed of this wanted to ask me questions about relationships and a specific personal situation that was happening in her life. This individual informed everyone else that I was a life coach and the spot light was on me to share some words of support with others as a result of others asking me specific personal and intimate questions. I enjoy sharing words of support and assistance and I am quite capable and able to do so with effortless ease.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear sharing the fact that I am a Life coach as a result of continuous participation within and as the Desteni I Process.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear exposing myself as a Life coach.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to avoid exposing myself as a Life coach out of fear of being challenged and bombarded with questions and within this fearing that perhaps I won’t be able to answer someone’s question.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself and place expectations about how others will react to me upon me sharing specific information about myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt my abilities and capabilities to self-direct any situation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the expression of myself as consequence of holding back sharing pertinent details about myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise, understand and consider the awesomeness of not accepting and allowing myself to censor myself out of fear of reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to over analyze situations as consequence of accepting and allowing myself to fear outcomes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mind fuck myself as consequence of accepting and allowing myself to participate within self-judgements as like various forms of fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the fact that I am a Desteni I Process Life Coach.

I realise the ridiculousness of accepting and allowing myself to suppress the facts of who I am here within and as physical participations.

I realise the ridiculousness of accepting and allowing fear to limit my sharing expression of myself here.

I realise my capabilities and abilities to share words of assistance and support.

I realise I don’t really have a choice in sharing who/how I am here as creating the choice is like accepting and allowing separation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to choose separation from all as one as equal here.

I realise self-responsibility in self-expression as self-honesty and self-forgiveness.

I realise the ridiculousness of accepting and allowing any sort of judgemental creation as like choosing to accept and allow doubt through judgement is completely absurd.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate within and as ridiculously absurd behaviours as consequence of accepting and allowing me to choose to mind fuck me in various ways.

When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to mind fuck me in various ways, I stop and I breathe and I allow myself to make the choice to stop mind fucking myself…as I realise the ridiculousness of choosing to mind fuck myself.

When and as I see myself resisting to share details about myself such as what I do, I stop and breathe and I allow myself to face point of resistance as my road map indicator that I am working on point of self-expansion by pushing point of resistance…as the point of resistance assists and support self-expansion when resistance is utilised as strength training.

 

 

 

Day 242 Always Be Networking

Ok, so I agreed to come to a friend of a friends cottage for the weekend so that we could do skiing on the weekend and I had placed some initial self-judgements and expectations on the type of people I would be meeting…as like some self-doubt of the awesomeness of the individuals I would be meeting that I previously did not know. Doing so is ridiculous absurdity….a mind fuck to be avoided.

So even though I mind fucked myself a bit I realized the ridiculous of what I was doing and allowed myself to get to know the individuals that I didn’t previously know…and wow, ya, awesomeness is the result. I’ve learned lots of cool stuff already. I’ve made cool connections with people here that will assist and support me in various ways.

So,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create expectations as self-judgements and self-doubts about people I haven’t allowed myself to get to know.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of creating expectations from within and as a starting point of limitations as polarity fractioned conflict as consequence of accepting and allowing myself to place myself above others as like better than others.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding that I am responsible for self-induced mind fucks as consequence of accepting and allowing myself to exist within polarity fractioned conflict with other human beings.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding myself responsibility equalize my relationship here with all human beings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ignore the fact that any reactions within myself about other human beings reflects my inner acceptances and allowances that are consequently being shown to me externally.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the common sense simplicity of how I physically see is a result of what I accept and allow myself to see within myself.

I realise and understand self-intimacy as into me I see and that as I see into me I see you is me as I realize myself as existence here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect the gifts as giving and receiving as networking as sharing, establishing and strengthening connections/relationships/agreements.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect the awesomeness of networking as a means of great self-support

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding networking as a give and take relationship based in and as the principle of equality and oneness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to have sabotaged networking opportunities as consequence of self-righteous superiority as a result of accepted and allowed suppressed inferiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ignore Life as perfect harmony as networking relationships.

I am grateful for and as networking relationships.

I am grateful for physicality as a series of networking relationship agreements in perfect unison.

When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to mind fuck myself by creating self-judgement expectations based in and as self-doubt, I stop and breathe and I take a moment to realize the absurd ridiculousness of my participations and I take another moment to laugh/giggle/smile/chuckle at myself as a joke as consequence of my ridiculous acceptances and allowance….and also I realise my laughter/smile/chuckle/giggle/smile is a physical action of self-realization as like a ha-ha moment as connection learning as I get it, I got it, I see here clear.